My discouragement.

It's been long since i posted. It was hard, getting over the emotism stage, and the discouragement, and depresssion, but you know what I'm back! and im staying the way i am. I doubt if the dicpleship was THE cause of the problem, but perhaps it was. I really dont know as i'm generally ok with it, but. goodness. So, we managed to talk it over, hahahahaha. I thought i was going through alot, but perhaps, maybe... well, i cant really pinpoint the fault on anybody, but really, i think it was also my fault. To stop doing so much, and to stop putting so muc responsibility on myself.[Eric's words] Maybe it's just coz i didnt turn to a particular someone for help. Now, it's time to change. To not rely on myself anymore. It's time to rely on God, where He is limitless where i am limited. To tap onto his strength, my honour to be used in his glory. Thanks Eric! =]

Agnetta will beat Gabriel at hungry hippos.

Thank you for eveything Eric! =]

[Father, ThankYou, for allowing me back into your embrace, that love and mercy.Nothing can take me away from You, and let Nothing take me away from what You want Me to do.]

(it might not be the best shot, but at least I'm glad that i have a friend like you.)

Shockingly true. Read it and weep.

I picked this off of a bulletin of a friend on friendster. As a fellow sibling in christ, I found this shockingly true, much as i dont want to abmit it. Read it, and i sincerely hope that it'll actually bring you the revelation of how you might have strayed from God, even without you knowing.

“I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices.You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world.So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will takeaway your joy.” (John 16:20-22 NIV)

Worship/Fellowship — There are somedays when, frankly, I don’t feel muchlike worshiping God. There are probably more days like that than I’dcare to admit.

But usually those are days are whenI’m staring at my circumstances and making faithless judgments about whatI see around me. And I struggle withthe God-truth that he is in the circumstances that surround my life –all the circumstances.

Have you ever considered that heartbreak is part of God’s plans foryou, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and afuture”? (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV) We put so much energy into avoiding the hurt when God would have us embrace it. He wants us to know that he can heal our hurts, even use our hurts for his benefit, and for us to faithfully believe that sometimes the circumstances we think are harming us are actually positive situations God is engineering.

God, who is omnipotent, sees the breadth and depth of our circumstances, and he knows his plans for our lives. Thinking, then, like Christ, we can slowly, ever so slowly,begin to understand that avoiding the pain in our lives is actually an actof faithlessness. God calls us to faith in him during difficult circumstances; we’d rather place our faith in avoiding the circumstances.

As always, Jesus shows us the way –because he is the Way. Jesus embracedthe pain of God’s plan for his life,and he did it with full faith that God was still working the plan to bring a “hope and a future” to your life and mine. (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV) Christ was so sure that his grief would turn to joy that he showed a radiant certainty in God’s faithfulness (“Radiantcertainty” is a phrase William Barclayuses to describe the attitude of Jesusat the Last Supper).

Our Brother Jesus, who is also ourKing, was heading into a crisis that would cost him His life, yet He was so certain – radiantly certain – of God’sfaithfulness that not one of his disciples even discerned the gravityof the crisis! Jesus was so certain of God’s faithfulness that it radiates throughout his whole being.

And we, too, can have this radiant certainty about God’s hand in ourl ives. We can say, when it comes to God’s faithfulness, “I know because Iknow that I know.” That’s radiant certainty! The Cross was Christ’sglory, not His penalty – and the sameis true of difficult circumstances inour lives.

So what?

• God’s faithful character - You willdevelop this radiant certainty in Godwhen you learn to trust in hisfaithful character. Your daily worshipof God is irrevocably tied to yourfaith in God.• Praise God anyhow - You must choose to praise and worship God every day,no matter what the circumstances ofyour life. Developing a radiantcertainty in God begins with simplesteps of faith and obedience.

• Respond to God, not your circumstances - When faced with apainful or difficult circumstance, askGod, “How do you want me to respond tothis?” Keep your eyes wise forthe ‘Why me?’ traps that lay aboutyour circumstances.You can be radiantly certain of this:Difficult circumstances areopportunities for you to intentionally focus your faith in God and to seewhat he will do to give you hope andhealing.

You can be radiantly certain of this:Difficult circumstances areopportunities for you to intentionallyfocus your faith in God and to seewhat he will do to give you hope and healing.

Random

I miss someone. I miss that look he has when he has something important on his mind. I miss that special attention he gives when talking to people individually. I miss that smile upon his lips, that never seem to fade.

In short, I MISS CHARLESTON!!

hahahahahahahahaha. what were you guys thinking arhz? hahahahaha.

Agnetta misses people today.

Agnetta is tired.

Agnetta will win Gabriel Lee at hungry hippos.

EQ? haha

Your EQ is 160

50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's" Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

Gabriel, here's for you.

Firstly, to Gabriel, here's the the post to you, so stop complaining that i dont update!! hahaz. and stop bullying me you monkey!! dont throw your bananas at me la. just eat them la you. and no nuts either i telll you. and im not going to die, coz you cant kill me. B L E H!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

hahaz. well, this post is really about school. imagine, it was just a few months back that we finished our O lvls and walked out of the school gate screaming it's over!! then next came the JAE results. then the posting. imagine, where DID all the time fly to? i imagned the 3months to crawl by, yet, look, and it's gone. so here i am stuck in MI [but that's a story for later.]

grr. hhaaz. i seem to always chop my stories half way. sorry to those reading, coz i am usually chased off, or i just get bored. usually the latter.


Well, cant really rmb much, well, also due to the fact that im lazy to think, but the most recent thing that happened is IGNITE YOUTH CONFERENCE!!!

just gonna copyright this from Gabriel's blog, [I've gotta pay him more more than 5 cents for this{hoGc if you understand please dont laugh out loud, laugh out really loud k.} haha]

10 things I learnt and was impacted from Ignite Conference 2007:-
1) To love God more, depend and rely more on Him
2) To love my pastors and leaders more, I'm more grateful to have great leaders like them
3) To rise and and be a great youth leader for God
4) To love others more, especially my sheep
5) To put myself in the shoes of others
6) To be excellent in everything I do for God, do my best in all that I have now
7) To have more faith and be confident of who I am in God's eyes
8) To stand and be bold, not to be intimidated and influenced by what isn't right
9) To appreciate the friends I have in church more
10) To know that there is no place like home

(:Reading between the lines... ((:

Gabriel, you're monkey and always will be a monkey.

But here's my ten things i've learnt:

1) Love my God more, for he is always there, even when you're in doubt.
2) Do not try and be a sales person. I will never succeed, neither will i succeed in getting t-shirts with the phrase more attached to it.
3) To appreciate our Pastors and Leaders, who have been with us all the way.
4) To appreciate what our pastors and leaders have taught us, knowing that they've come a long way to train us to be the cream of the crop.
5) To really rise up in usher and not let what we saw there make us contented with how we're doing already, but to really strive harder and know that we're really gonna be capable of being THE cream of the crop.
6) To give all my best to him, and to hold firm and stand strong.
7) To understand that I'm loved, no matter how far He might seem from me.
8) To stand firm and strong in what i believe in, and in this case, it's God!!
9) To really love the friends I've made in church, Kinonn, Gabriel, Leonard, and their just being there for me.
10) [this will be similar to Gabriel's] Knowing that there's no place like home!!


Well, i sort of had high expectations of Ignite, when info about Ignite came out and people were signing up for it. So, i signed up for it. I wanted to be there, but, so pathetically, i was the only person from my CG to attend all 3 days, other than Leonard, who was on Hospi cum EC. though not supposed to be any of the latter. The first night i was there, and as i walked into the cathedral grounds, i was massively disappointed. not, because the building was old, not because the place was difficult to get to. No, it was none of that. you wanna know what was the first thing that turned me off? TRAFFIC USHERS!! well, i know it might not mean alot to most of you, but, as a Heart of God usher, to me, it means alot. Firstly, you do not ever put 2 traffic ushers in the same spot!! YOU DONT NEED 2 TRAFFIC USHERS STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD!! especially when they're not even doing theire work and are talking amongst each other. Sermon that night was great though, however, with their first impression cum traffic team already failed, needless to say, traffic team in auditorium fare none better than those in the middle of the road, trying to be super heroes. HOGC was seperated into tiny groups all over. grr. irritating. so left with Me, Pam, Joanne, and Gerald in the middle of no where, with Chek Yao and some guys a couple of rows in front, and E zone a couple more rows behind. So, here comes tricky part. we as HOGC are used to answering pastors. hence, after not long, we were named th WOW church grrr. trying to be sarcastic eh? at least my pastors know im alive!! So, having been seperated, i was the only person from my area to shout wow, as Pam and Joanne were pretty tired. and people started looking at me. at least i answer my pastors, letting them know that i;m paying attention to what they're saying. there was this super annoyting group of people infron and behind of the 4 of us who were passing sweets from the front to the back, what in the world are you here for, not just that, they were talking. are you here for a conference or here to talk? if you wanna talk get out man. grr.

Second day morning!! hoGc was playing!! hahaz. all the HOGC youth rushed down to scream yell and cheer for our band!! those who are not that fond of jumping, made the extra effort to jump and support our band, and those like Kinonn and Gabriel who are the normal kind got super hyper. I know for one, Gabby was jumping sky high!!! woohoo!! hahaz. going mad. hahaz. Sermon by Pastor Pat was different, and as pastors and youth leaders laid hands on people, they started falling under the power of the holy spirit and crashing to the fall. likewise, topic goes back to ignite ushers. where were they? in front trying to get laid hands on. WHAT ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE FALLING DOWN!! where's your servant heartedness?? where's your caring about others? grrr. i saw a youth leader, guy, laying a girl down. I'm sure all HOGC see the wrong here. guy, girl. Youth pastor laying girl down. grr. to the extent that our own ushers initiaed themselves, like Sweet, who went around catching people. running around. imagine. after service, we went for lunch, went for lunch with B zone guys, kinonn, eric, melvin, zi ang. hahaz. Eric really showed me a totally diff side of him from what i knew. wow. hahaz. so we went back for Pastor Lia's session on Relationships. hahaz. [rolls eyes] hahaz. imagine, majority of the HOGC ppl are late. after that, got yelled at for going to Ignite. grr. then went fot the night session. the ushers there were being rude, and refused to open section C for us, as pastors wanted us to sit together. imagine closing 2 sections and trying to fit 1500 ppl into the space that can only fit 500. madness. so, when the opened section C, it took us some time to shift from section B to C. after that, Sab and i went around, initiating our a couple more of ushers to settle Our people down as during our normal services. Miracle. HOGC got settled down in less than 2 mins. amazing. this is the times when you think that HOGC is a divided, and here's when you see them come together as ONE CHURCH. The night session was a totally different experience, very weird, and just not something that any HOGC would be used to. It wasnt with the flow of what we're used to.

Last day of ignite. this time round, i only went for the last session. like wise, ushers were bad, as per usual, and well, sermon was awesome though. this is the last straw i think for any HOGC usher. as pastors and leaders went forward to get prayed for, we were asked to form lines behind our pastors. and as both our pastors werent' there, we decided to give the rest the space we needed. then next thing i knew, i was being pushed back, and i saw miaow guan pushing chairs back. i knew that there must be people on the floor already. so, i must say, this is the first time, i really went forward and did anything. well, maybe it's also coz i was infront. i was shifting books and bags, as i couldn't shift chairs. then we all stepped back. i was also asked to try and catch some of the girls, who were not from our church, as our male ushers could only catch the girls from HOGC. and you know what? the girl i was suppose to catch was taller than me. then again. where's ignite's ushers? why are WE catching THE congregation? our ushers initiated themselves, our church took the first leap forward. then they had some extra praises at the end of everything. repeat: praise songs. then let me ask: who jumps during the part of the song king of majesty that goes [king of majesty i have one desire] WHO JUMPS? a coupla us were just muttering to each other, they're just going crazy, treating this place like a disco. well, we exited fast, but thea was injured, so had to bring her back. and, THAT THE END OF IGNITE!!!! hahaz.

and here's to say, WE'RE GOING BACK TO DHOBY GHAUT FTMS HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! home sweet home!!! Im just gonna say, if this affected you, drop a comment, and not a tag. come direct to me, if you have any problems with this. in any case, it's my blog, my freedom of sppech. if you're not happy with me, you can always look for me..


To kinonn, Eric, Leonard and Gabby.
Thanks.


Agnetta.
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i miss you!!

it's been 2 full weeks since i last posted. coz it's been 2 reports. hahaz. yeah. nothing much to write about actually. i've just been super busy!! hahaz. it's so super cool and so fun!! hahaz. but, just wanna say some things to some people:

"Jie":please know that we still love you k. no matter what.

my dearest qq: please dont dont dont you ever leave me behind.. it's so strange coming with you not there. please please please come back?

jewel the gem: hold strong and know that we're always here for you.

Gabriel: dont dont dont EVER cut your hair.

Lu: pray girl. pray for her.

that should be all people. i love my God, i love my Pastors and my leaders. and the people around me, and i LOVE MY LIFE!!! pray for our leaders, as Charleston is going in on the 15th! of march.. oh my. and Leonard's going in on the 12th of April. oh my. oh my. oh my. let's all pray they get 8-5 schedules..



Love,
Agnetta.
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Valentine's Day!

You know what, it has been the best Valentine's ever for me. I know i said that last year when i went out, but this year far far FAR surpasses all of the previous years put together.

This Year's Valentine was spent with, you guessed it right. with Heart of God Church! If you're wondering if Im an Idiot to wanna spend time with Church and in Church, well, i just gotta say that i think you're the much bigger idiot!! hahaz. for NOT coming.

Well, church had a movie screening today, playing "the perfect man". As my friends were watching inside, i had to stay out to write a card for someone very important to me. They, the SA guys came. actually, only Jem Tan, Jem Ong, and Danny. hahaz. So, had to talk to them hahaz. though i was only halfway through the card that i was making for Jem Tan. So, had to distract them from me. hahaz. then went in with them to watch but had to sneak out. hahaz. Im always so busy!! but you know what!!!???!!! i love every single minute of it!! hahaz. so after the show, I'd finish with the card, prayed over the book, and kept it. hahaz. then we met up and went for dinner, thoough transition was much longer. coz everyone was waiting for me. or so they said they were. hahaz. though i dont know why. hahaz. So we went for dinner. really love spending time with all of them especially Jem Tan!!! hahaz he can set me off laughing by my just thinking of his face. Yet, it also really warms my heart to know that i could do something to change him. Jem Ong is also fun. hahaz. That Lizard man. hahaz. he calls me violent girl. so i call him lizard man. coz he does look likt a lizard!! hahaz.

So, after dinner, went home with Pam, Jem Tan and Danny. So, here's coming my valentine pressies. No.1, from Jem Tan!! hahaz. it was nothing tangible, but it proved a god present as it was to exhibition of shock and surprise as i passed him his present.! He so did not expect it from me! hahaz. that look!! hahaz. and Jem, it's no problem for me. Second pressie was from Danny. Nothing tangible again, but it was when we were walking to the bus interchange, when i was sharing th gospel with him. About Mud wrestling and Cleansing water. It was his questioning and receptiveness that lifted my day.

Who cares about getting tangible Valentine's Day presents?You mean, you'd only love someone on Valentine's Day and none other? And does this also mean that you'd shower them with Presents and love only on this "special" day?

Now i know that the true understanding of Giving is much more rewarding than recieving. I'll tell you what tangible present i recieved. It's actually a rose from Nadine. i think she made it herself. [it's a paper rose, if you're thinking anything.] As i rushed the card for Jeremy, i felt the sense of urgency, but not ont of Panic. As i gave the book away, i felt more glad than when i recieved anything [i usually feel a heart pain when giving things away coz they are usually expensive.] As i walked with Danny to the Bus interchange, we talked alot, and shared alot. what goes on is strictly between us and the leaders only. hahaz. well, it was his openess [if there is such word] that was THE great Valentine's Day present. To give out the Gospel so freely and so openly without restrictions is a wonderful gift. I know truely understand the meaning of giving and not just recieving. and i must say this to all those who recieved more than they gave, i must say, you really should give more. just like me!! hahaz i stayed up till late to make cookies for church. hahaz. and they were made with loads and loads of love, making them so much more nicer than normal cookies!! i think sister evelyn would agree with me!! hahaz.

Well, anyway, just one last footnote you all, Happy Valentine's day and remember to love your Loved ones not just on Valentine's day k..



With Love..




14th February
Agnetta.

junky stuff.

wed was a pretty boring day if i dont remember wrongly. hahaz unless i went for Follow up with leonard. which i really can remember. i think i did. then came thurs which i cancelled my work coz of my pineapple tarts. then cam friday for my results. I went into a state of shock at it. i got 17 for r4 only. haiz. cried. called leonard, cried somemore, talked to Joakim, Melvyn and daryl and cried somemore. they hugged me and made me cry somemore. haiz.

then came Sat. went to church. almost late for CG. haiz. CG WAS SO AWESOME!! hahaz. though i had to forfeit twice. hahaz. nvm i still did my forfeit. hahaz. i was sporting. hahaz. me, eugene and von had to blow tissue in the air. hahaz. diaox. hahaz. that was the first game. then me all the poeple with names starting with A kenna to sing national athem outside in the cafe area. hahaz. so maluating. hahaz. well, maybe not. hahaz. people in church are so sporting that they didnt laugh [well, they did who wouldnt] but they clapped along with us. hahaz. really love you all heart of God. well, i didnt find it maluatin. though i think some did. :P well, that's for CG. then went for lunch. actually more of bought back. CG attendance was pretty lousy as most of the Innova people were coming on Sunday due to their Funfair being held on sat. then later went for dinner. went to meridien, then realised that i didnt have cash on me. so had to borrow from Jem. wanted to borrow from Jem ong, then he didnt have enough so Jem tan took back his 10 bucks, returned it to him and took out 10 from his wallet and passed it to me. hahaz. he's a really nice guy k. dont you anyhow talk about him arhz. then went back to play foosball. hahaz. but someone really demoralised me by being super emo. it was really so demoralising. i didnt know what to do that night. haiz. but when u reached home, i was online and talking to that person. on the way home i was actually thinking to myself.[me Pamela and Samanthan shared a cab back. and they were sleeping. i think everyone was tired.and i couldnt sleep.] was i too something to the extent that people didnt want to talk to me about anything? so when i reached home, i actually wanted him to msg me when we got home, but he didnt, so i had to disturb him about it. then he told me alot of things. then it hit me. God kept the best for me, just as Jesus kept the best wine for last when it ran out. it really broke my heart to hear so many things from him, i didnt expect to. but well, it really help renew his relationship with God, and i'd not have given up the conversation we had for anything.

come Sunday. had usher. and woke up late, coz i was sick haiz. so cab down. though i was suppose to go to ZK's church. so was late by abit. then usher yada yada. then service started. this is the first week that the neither pastors were around. so, our leaders took charge. Dominic, Garrett and Charleston!! hahaz. it's so inspiring to see charleston and the rest rise up. to really lead the church. and it also shows us how much effort the pastors and leaders have out in to bring up such a good church to the extent that we dont need to have the pastors with us. then finish usher. STOCK CHECK!!!! hahaz. really alot of things to count. hahaz and all of us were hungry, so me and alumn got Pam to buy food back for us. hungry hungry. then talking to kinnon and the rest.really love spending time with HOGC man. hahaz. then kinnon made this comment. "drums without skills is noise. Drums with skills is alot of noise!" hahaz. good one. hahaz. then my sister came hahaz. then she went for dinner with Ester they all. then i was talking to Charleston. Feels really good man, judgin by the fact that Charleston doesnt really have much time kind then she came back and were playing foosball hahaz. then me and her were playing, so charleston joined us. he was playing with me. hahaz. then jian ming oso came. hahaz he complain we bully rytha hahaz. so he played with her against us. hahaz!!! hahaz it's really so awesome to spend time with the leaders lorz. it feels really really Good.!!! hahaz. Charleston and myself won the first match, but lost the second one to Jianming and Rytha. though we missed by one point. hahaz. i must say that playing with Charleston is really fun and really uplifting due to the fact that we dont really spend much time with our leaders and they dont have much time to spend with us. really glad to have spent so much time with Charleston. =)

Well, that should be all i think hahaz. so, good night everyone.

12.02.07
Agnetta.

New year...... and new month also

I know. it's one week past New year. I just haven't had time ti post anything actually. I've been caling people up, bursting my phone bill for this, askin people out, working my arse off, going to church, [nothing bad to say bout that] and not getting enough sleep. For once, I'm not able to sleep for someone else other than myself. hahz.

Well, New Year!!!!!
1st: Create and Heart Awards!!
2nd: work at home. sianz.
3rd: brought my bro to school and yada yada.
4th. work at woodlands.
5th:got my cupboard done, or measured more like. Called some guys up to go watch movie on sat.
6th: work in the morning. went to church. suppose to watch movie but canceled coz JS not free. then went to serangoon to celebrate cousin's bdae.

7th: toda's my mom's birthday. bought her a apple strudel which served as her cake.

OKIE..
I'm going to stop here since i didn't post since seriously long time ago, msybe just want in the mood. hahaz.

But, the thing i really wanna blog about is hahaz, you're going to think this is so weird. hahaz. It is [watching the ASEAN CUP finals, Singapore Thailand match in church with the guys.] hahaz. i was the only girl there as i didnt want to go home early that night. so i waited, and ended up in the auditorium watching with the guys. and i was like th only girl. Though, i can say this, it really is an experience. When Singapore scored their last goal, the guys in front stood up and cheered. and i must tell youm church guys are pretty tall. hahaz. they like blocked half my screen. well, i wasn't really paying attention. hahaz it's just cause they just shouted goal. hahaz, and when i looked up, half my view was blocked by Ivan in front. He's like 185. totally a giant compared to me, bit, well, it's ok. hahaz. I'm secure. hahaz I'm cute. hahaz. Well, that shout was what caught me attention then. hahaz. we watched till it passed the 90 mins mark and everyone in the Audi was yelling!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Seriously loudly. hahaz. Pastor How actually came and watched with us for awhile too. hahaz. The best part of it was atually after the match. hahaz. when all the atmosphere [in church] had settled down already, they were showing all the players and one of the singapore players had a singlet that he had on [he took off his shirt] and on it read :[JESUS LOVES ME]!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahaz. all of us stood up, clapped and cheered and yelled!!! hahaz. how true how true. Jesus does love him. hahaz. it was so refreshing to see something like that on international TV. I'm sure that all who watched the match in HOGC would agree with me on that too. After that i went home.

Well, if anyone was wondering why I so dislike going home is due to the negativity at home. The previous night before, i came home a little pass my 11 curfew. [i have a good reason for that i was with an integration who was waiting for his bus as we left church around 10
+.] by the time i reached home was 11+ and my mom was nagging for me bursting the curfew. I was alright with it, coz i understood where she was coming from. what i could not stand was when she said this to me:"it's the church that's stupid" i actually said something before that but i cant really remember what. so i had opened the fridge, and i was holding on to a metal bar. All of you should know that a metal bar in the fridge will be cold right, so as i held on i answered back:" then isn't that indirectly calling me stupid?" And her reply to that was:"when you're with them, yea" I was holding on to a cold metal bar. when i heard her reply, my hand froze over. i was colder than the bar i was holding on to. I didn't want to let go and close the fridge to see her. Next was my sister. I brought her to church and she got saved. I heard it from Leonard, Ivan P., Peishan and Ester. So i told her, why go get a Japanese class? she said i dont wanna go. thinking it was the jap class which couldnt be, i asked her where hse didnt wanna go. she said: "dun wanna go church lorz. every week go there" i was so angry i just said to here i know you raised up your hands during the altar call. her reply to that was: "i just raise up my hand only what" I was so angry i almost slapped her. all i could say was if you wanna do something, do it sincerely not just because you feel like. She replied with something i couldn't here, or maybe i didnt want to hear. Lastly came my dad. I asked him [while controlling my temper at my sister] whether he was using my attic. i was very nice about it too. with the fact i was angry. he said why? i said i needed to make a call, :" to who?" my leaders. he got angry with me!!!!!!!!!! for what!!!???
what did i do????? he just yelled at me:"those people are controlling your life!!!" i was msging an integration and i couldnt even be bothered to look at him anymore. All i did was keep all my things that i had taken out of my bag and out them all back in, went to my room, closed and double locked my door. Perhaps smoke was issuing from my head already. hahaz, i dont know, but it really felt like. So i called Leonard, we were suppose to have a conference about the CG attendance on sunday, which was the day of the Finals of the Asean Cup. I called him 10 mins before the conference and i was THIS close to crying... wonderful..

Well, fast forward to monday, since Sunday is already gone. just a joke, we had 3 people for sunday service! hahaz imagine that!! 3!!!!! hahaz. Well, monday monday.. I went to work. i was suppse to shadow JOn in school in the morning, but i really couldnt. felt like dying. hahaz So, went to work with Amol at 2-4..Leefang was there. can die sia. then rushed down to Woodlands to work on Ashwin. A more productive one, and i will not drop him coz Pastor How preached on not turning of the fire, and he's like at 98% already, so im not turning off the fire. hahz. after that, went to SSS! Singapore Sports School. hahaz. To watch SAJC play soccer against SSS. well, the score was 5-1. It was trashed. Well, they are the national team under 15 yeah, so.. well..nothing can be said.. hahaz. well, SA scored!!! and that 's 2 days in a row i watched soccer. hahaz. weird.. And Jem Tan bluff us larz. hahaz, Jem, if you're reading this, this's for you. hahaz. you bluff me larz. say alot of people going. hahaz. so, i didnt really wanna go alone, so i got xueli to go with me. Thank goodness i did. hahaz. Coz.............. we were the ONLY!!!!! get that.. ONLY Saint Andrews supporters there. ....-.-" hahaz. then pam came late, so Xueli had to go "pick her up" from the front gate. hahaz. so i was left alone. hahaz. But all in all it was a good game. Jeremy Ong played well, for the first half then started slacking.. i think all of them got demoralized.. hahaz. Kuoloon played really well too. hahaz. Yi Jie didn't play, coz of injury. Dany played second half. hahaz Jiahui didnt play. i think jing hui didnt play as well hahaz. But, we did have fun after the match when we went for dinner. hahaz. Jiahui and his magic tricks. hahaz. and jeremy and his crappiness. hahaz. it really took the demorality[i dont even know if this is a word.] out of everyone. ha. really had loads of fun with them. the SA bunch is super fun to be with man... Jiahui also. hahaz farny arhz jiahui. the story was that one of them actually used a vulgar word and jiahui went: "hey hey here got christian arhz, shh larhz.. holy ground holy ground." hahaz. Although meant as a joke, i think Jiahui was really nice to say about that. he really stopped the guys from using language man. hahaz. well done Jiahui!! =)

Now about today.. Well, i didn't sleep early last night, that's all i can say. hahaz. but still had to wake up early. haiz. went to shadow my brother. hahaz. then went to work: Amol, then went for CG with D4. well, it really is my moment man. hahaz. last night i was really tired, so i did a shorter QT, and i remember saying, God, please let me not be late for CG with D4. by your miracles. This morning, Amol's mom msged me and said, hey we have an open slot today, would you llike to come earlier? hahaz!!! God indeed delivers, all you need is FAITH!!! i have it. do you? hahaz. so, i went to work, then went for CG. only problem of the morning was that my mom seemed to be blowing every problem on me! she said that no one was able to help my brother.. and here i am helping other kids but not my own brother. Does she think that i feel bad about not having anyone do Jon too? then it's also my fault that i can't shadow him all the way because i put other kids in front of my own brother. If this was in a work senario, which do you think is more important? i couldnt tell her i was going for CG after work, hence i had to push forward my work. Well, it was coz the therapist of that day was sick and no one could take my brother for today, and when i went home i founf out that tml's therapist actually had a slot open for today, so she came. God delivers. what does she not see??? Well, back to CG. i got to know some new people, and also to know some people whom i knew already, better. Fifi was preaching today. She's pretty good. =) farny too. hahaz.And we were disturbing Darryl Seah, coz he tore his school shorts trying to kick someone. hahaz so now we know Darryl's secrets. hhaz. The CG comprised mostly of Cat high guys. hahaz. farny bunch or people man.. and everyone's so shocked i have sized two feet. hahaz. Jun Jie was like "oh and her shoe size is two.." i was laughing. and everyone else went HUH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAZ. so they were like realy anot.. so Fifi asked me to stick out my leg. hahaz. and they were comparing my feet size to one of their friend's hand size. hahaz i think he's hand will be bigger than my feet, since Alumn's hand's already the size of my foot. hahaz. and theyh were like: " wa how you buy shoe sia" hahaz. it's fun to be the centre of attraction sometimes. hahaz.. but CG was cool and very fun. =) really had alot of fun with the guys. hahaz. there were only 7 girls. hahaz including Fifi. hahaz. in short, CG with D4 plus Ongah, Minghan and Liz was fun.. hahaz. cool... and totally awesome!!
hahaz.. then played foosball with ongah. cant defend and attacked so so only. hahaz. it's fun to play with them. it's so entertaining. hahahahaz. to watch is also fun. hahaz after that, went for dinner with huiqi, jacky, lucinda and 2 others i dont know, hahaz. then bounced, and went back home hahaz. and here i am.
hahaz.




Well that's just an update. for now at least. people, plan your life k.. like me. hahaz. Routines! and Process!!FOCUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hahaz, that should be all people, pray for me for my results k? thankz. hahaz.













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Agnetta.
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