Random Junk

Dessert at bugis there is yummy.

I need to stare at someone!!

I am CG admin, and i chionged a database and completed it with wonder today.

I cleaned keyboards and fixed keys back with Elgin Maniam and Kinnon and fixed that puzzle.

I can do all things with God in me!

I love you God!

my use to be-s

This is not gonna be like my other posts, it'll take you on a look back at why I am who I am today.

Looking back on how I was, when this blog was started, it was a place for my continuous ranting of hatred for my school, and I mean, school as in everything about it. I was a total mailto:b%25@$h, and I mean B. I was an emo kid, even to the extent of at times being called an ASK, anti social kid. I was horrible, and this blog was where I’d rant at myself for long.

Then as time passes and people change, this blog became a place where I came to heal. I dropped some of my hurts of people here, however, my stupidity led me to leave names of the targeted people I was writing about. I blogged about everything, and anything, of how people treated me, and how selfish I was, looking back at that those posts. but still I refused to face reality and realise that the problem was me, and not them.

So from the anti social kid, I became the problem kid. But as we all know, if God can take Rahab, a prostitute, and make her a hero in the bible, as she saved the spies who went into Jericho, He can make a miracle in everybody if we'd just believe yeah?

So, here I am today. Standing here, proud to call myself, a child of God, a living testimony to those out there, proof that He can do something with someone like me. God is a great God. Amen

So down to today. I'm stressed!! I have alot of things to do, alot of things to worry about!! alot of things to take care of!! and I have been offered a position that I have taken up. EXTRA WORKLOAD!! and I have a meeting with one of my leaders, and I have no idea why. EXTRA STRESS!! and for all these situations I am in, God only has one word for me. guess what,, one word. ONE!! it's

PRAY.

I've been relying on my own strength. I've been fearing too much, being too selfish. I've become a thermometer though I used to be a thermostat. and why? because I didn’t,

Pray hard.

wow. as we stood there, for ten minutes, I prayed, and I mean prayed. I prayed like I never did before.!!

and then, after dinner, extra reason to stress. As we all know, I came from a Buddhist organization. I was the problem kid there, and as I became more involved in God's house, a friend from there came to hoGc. so, we have one. today, I received word that we may have two! to me it was extra stress, extra work that I didn’t not want to inflict on myself. I was selfish. and then.... as I remembered this year's vision.

ACCELERATE.

God is not testing me, and no he's not stressing me, and no. he's not worrying me. He, is accelerating me! CG admin? can. do more in integrating them? sure. like Leonard said, one day the organization will close down la. from one to two to twelve, one day, the organization will close down.

Today pastor preached on Faith. We must have faith, in everything we do. But, faith without works is dead. Now it's my turn to realise that I cant rule the world. But I can impact it, with God's glory.

Remember in a few posts ago, I spoke of someone who seems to totally hate me? well, it's some one I haven’t really known long. but why I feel that she hates me, is because I’m gonna be someone she cannot be. She used to frequent a church, two yrs back, and she was even named evangelist of the year. but, she didn't rise up to be anybody during the time that she was there. and she complained to me before, “I stay there so long, bring so many friends, and yet nv get any recognition, stay for what?" then I realised. she wasn't living for God, and hence, she could never rise up. She lived it for her glory, and not God's. She had no faith in God, only in herself[pretty much like me eh.]

But I am different. I will be different! I will make a difference! I will stand for God starting NOW! I will hold my ground, and be a thermostat. I will worship my God, for he is my lord and savior. For tonight, he has made me someone, that I never imagined I could be. Now and forever God, I am yours.

there's a particular song’s lyrics, a love song, but this time round, look at I from a different view yeah?

Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy, Our love will lead the way for us Like a guiding star I'll be there for you if you should need me You don't have to change a thing I love you just the way you are So come with me and share the view I'll help you see forever too

It seems as if He's singing to us, that He'll always love us, and "nothing CAN change His love for us." and how our road is not easy, but He is our guiding star, and He's always there for us if we need him. He doesn't want us to change, He loves us just the way we are.[this is my beloved child in whom I am well pleased.]

I no long need to worry about whether someone loves me or not. He died for me on a cross, the least I can do, is give my life as my offering to him.

Thank You God, my faith in you renewed, my courage and strength replenished. I will take up CG admin, and I will meet with my leader with an open heart, and if I’m gonna be wrong about something, then I will accept responsibility and the consequences if I’ve made mistakes.

I love You God.

Thanks for everything Eric.
Leonard, welcome back, and you look super farny!!
I miss Charleston! [he's in field camp now.]
I miss pastor Lia, and some leaders. [They're in Sydney.]
We need a new church premise!!!!!
I have a craving for pasta. Anyone?
I love You God!!

Create your own Friend Test here

woohoo.

I did not call coz i was a sleep. and you didnt pick up when i called.

hahahahahaha.

Yan said i have 188 ha's in my previous.

hahahahahahahahahahaha.

i think there were more Yan in my other posts.

hahahahahahahaha.

or maybe i was just very happy ytd night.

hahahahahahaha.

Aand i still cant stand going to school! argh.

"Accept responsiblilty for you action,

and the consequences it comes with, when you play the games you shouldn't."

I love my God! =]

boo! guess who! =]

"You have a very nice voice to talk to."

HAHAHAHAHA.

imagine. someone told me that. goodness.

that's it! hahahaha. that's gonna be the last time i talk to you before you go to sleep man. hahahaha.

madness. hahahahaha. i cant stop laughing. goodness.

i think talking to you before you sleep makes you a little crazy. hahahaha.

Make me say good night to you HOW MANY TIMES! before you're satisfied? hahahaha.

hmph. make me say so many times. hahahaha.

then you never say somemore!

hahahahahaha.

and yes i did dream of you after you told me to dream of you! haha.

grrrrz. hahahahaha.

we should stop talking before we go to sleep. hahahaha.

not as in literally before we sleep coz obviously to some poor idiots who dont understand two sided english languages, this is meant by the fact, we do not talk before bed time.

understand kids?

HAHAHAHAHAHA.oooooooh I'm mean. hahahahahaha.

and i can be a pre school teacher.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

gabriel will laugh reading this.

hahahahaha.

and i can predict his answer.

"No problem de. you blend straight in."

back to the talking topic. hahaha.

that's it. we talk in the morning.

hahahahahahahaha.

which reminds me.

You wanted me to call you in the morning why?

hahahahahahahahaha.

So that you can hear me talk?!?!?!?!?!?

grrrrrr. hahahahahaha.

i feel like yelling your name out loud!

hahahahahahaha.

but to save myself from......

hahahahahahaha.

you know who you are. hahahahahahahaha.

imagine.

he wakes up at 7. i wake up at 7.30.

hahahahahahaha.

he wants me to call him when i wake up, so i can talk to him,

so that he can hear me.

hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahah.

can anyone guess now? hahahahaha.

guessed who yet? hahahahaha.

well, hahahaha, KEEP GUESSING. coz i'm not telling. hahahaha.

but well, it does give me incentive to wake up, though i might not want to go to school.

hahahahaha.

so well, let's start the day right, and call you.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

i feel that school will be great.

hahahahahahahahaha..

still no idea?

hahahaha.

well..............................

keep guessing.

haha.

Agnetta talked long tonight.

Agnetta is sick.

Agnetta has to wake up early to call someone tml morning.

Agnetta has a nice voice to talk to...?

Agnetta had no physic tests today.

Agnetta is renewed.

Agnetta is not long stagnant.

Agnetta is a thermostat.

Agnetta loves her for He loves her the way she is.

Agnetta does not need to fake her way into people's lives.

Agnetta loves her King and Saviour.

I love you Lord!

Never ever try me.

If you think trying me is fun, let me tell you first, it's not. If you think insulting me is ok, i'll tell you to a certain extent it is. If you think insulting my Lord, King, and Saviour is a joke, and it's something you can make a joke out of, just wait and see how He can make you a joke.

Just because we're not the same, doesn't mean it gives you the right to disrespect me or my faith. You say things just because you FEEL like saying it, never giving two hoots about the receiving person, never knowing if it might just make or break a relationship you share.

You feel like saying it, so you do. That bluntness, and honesty might have came better through someone elses mouth, but for you, let's just say you fail, not even with an F, it's a pure ZERO! ok, well, if it'll be any condolence for you, i'll give you a one. Coming from someone else, say Leonard, with a discipleship, i'll take it, and know what to do regarding it. Let's say from someone else like Gabriel, saying why bother for even talking to you, I'll take that serious on my advice radar, and really see why i should even have bothered with you in the first place.

This bluntless from you is not the honesty any girl with my calibre would accept. But, no worries, there's always a but, just this time round, it's not a good but for you. BUT...... it is a tactlessness that girls would hate you for. Although some girls may like honesty, definately more than your never ending yes-es, let me just tell you, from someone with truckloads of experience regarding the "honesty" it's gonna no wait, it WILL, turn any girl off.

So, no point in trying to get close to me anymore. I know everyone deserves a second chance. No worries, you're allowed the chance to knock on my door, just whether or not, i will open it to you again. You lost you chance through your tact, of lack thereof, and it's not easy to win me over.

You say i remind you of her. You say she might not like me. You say you dont believe in what i lay my trust in.

He made me who i am today. He loved me for me, loves me for me, and i'm sure he'll alwayys love me for me. And here i stand today, perfect in any way, and every single way. So if you don't like me, for being real, and you're angry at me for you not being able to be REAL, and you have to be someone you're not, then please, get youself a life, and stop living someone else's life. Stop trying to be someone you're not, when He has made you perfect in every single way, for He never makes mistakes.

Dont try to win me back over, for it wont work again. I gave you a first chance, and you threw it down the drain.

So, let me repeat, insult me, but not my faith. Test me, but never my King.

Agnetta is being insulted.

Agnetta is proud to be REAL.

Agnetta should push tighter, harder.

Agnetta is leading games tml.

Agnetta always misses people.

Agnetta misses a discipleship.[though i feel one coming up]

Agnetta is sick.

Agnetta will not accept from Eric.

Agnetta miss Leonard and Charleston.

Agnetta loves her Saviour, and nothing in this world, can take Him away from her.

I love you God.

Team SAJC.

YOU GUYS BETTER WIN THIS YEAR'S CHAMPIONSHIP! with Jeremy Ong leading you to infinity and beyond.

IJ, CJ, AJ and TJ. 3-0, 2-0, 4-1. 3-0. WELL DONE GUYS. =]

I owe it to them.

Leonard, one i cannot do without, even though discipleships are harsh, it's for my own good. THANK YOU LEONARD!

Charleston, that smile that brightens up any sad day, the smile that can win a war without weapons.

Thank you leaders. =] for being the motivation and inspiration.

God, HELP.

THE baseline of all prayers, and these prayers include mine. God, thank you for the net you've brought me to, the safety net you've provided for me, and this presence you've given me, that no one else can give.
This net of HEART OF GOD CHURCH, one that no one could have ever given, no one could ever provide, and this undying love you've shown is one no one can beat, for you've died on the cross for my sins. Thank you Father.

If you're wondering what's with the emo start, I am having problems now. This is a stoopeed situation, and it's taking alot out of me now. My family can afford a new van, so now we have 4 vehicles, with only one driver in Singapore to drive them. But with 4 vehicles, my parents cannot afford to increase my allowance, even after showing them that hey, $300 is just not enough.

Calculating, I've to spend at least $200 on transport. that's on ezlink card alone. that leaves me $100 to spend on food, and cab fare. Now you know my situation. I'm not expecting you to understand, i just dont think you should judge me, from what you see. And no Eric, i will not borrow. i hate that feeling, and i will not borrow.

That is also why, i cannot do without people like Uncle Chen, Leonard, and Yassy. These people have been here for me, listening to what i have to rant on and on about.

Ricky chen, thanks for listening to me rant on, and all the advice. Though you always bully shermaine, you're still a nice guy. =] thanks. and still no i wont borrow.

Yassy, thanks for telling me to be a kid. I dont see how that can be achievable. I've always been the kid doing the adults job. If you want the adults to take back their job, it might prove alittle difficult for them. But, I'm still doing what i have to do, regardless of anything, but thanks for being there.

Leonard, though you WERE suppose to be sleeping, thank you for listening to me cry out all that i had to give. I didn't call you just to be accountable to you, but also the fact that you've always been there for me, and thank you. for all that you've given. Thank you for the concern, even though you're one of those busiest people. [even when you're suppose to be sleeping in camp] You went all out, like you've always done for me, so, thank you.

Gabriel, I'm considering your opinions of blowing up the new van.

Agnetta misses Leonard.
Agnetta misses Leonard's discipleship.
Agnetta needs a allowance raise.
Agnetta is broke, in debt, and has 3o cents to last the entire month left.
Agnetta is considering Gabriel's idea of blowing up the new van.
Agnetta, hasn't been a kid in a many a long years.
Agnetta feels better after talking to Eric.
Agnetta feels more comforted talking to Leonard.
Agnetta is thinking of Charleston's smile which has brighten up half her night.

Agnetta Loves.

WOWIE!!

I thought my photography and self image got better. and i could photo whore better. perhaps, i'd just not taken enough self shots to realise that i couldn't relly take myself, without my owe thinking i look like an idiot. but here's my best shot at self photography. hahahahaha.

If you think that's good, to me by my standard yes. but then with people like Eric around. hahahahaha. snapping me without me knowing. Impromtu shots look really great. they really capture a person. The Real person that is inside that is shown. I know Eric, the models are paid to portray, but they can never be real enough for me to say. So, i think i look real enough in this photo. =] thank you Eric. =]

My discouragement.

It's been long since i posted. It was hard, getting over the emotism stage, and the discouragement, and depresssion, but you know what I'm back! and im staying the way i am. I doubt if the dicpleship was THE cause of the problem, but perhaps it was. I really dont know as i'm generally ok with it, but. goodness. So, we managed to talk it over, hahahahaha. I thought i was going through alot, but perhaps, maybe... well, i cant really pinpoint the fault on anybody, but really, i think it was also my fault. To stop doing so much, and to stop putting so muc responsibility on myself.[Eric's words] Maybe it's just coz i didnt turn to a particular someone for help. Now, it's time to change. To not rely on myself anymore. It's time to rely on God, where He is limitless where i am limited. To tap onto his strength, my honour to be used in his glory. Thanks Eric! =]

Agnetta will beat Gabriel at hungry hippos.

Thank you for eveything Eric! =]

[Father, ThankYou, for allowing me back into your embrace, that love and mercy.Nothing can take me away from You, and let Nothing take me away from what You want Me to do.]

(it might not be the best shot, but at least I'm glad that i have a friend like you.)