Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Shockingly true. Read it and weep.

I picked this off of a bulletin of a friend on friendster. As a fellow sibling in christ, I found this shockingly true, much as i dont want to abmit it. Read it, and i sincerely hope that it'll actually bring you the revelation of how you might have strayed from God, even without you knowing.
“I tell you the truth, you will weep and mourn while the world rejoices.You will grieve, but your grief will turn to joy. A woman giving birth to a child has pain because her time has come; but when her baby is born she forgets the anguish because of her joy that a child is born into the world.So with you: Now is your time of grief, but I will see you again and you will rejoice, and no one will takeaway your joy.” (John 16:20-22 NIV)
Worship/Fellowship — There are somedays when, frankly, I don’t feel muchlike worshiping God. There are probably more days like that than I’dcare to admit.
But usually those are days are whenI’m staring at my circumstances and making faithless judgments about whatI see around me. And I struggle withthe God-truth that he is in the circumstances that surround my life –all the circumstances.
Have you ever considered that heartbreak is part of God’s plans foryou, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and afuture”? (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV) We put so much energy into avoiding the hurt when God would have us embrace it. He wants us to know that he can heal our hurts, even use our hurts for his benefit, and for us to faithfully believe that sometimes the circumstances we think are harming us are actually positive situations God is engineering.
God, who is omnipotent, sees the breadth and depth of our circumstances, and he knows his plans for our lives. Thinking, then, like Christ, we can slowly, ever so slowly,begin to understand that avoiding the pain in our lives is actually an actof faithlessness. God calls us to faith in him during difficult circumstances; we’d rather place our faith in avoiding the circumstances.
As always, Jesus shows us the way –because he is the Way. Jesus embracedthe pain of God’s plan for his life,and he did it with full faith that God was still working the plan to bring a “hope and a future” to your life and mine. (Jeremiah 29:11 NIV) Christ was so sure that his grief would turn to joy that he showed a radiant certainty in God’s faithfulness (“Radiantcertainty” is a phrase William Barclayuses to describe the attitude of Jesusat the Last Supper).
Our Brother Jesus, who is also ourKing, was heading into a crisis that would cost him His life, yet He was so certain – radiantly certain – of God’sfaithfulness that not one of his disciples even discerned the gravityof the crisis! Jesus was so certain of God’s faithfulness that it radiates throughout his whole being.
And we, too, can have this radiant certainty about God’s hand in ourl ives. We can say, when it comes to God’s faithfulness, “I know because Iknow that I know.” That’s radiant certainty! The Cross was Christ’sglory, not His penalty – and the sameis true of difficult circumstances inour lives.
So what?
• God’s faithful character - You willdevelop this radiant certainty in Godwhen you learn to trust in hisfaithful character. Your daily worshipof God is irrevocably tied to yourfaith in God.• Praise God anyhow - You must choose to praise and worship God every day,no matter what the circumstances ofyour life. Developing a radiantcertainty in God begins with simplesteps of faith and obedience.
• Respond to God, not your circumstances - When faced with apainful or difficult circumstance, askGod, “How do you want me to respond tothis?” Keep your eyes wise forthe ‘Why me?’ traps that lay aboutyour circumstances.You can be radiantly certain of this:Difficult circumstances areopportunities for you to intentionally focus your faith in God and to seewhat he will do to give you hope andhealing.
You can be radiantly certain of this:Difficult circumstances areopportunities for you to intentionallyfocus your faith in God and to seewhat he will do to give you hope and healing.

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Random

I miss someone. I miss that look he has when he has something important on his mind. I miss that special attention he gives when talking to people individually. I miss that smile upon his lips, that never seem to fade.
In short, I MISS CHARLESTON!!
hahahahahahahahaha. what were you guys thinking arhz? hahahahaha.
Agnetta misses people today.
Agnetta is tired.
Agnetta will win Gabriel Lee at hungry hippos.

Wednesday, March 21, 2007

EQ? haha

Your EQ is 160
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

Friday, March 09, 2007

Gabriel, here's for you.

Firstly, to Gabriel, here's the the post to you, so stop complaining that i dont update!! hahaz. and stop bullying me you monkey!! dont throw your bananas at me la. just eat them la you. and no nuts either i telll you. and im not going to die, coz you cant kill me. B L E H!!!!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

hahaz. well, this post is really about school. imagine, it was just a few months back that we finished our O lvls and walked out of the school gate screaming it's over!! then next came the JAE results. then the posting. imagine, where DID all the time fly to? i imagned the 3months to crawl by, yet, look, and it's gone. so here i am stuck in MI [but that's a story for later.]

grr. hhaaz. i seem to always chop my stories half way. sorry to those reading, coz i am usually chased off, or i just get bored. usually the latter.


Well, cant really rmb much, well, also due to the fact that im lazy to think, but the most recent thing that happened is IGNITE YOUTH CONFERENCE!!!

just gonna copyright this from Gabriel's blog, [I've gotta pay him more more than 5 cents for this{hoGc if you understand please dont laugh out loud, laugh out really loud k.} haha]

10 things I learnt and was impacted from Ignite Conference 2007:-
1) To love God more, depend and rely more on Him
2) To love my pastors and leaders more, I'm more grateful to have great leaders like them
3) To rise and and be a great youth leader for God
4) To love others more, especially my sheep
5) To put myself in the shoes of others
6) To be excellent in everything I do for God, do my best in all that I have now
7) To have more faith and be confident of who I am in God's eyes
8) To stand and be bold, not to be intimidated and influenced by what isn't right
9) To appreciate the friends I have in church more
10) To know that there is no place like home

(:Reading between the lines... ((:

Gabriel, you're monkey and always will be a monkey.

But here's my ten things i've learnt:

1) Love my God more, for he is always there, even when you're in doubt.
2) Do not try and be a sales person. I will never succeed, neither will i succeed in getting t-shirts with the phrase more attached to it.
3) To appreciate our Pastors and Leaders, who have been with us all the way.
4) To appreciate what our pastors and leaders have taught us, knowing that they've come a long way to train us to be the cream of the crop.
5) To really rise up in usher and not let what we saw there make us contented with how we're doing already, but to really strive harder and know that we're really gonna be capable of being THE cream of the crop.
6) To give all my best to him, and to hold firm and stand strong.
7) To understand that I'm loved, no matter how far He might seem from me.
8) To stand firm and strong in what i believe in, and in this case, it's God!!
9) To really love the friends I've made in church, Kinonn, Gabriel, Leonard, and their just being there for me.
10) [this will be similar to Gabriel's] Knowing that there's no place like home!!


Well, i sort of had high expectations of Ignite, when info about Ignite came out and people were signing up for it. So, i signed up for it. I wanted to be there, but, so pathetically, i was the only person from my CG to attend all 3 days, other than Leonard, who was on Hospi cum EC. though not supposed to be any of the latter. The first night i was there, and as i walked into the cathedral grounds, i was massively disappointed. not, because the building was old, not because the place was difficult to get to. No, it was none of that. you wanna know what was the first thing that turned me off? TRAFFIC USHERS!! well, i know it might not mean alot to most of you, but, as a Heart of God usher, to me, it means alot. Firstly, you do not ever put 2 traffic ushers in the same spot!! YOU DONT NEED 2 TRAFFIC USHERS STANDING IN THE MIDDLE OF THE ROAD!! especially when they're not even doing theire work and are talking amongst each other. Sermon that night was great though, however, with their first impression cum traffic team already failed, needless to say, traffic team in auditorium fare none better than those in the middle of the road, trying to be super heroes. HOGC was seperated into tiny groups all over. grr. irritating. so left with Me, Pam, Joanne, and Gerald in the middle of no where, with Chek Yao and some guys a couple of rows in front, and E zone a couple more rows behind. So, here comes tricky part. we as HOGC are used to answering pastors. hence, after not long, we were named th WOW church grrr. trying to be sarcastic eh? at least my pastors know im alive!! So, having been seperated, i was the only person from my area to shout wow, as Pam and Joanne were pretty tired. and people started looking at me. at least i answer my pastors, letting them know that i;m paying attention to what they're saying. there was this super annoyting group of people infron and behind of the 4 of us who were passing sweets from the front to the back, what in the world are you here for, not just that, they were talking. are you here for a conference or here to talk? if you wanna talk get out man. grr.

Second day morning!! hoGc was playing!! hahaz. all the HOGC youth rushed down to scream yell and cheer for our band!! those who are not that fond of jumping, made the extra effort to jump and support our band, and those like Kinonn and Gabriel who are the normal kind got super hyper. I know for one, Gabby was jumping sky high!!! woohoo!! hahaz. going mad. hahaz. Sermon by Pastor Pat was different, and as pastors and youth leaders laid hands on people, they started falling under the power of the holy spirit and crashing to the fall. likewise, topic goes back to ignite ushers. where were they? in front trying to get laid hands on. WHAT ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE FALLING DOWN!! where's your servant heartedness?? where's your caring about others? grrr. i saw a youth leader, guy, laying a girl down. I'm sure all HOGC see the wrong here. guy, girl. Youth pastor laying girl down. grr. to the extent that our own ushers initiaed themselves, like Sweet, who went around catching people. running around. imagine. after service, we went for lunch, went for lunch with B zone guys, kinonn, eric, melvin, zi ang. hahaz. Eric really showed me a totally diff side of him from what i knew. wow. hahaz. so we went back for Pastor Lia's session on Relationships. hahaz. [rolls eyes] hahaz. imagine, majority of the HOGC ppl are late. after that, got yelled at for going to Ignite. grr. then went fot the night session. the ushers there were being rude, and refused to open section C for us, as pastors wanted us to sit together. imagine closing 2 sections and trying to fit 1500 ppl into the space that can only fit 500. madness. so, when the opened section C, it took us some time to shift from section B to C. after that, Sab and i went around, initiating our a couple more of ushers to settle Our people down as during our normal services. Miracle. HOGC got settled down in less than 2 mins. amazing. this is the times when you think that HOGC is a divided, and here's when you see them come together as ONE CHURCH. The night session was a totally different experience, very weird, and just not something that any HOGC would be used to. It wasnt with the flow of what we're used to.

Last day of ignite. this time round, i only went for the last session. like wise, ushers were bad, as per usual, and well, sermon was awesome though. this is the last straw i think for any HOGC usher. as pastors and leaders went forward to get prayed for, we were asked to form lines behind our pastors. and as both our pastors werent' there, we decided to give the rest the space we needed. then next thing i knew, i was being pushed back, and i saw miaow guan pushing chairs back. i knew that there must be people on the floor already. so, i must say, this is the first time, i really went forward and did anything. well, maybe it's also coz i was infront. i was shifting books and bags, as i couldn't shift chairs. then we all stepped back. i was also asked to try and catch some of the girls, who were not from our church, as our male ushers could only catch the girls from HOGC. and you know what? the girl i was suppose to catch was taller than me. then again. where's ignite's ushers? why are WE catching THE congregation? our ushers initiated themselves, our church took the first leap forward. then they had some extra praises at the end of everything. repeat: praise songs. then let me ask: who jumps during the part of the song king of majesty that goes [king of majesty i have one desire] WHO JUMPS? a coupla us were just muttering to each other, they're just going crazy, treating this place like a disco. well, we exited fast, but thea was injured, so had to bring her back. and, THAT THE END OF IGNITE!!!! hahaz.

and here's to say, WE'RE GOING BACK TO DHOBY GHAUT FTMS HOUSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! home sweet home!!! Im just gonna say, if this affected you, drop a comment, and not a tag. come direct to me, if you have any problems with this. in any case, it's my blog, my freedom of sppech. if you're not happy with me, you can always look for me..


To kinonn, Eric, Leonard and Gabby.
Thanks.


Agnetta.
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Thursday, March 01, 2007

i miss you!!

it's been 2 full weeks since i last posted. coz it's been 2 reports. hahaz. yeah. nothing much to write about actually. i've just been super busy!! hahaz. it's so super cool and so fun!! hahaz. but, just wanna say some things to some people:

"Jie":please know that we still love you k. no matter what.

my dearest qq: please dont dont dont you ever leave me behind.. it's so strange coming with you not there. please please please come back?

jewel the gem: hold strong and know that we're always here for you.

Gabriel: dont dont dont EVER cut your hair.

Lu: pray girl. pray for her.

that should be all people. i love my God, i love my Pastors and my leaders. and the people around me, and i LOVE MY LIFE!!! pray for our leaders, as Charleston is going in on the 15th! of march.. oh my. and Leonard's going in on the 12th of April. oh my. oh my. oh my. let's all pray they get 8-5 schedules..



Love,
Agnetta.
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