I actualy wanna pick this out from another close friend's blog. Do the friends you make in school or anywhere else for that matter really care? But then why is it so, that they can always go, Hey, miss you so much man. And when you say, hey, are you free one of these days, come with me to church man. And their typical confirmed totally predictable answer is, ermz see how first bah. and they never see how. pastor made this joke about it. why not come to church and See pastor How! hahaz. so seriously. i think it's time you ask yourself. what kinda friend are you really? If you can truely say, hey miss or love you to someone else, you wouldn't mind once in a while accepting her invitation to come to church do you.
Well, it does it turn bring us to the topic of the up and coming NEW YEAR!!!
So. wanna be like every other normal ordinary person whom [ i still don't understand why like to stand in big crowds and do stupid meaningless things] star at the upcomign fireworks at marina waterfront on the 31st of december awaiting for the countdown? Or do you want to be DIFFERENT! UNCOMPROMISING! and TOTALLY NOT NORMAL! for new year?
Wanna avoide those crowds where you have to squish and squash your way through and in the end only get half a glimspe of whats going on? Wanna keep your cash to yourself and avoid pick pockets? Wanna stop people "accidently" on purposely bumping into you?
Wanna find some place where you can have sure fire FUN! and none of the above?
SIMPLE! Come with me to HEART OF GOD CHURCH on new years eve! stunning dances, invoking testimonies, and also the chance to make super alot of new friends? [friends who actually do care and dont just send miss you and love you messages for the sake of doing it]
Parkview Square on New years eve, 31st december. lets do a different countdown this year people. Don't be so boring, like everyone else outside yeah? 9pm -1am. Its overnight. Of you love to party? Heart of God Church is THE place for you this new years eve.
Did i mention that our pastor is only 36, not some seriously old man who bores people to sleep? And did i mention that the church has NO stained glass windows, and NO big big CROSS?!? Yup. there you have it. The uncompromising, the weird and the totally DIFFERENT Heart of God Church.
So? are you coming? or are you gonna be some old bore like everyone else, standing outsied watching the same old fireworks year after year? [oh and imagine something else. what if it rains? well, parkview square is shelterd if you wanna know.]
So, people. Its your choice.
Make your choice.
You got me convinced Ernest.
Agnetta.
281206.
Friday, December 29, 2006
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
Stuffs.
Wow, i just got discipled on christmas day. well done to me man. about what? Respect. Nice.
Respect. What is it actually about anyway? Can i say that i've hardly experience Respect at home? Nephews Nieces, Uncles aunties, Cousins, etc etc. So many. Yet no heck of a respect. I mean, it's ok if you poke fun at people for the fun of it but you never know when it might hurt a person. isn't this what's always been happening to me?
I have never been good enough for people to respect me. When i greet my uncles and aunts, all i get is a curt nod in return, and they're not even looking in my direction. And yet they call out toward those who sit in front of the TV and have no idea that they're there. Don't they have the "respect" to answer me back a hi? Nephews. Nieces. Aren't they one generation younger and also suppose to be respecting towards elders by age and authority? What gives. Do they? I can't say about my parents, coz i haven't seen anyone really respect their parents yet, so i don't really know this word respect. Respect : esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability. That's the real thesaurus meaning of respect.
Seriously, i didn't mean to do the things i do, or say the things i say. I 've just been falling back into my old habits. So sorry, to whomever i might have offended. [This was the case that landed me a discipleship today.]
I understand the fact [Correction is not rejection], that doesn't stop it from not hurting though. Putting the phrase in better light would be the fact that if the person didn't care a heck about me, they wouldn't have discipled me. So, it seems that someone cares. Well, like i said, it doesn't stop the hurt. I know where the person is coming from, i see myself from there too. The problem was that i didn't catch myself doing it until it was over.
I don't know if it's some factors leading up to it, but, to the extent that i was so unaware. _______. [sigh]. I'm just afraid that the pendulum will swing again.
Well, since the Bangkok trip, i've been going for my therapy training. Haven't been sleeping enough, lack of food. Training for 3 days, then my mom decided to tell everyone in the group to hesitate to take me because i'm going back to school. Great. now i work 8 hours a week. with two indian kids. Not that i have anything against them, but i encountered problems in my sec school years with Indians and left them for the good only to travel one big round and come back here. Well, my monthly pay is like 640. wonderful. no money no nothing. Decorated Leonard's card after taking it from JS at compass on sat. Slept at three.
Christmas eve. Baked a cake for the pastors with 3 guys. afvice to those who wanna bake cakes, don't ask Leonard, Pan or Alvin. ask alton better. haha. they were tying to eat my cake before the even made it. yea. we took a cab down to bugis, went to buy cream after meeting Ruifa for the cake. Service was awesome that day. And I'm so proud of Ruifa! wow. he was praising and worship God. The Ruifa i know usually isn't like that. And he's coming back again!! haha. After that, went home for "christmas dinner" as well as my Grandpa's birthday. Really hataed that. Can you imagine your younger nephews and nieces disregarding you feelings and only caring about themselves, that they may be better than you in any way possible? Your cousins not treating you as an equal but as a low caster? Your aunts and uncles treating you as an invisible piece of wall? Felt this way before? Ever had your entire family think you just diappeared over the face of this earth? My uncles and aunts went to China and came back that night. My cousins went to help their parents get luggage, so that's one. I deliberately went over to call my aunts and uncle. All i recieved was an uh. There's a total of 7 of us. who's parents did not go to china. Me, Rytha, Nathan Jon, Colin, Mandy and Aaron. I called my aunts and no body could bother to ask abut how i was. But, wow. they went straight to my nephews and niece [ wa colin, this this this. Wa Mandy, that that that. Wa Aaron. this that this that.] Then it was Jon. Jon JOn... Then Nathan. Talk loads. Then they'd ask. where's rytha arhz? No body gave a S%#$ about me. Why did i even bother to come home for christmas? WHY!?!?!?!?! someone tell me WHY! freaking respect? if i didnt have it for them i would have loitered till christmas day before i went home. some christmas presents anyway. Useless stuff considered a luxury. What i wanted, nobody gave. What do or did i want? a NKJV bible. that's it. And i get all kinds of other stuff people think is nice, or somewhat needed. Some christmas. Had to write Christmas cards then go shower. slept at 4.
Christmas day. Went to park view square for usher. slept only 5 hrs. had to arrange 800++ chairs. had to stand at ther door to take attendance. and i almost fell asleep during service. that was how tired i was. After service, gave out impression slips. Pack all the stuff in usher room, and then got discipled. Great christmas. Wonderful. Just awesome. Not trying to be sarcastic or what, it has been a wonderful christmas, for real. the best ever actually. Just the few little nicks here and there.
Well, I'm tired. I've been tired since i started typing. Why not sleep then right? Good question. But i just had to let everything out. The hurt, the problems, the factors, etc etc. The heart aches, the hardest pain to cure. Paracetemol is not gonna help too. Well, I'm going to pray on this. I've not been so drained for long. Emotionally, physically and mentally. Gosh. what's happening!!!???!!!???!!! ARGH!!!
The idiosyncratic, the blessed, the nonchalent, the beautiful, the gregarious
Happy birthday Ongah and Jesus.
Agnetta.
251206
Respect. What is it actually about anyway? Can i say that i've hardly experience Respect at home? Nephews Nieces, Uncles aunties, Cousins, etc etc. So many. Yet no heck of a respect. I mean, it's ok if you poke fun at people for the fun of it but you never know when it might hurt a person. isn't this what's always been happening to me?
I have never been good enough for people to respect me. When i greet my uncles and aunts, all i get is a curt nod in return, and they're not even looking in my direction. And yet they call out toward those who sit in front of the TV and have no idea that they're there. Don't they have the "respect" to answer me back a hi? Nephews. Nieces. Aren't they one generation younger and also suppose to be respecting towards elders by age and authority? What gives. Do they? I can't say about my parents, coz i haven't seen anyone really respect their parents yet, so i don't really know this word respect. Respect : esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability. That's the real thesaurus meaning of respect.
Seriously, i didn't mean to do the things i do, or say the things i say. I 've just been falling back into my old habits. So sorry, to whomever i might have offended. [This was the case that landed me a discipleship today.]
I understand the fact [Correction is not rejection], that doesn't stop it from not hurting though. Putting the phrase in better light would be the fact that if the person didn't care a heck about me, they wouldn't have discipled me. So, it seems that someone cares. Well, like i said, it doesn't stop the hurt. I know where the person is coming from, i see myself from there too. The problem was that i didn't catch myself doing it until it was over.
I don't know if it's some factors leading up to it, but, to the extent that i was so unaware. _______. [sigh]. I'm just afraid that the pendulum will swing again.
Well, since the Bangkok trip, i've been going for my therapy training. Haven't been sleeping enough, lack of food. Training for 3 days, then my mom decided to tell everyone in the group to hesitate to take me because i'm going back to school. Great. now i work 8 hours a week. with two indian kids. Not that i have anything against them, but i encountered problems in my sec school years with Indians and left them for the good only to travel one big round and come back here. Well, my monthly pay is like 640. wonderful. no money no nothing. Decorated Leonard's card after taking it from JS at compass on sat. Slept at three.
Christmas eve. Baked a cake for the pastors with 3 guys. afvice to those who wanna bake cakes, don't ask Leonard, Pan or Alvin. ask alton better. haha. they were tying to eat my cake before the even made it. yea. we took a cab down to bugis, went to buy cream after meeting Ruifa for the cake. Service was awesome that day. And I'm so proud of Ruifa! wow. he was praising and worship God. The Ruifa i know usually isn't like that. And he's coming back again!! haha. After that, went home for "christmas dinner" as well as my Grandpa's birthday. Really hataed that. Can you imagine your younger nephews and nieces disregarding you feelings and only caring about themselves, that they may be better than you in any way possible? Your cousins not treating you as an equal but as a low caster? Your aunts and uncles treating you as an invisible piece of wall? Felt this way before? Ever had your entire family think you just diappeared over the face of this earth? My uncles and aunts went to China and came back that night. My cousins went to help their parents get luggage, so that's one. I deliberately went over to call my aunts and uncle. All i recieved was an uh. There's a total of 7 of us. who's parents did not go to china. Me, Rytha, Nathan Jon, Colin, Mandy and Aaron. I called my aunts and no body could bother to ask abut how i was. But, wow. they went straight to my nephews and niece [ wa colin, this this this. Wa Mandy, that that that. Wa Aaron. this that this that.] Then it was Jon. Jon JOn... Then Nathan. Talk loads. Then they'd ask. where's rytha arhz? No body gave a S%#$ about me. Why did i even bother to come home for christmas? WHY!?!?!?!?! someone tell me WHY! freaking respect? if i didnt have it for them i would have loitered till christmas day before i went home. some christmas presents anyway. Useless stuff considered a luxury. What i wanted, nobody gave. What do or did i want? a NKJV bible. that's it. And i get all kinds of other stuff people think is nice, or somewhat needed. Some christmas. Had to write Christmas cards then go shower. slept at 4.
Christmas day. Went to park view square for usher. slept only 5 hrs. had to arrange 800++ chairs. had to stand at ther door to take attendance. and i almost fell asleep during service. that was how tired i was. After service, gave out impression slips. Pack all the stuff in usher room, and then got discipled. Great christmas. Wonderful. Just awesome. Not trying to be sarcastic or what, it has been a wonderful christmas, for real. the best ever actually. Just the few little nicks here and there.
Well, I'm tired. I've been tired since i started typing. Why not sleep then right? Good question. But i just had to let everything out. The hurt, the problems, the factors, etc etc. The heart aches, the hardest pain to cure. Paracetemol is not gonna help too. Well, I'm going to pray on this. I've not been so drained for long. Emotionally, physically and mentally. Gosh. what's happening!!!???!!!???!!! ARGH!!!
The idiosyncratic, the blessed, the nonchalent, the beautiful, the gregarious
Happy birthday Ongah and Jesus.
Agnetta.
251206
Friday, December 22, 2006
my work again.
Remember i posted that i'd be working as a therapist? well, i will i will i will. haha. at that point of time, i wasn't quite sure if parents would want me working for their kid, first factor, i'm still young, [rolls eyes], second factor, i'd be starting school soon. And it didn't help much that i was not there for the first two therapy days too. I was in bangkok shopping. haha. So, natural assumtions. Mr Wong will kill me for Assuming. so, well, i only did two families today. Yuan Ling and Amol.
Yuan Ling's taking 3 sessions with me Monday to Wednesday 12.30 -2.30. So, that's a first. Amol's parents wanted a twenty hour week with me. I don't know if i died and went to hell or died and flew to heaven. One thing was that i appreciated the fact that i was wanted by these two families having only seen me today. But twenty hours will most likely kill me, so Lee Fang [my trainer] decided to intervene and get me to do 5 sessions per week with him.
One session, is actually two hours. and per hour is a pay of $20. How will i ever be able to turn down this kinda job offer. moreover, it's going to allow me to go further ahead than everyone around me, it happens all the time. Wow. However, it's going to be a long year ahead. I'm going to try and do more in church [my mom will kill me kinda thing. she says i'm spending too much time in church.], Gotta start school. If i can get into Innova, good for me. but if not, it's either private or redoing the O's. Either way, i still get to work. But.
It's going to be a tough desicion giving up or taking. but, God delivers. So, we'll see how and what God wants me to do. hahaz.
Agnetta.
211206.
Yuan Ling's taking 3 sessions with me Monday to Wednesday 12.30 -2.30. So, that's a first. Amol's parents wanted a twenty hour week with me. I don't know if i died and went to hell or died and flew to heaven. One thing was that i appreciated the fact that i was wanted by these two families having only seen me today. But twenty hours will most likely kill me, so Lee Fang [my trainer] decided to intervene and get me to do 5 sessions per week with him.
One session, is actually two hours. and per hour is a pay of $20. How will i ever be able to turn down this kinda job offer. moreover, it's going to allow me to go further ahead than everyone around me, it happens all the time. Wow. However, it's going to be a long year ahead. I'm going to try and do more in church [my mom will kill me kinda thing. she says i'm spending too much time in church.], Gotta start school. If i can get into Innova, good for me. but if not, it's either private or redoing the O's. Either way, i still get to work. But.
It's going to be a tough desicion giving up or taking. but, God delivers. So, we'll see how and what God wants me to do. hahaz.
Agnetta.
211206.
Monday, December 18, 2006
Miracles.
Heyz, back again. well, this time after not long for i have a mission. to be one of the 400++ youths of our church to bring new friends to our church so that the total no. that comes to parkview square on christmas Eve is 1200!! A challenge? yes so but God gives us challenges to make us strong.
Now, I have Wendy S., Geraldine, Janice, Ruifa [all currently unconfirmed] Wendy used to be from CHC untill he left due to politics. I know hoGc will not be political. I can genuinely say that with trust of the people in our church.
Well, i last posted on Tuesday night, 12,12,06. Things do happen. Aand who says miracles can't happen within days of each other? Life itself is already our miracle. Anyway, It happen on thursday when Leonard msged me to come for the last day of VBS because he feels God has a word for me. At 7AM IN THE MORNING!!! WHY ARE YOU UP SO EARLY LEONARD!!!???!!! yeah. then JS called me at 9+ to ask if i was coming for the last day of VBS. I was groggy and can't remember what i said. Leonard called me soon after like 15 mins after. To tell me " i really think you should come today. i realy feel God has a word for you." OK OK!! i get it, I'm coming!! Don't you people sleep!!!???!!! argh. then JS called again. ARGHZ!!! then Pan called at 10 to ask me the same question again. you coming for VBS? yes, Yes, YES!!! how can i not since Leonard called me lerz. So donw to church i went.
I don't regret my going. Throughout the Word, i was writing writing writing. copying cpoying copying. coz leonard said " you should pay attention in the Word today k?" I'm like ermz ok fine. So, nothing really happened till closing. Wwe were asked to kneel down and pray and worship. So we did. And i was kneeling ad worshiping and CRYING!! i didn't even know why!!! And i was one of the last few up. wow. so after service Leonard came up to me to ask what God's word was. I was having so much difficulty describing it. Well, thankfully he understood. I was shaking like mad. well, realy don't know what happen too. So he and i were talking about what happen. Then supposed to go for revival but couldn't since i had to go home early. so went for dinner with Aalvin and Sharon.
Come Friday. I was suppose to go for revival meeting at 6.30. i was almost late since i left my house at 6. from my house to church usually takes a good 25 mins. so that day i prayed. that i wouldn't be late. and A thought flashed. I will not. wow. ok. so Friday evening. Note. Friday Evening. CTE was clear all the way. hahaz. i was there in 10 mins. Friday evening clear highways? a miracle upon itself. hahaz. so there i was for revival which was about the waves of urfing and the Waves of Christianity. Aand then Pastor Lia asked for people to be prayed for. I went in front!! hahaz. I loved being prayed for. hahaz. So i was like the first ten down and when paetor lia reached me, i felt my energy sucked away from me. I was leaning on Pasotor Lia's arm which was around me as she whispered to me. I could not feel my own strength. So she let me down and i was caught by the security personel and usher crew who were there. and i was th last. LAST up. wow. what Pastor Lia said to me i've told Leonard but dont think i should tell anyone else so.... And i just laid there. I wanted to get up. Wwell, my spiritual and physical self couldnt get up. i mean i wanted to get up but my body wouldn't respond.! For real! I know i could have broken the spiritual and physical binds with my mind but i didnt. So, i was so shocked when i saw that i was the last one up. Then after that, was praise. After that Leonard came up to me and Hey How are you? You ok? What went on. So we were juts talking about it. And he prophesied that i my being in church was not going to be mediocre but i was going to go far. Wow. Thanks for believing in me Leonard. Even i didn't think so far and Big myself. So after that, i had to rush off to meet my aunt to watch movie. Dejavu. Apt eh. sheesh. So , quite nice larz. Then went for dinner. at mac. then went back to her place via cab. i was using the com till late. then showered. the was around 3 i wanted to sleep. then i thought hey. i should do quiet time. so took out my ipod, praise song worship song, prayer then worship song again. AND AFTER THAT I COULDN'T SLEEP!!! haiz. i learnt my lesson. Don't attempt QT at 3 in the morning.
Saturday, woke up at 11. not enough sleep man. groggy. went for lunch then left for church. was almost late AGAIN!! haiz. this time during service i was so different from before don't know why but i was more caring about the people around me than me for once. wow. If you know me before i accepted and now that i have, you'd know i'm pretty different. I mean it's to such and extent that i can even tell so myself. wow. They went to catch a movie while i went home to pack. haiz. should have gone for the movie. didn't start packing till those that went for the movie came home. hahaz.
Sunday!!Leaving for Bangkok. haiz. hungry and tired. shop eat and then shop again. hahaz. i love shopping with my mom you know why? COZ SHE PAYS. woots. haaz. So, then went to Suan Lum night bazzar to shop again. there was this really nice cross i wanted to buy. which in the end i did after so so so much consideration. haiz. 2 crosses actually. She paid too. hahaz. So went back to hotel, bathed and did my QT again. this time at 1+ bangkok time. didn't sleep till 5+ walao. hahaz. So during that time, i decided to read the bible. NKJV. then as i closed it for the first time, this verse flashed in my head. Mark 6:12. [so they went out and preached that people might be saved.] wow. don't understand yet. but. then at 3:16 in the morning i was reading the book of John. hahaz John 3:16.
Monday. nothing much other my family went to temple to pray. [rolls eyes] i didnt though. i took pics. thankfully my dad didn't force me to. then went shopping at chinatown. bought loads of stuff. then went to MBK to shop. haahaz. bought alot of shirts too. hahaz. other than that, nothing much lerz. hahaz. Marcus[winifred's bro] and i were talking about bangkok and he was like "even though i'm a guy and hardly shop, MBK IS A MUST GO!" hahaz. coming from marcus, it sounds farny.
Anyway, just wanna thanks a few impt people.
1. Leonard [For your guidance through this phrase of uncertainty and questions. and also for you ttime and energy you gave to make me feel equally impt in mental and spiritual. THANKYOU!!]
2. Xueli [For the little gossip we shared when you dropped me off at the MRT. we'll continue talking about you know who ya. hahaz]
3. Sharon [ yes jie. hahaz. though you're still younger than me hahaz. love you loads gerl. love me too yar.]
4. Alton [for all those songs. anymore? i'm alittle greedy. hahaz.]
And also to my pastors and the security personel and usher crew that caught me. Thanks.
Mark 6:12
Agnetta.
181206.
Now, I have Wendy S., Geraldine, Janice, Ruifa [all currently unconfirmed] Wendy used to be from CHC untill he left due to politics. I know hoGc will not be political. I can genuinely say that with trust of the people in our church.
Well, i last posted on Tuesday night, 12,12,06. Things do happen. Aand who says miracles can't happen within days of each other? Life itself is already our miracle. Anyway, It happen on thursday when Leonard msged me to come for the last day of VBS because he feels God has a word for me. At 7AM IN THE MORNING!!! WHY ARE YOU UP SO EARLY LEONARD!!!???!!! yeah. then JS called me at 9+ to ask if i was coming for the last day of VBS. I was groggy and can't remember what i said. Leonard called me soon after like 15 mins after. To tell me " i really think you should come today. i realy feel God has a word for you." OK OK!! i get it, I'm coming!! Don't you people sleep!!!???!!! argh. then JS called again. ARGHZ!!! then Pan called at 10 to ask me the same question again. you coming for VBS? yes, Yes, YES!!! how can i not since Leonard called me lerz. So donw to church i went.
I don't regret my going. Throughout the Word, i was writing writing writing. copying cpoying copying. coz leonard said " you should pay attention in the Word today k?" I'm like ermz ok fine. So, nothing really happened till closing. Wwe were asked to kneel down and pray and worship. So we did. And i was kneeling ad worshiping and CRYING!! i didn't even know why!!! And i was one of the last few up. wow. so after service Leonard came up to me to ask what God's word was. I was having so much difficulty describing it. Well, thankfully he understood. I was shaking like mad. well, realy don't know what happen too. So he and i were talking about what happen. Then supposed to go for revival but couldn't since i had to go home early. so went for dinner with Aalvin and Sharon.
Come Friday. I was suppose to go for revival meeting at 6.30. i was almost late since i left my house at 6. from my house to church usually takes a good 25 mins. so that day i prayed. that i wouldn't be late. and A thought flashed. I will not. wow. ok. so Friday evening. Note. Friday Evening. CTE was clear all the way. hahaz. i was there in 10 mins. Friday evening clear highways? a miracle upon itself. hahaz. so there i was for revival which was about the waves of urfing and the Waves of Christianity. Aand then Pastor Lia asked for people to be prayed for. I went in front!! hahaz. I loved being prayed for. hahaz. So i was like the first ten down and when paetor lia reached me, i felt my energy sucked away from me. I was leaning on Pasotor Lia's arm which was around me as she whispered to me. I could not feel my own strength. So she let me down and i was caught by the security personel and usher crew who were there. and i was th last. LAST up. wow. what Pastor Lia said to me i've told Leonard but dont think i should tell anyone else so.... And i just laid there. I wanted to get up. Wwell, my spiritual and physical self couldnt get up. i mean i wanted to get up but my body wouldn't respond.! For real! I know i could have broken the spiritual and physical binds with my mind but i didnt. So, i was so shocked when i saw that i was the last one up. Then after that, was praise. After that Leonard came up to me and Hey How are you? You ok? What went on. So we were juts talking about it. And he prophesied that i my being in church was not going to be mediocre but i was going to go far. Wow. Thanks for believing in me Leonard. Even i didn't think so far and Big myself. So after that, i had to rush off to meet my aunt to watch movie. Dejavu. Apt eh. sheesh. So , quite nice larz. Then went for dinner. at mac. then went back to her place via cab. i was using the com till late. then showered. the was around 3 i wanted to sleep. then i thought hey. i should do quiet time. so took out my ipod, praise song worship song, prayer then worship song again. AND AFTER THAT I COULDN'T SLEEP!!! haiz. i learnt my lesson. Don't attempt QT at 3 in the morning.
Saturday, woke up at 11. not enough sleep man. groggy. went for lunch then left for church. was almost late AGAIN!! haiz. this time during service i was so different from before don't know why but i was more caring about the people around me than me for once. wow. If you know me before i accepted and now that i have, you'd know i'm pretty different. I mean it's to such and extent that i can even tell so myself. wow. They went to catch a movie while i went home to pack. haiz. should have gone for the movie. didn't start packing till those that went for the movie came home. hahaz.
Sunday!!Leaving for Bangkok. haiz. hungry and tired. shop eat and then shop again. hahaz. i love shopping with my mom you know why? COZ SHE PAYS. woots. haaz. So, then went to Suan Lum night bazzar to shop again. there was this really nice cross i wanted to buy. which in the end i did after so so so much consideration. haiz. 2 crosses actually. She paid too. hahaz. So went back to hotel, bathed and did my QT again. this time at 1+ bangkok time. didn't sleep till 5+ walao. hahaz. So during that time, i decided to read the bible. NKJV. then as i closed it for the first time, this verse flashed in my head. Mark 6:12. [so they went out and preached that people might be saved.] wow. don't understand yet. but. then at 3:16 in the morning i was reading the book of John. hahaz John 3:16.
Monday. nothing much other my family went to temple to pray. [rolls eyes] i didnt though. i took pics. thankfully my dad didn't force me to. then went shopping at chinatown. bought loads of stuff. then went to MBK to shop. haahaz. bought alot of shirts too. hahaz. other than that, nothing much lerz. hahaz. Marcus[winifred's bro] and i were talking about bangkok and he was like "even though i'm a guy and hardly shop, MBK IS A MUST GO!" hahaz. coming from marcus, it sounds farny.
Anyway, just wanna thanks a few impt people.
1. Leonard [For your guidance through this phrase of uncertainty and questions. and also for you ttime and energy you gave to make me feel equally impt in mental and spiritual. THANKYOU!!]
2. Xueli [For the little gossip we shared when you dropped me off at the MRT. we'll continue talking about you know who ya. hahaz]
3. Sharon [ yes jie. hahaz. though you're still younger than me hahaz. love you loads gerl. love me too yar.]
4. Alton [for all those songs. anymore? i'm alittle greedy. hahaz.]
And also to my pastors and the security personel and usher crew that caught me. Thanks.
Mark 6:12
Agnetta.
181206.
Tuesday, December 12, 2006
God..
Let's begin the story with the sunday after the ABA therapy. I went to church for service. Know what? I hadn't gone to church for service since the 22nd of Oct. yup. not nov. but oct. well, wasn't really in the mood as i was kinda in a i don't think i shpould be here kinda mood. So, went for meeting with Leonard. Turns out i was the only one from C1 having the meeting. freaked me out. thought what i was wanted for. well, no big thing anyway. it was to get people to come from chong boon to church. So after that, met GG, GC, jian sheng and Pam for dinner.Then went to get Icecream from Gelare. No one else wanted though. JS say's he'll go broke going out with me. hahaz. and i found out that GC's from malaysia. and she'd go back every night. problematic eh.
Monday morning. Went to the new Ikea Mega Mall. And now i know why tey call it a mega mall. Big and huge cannot describe it. WOW. So mom and i were walking around [i shop with my mom k. so she'll pay. haha.]and next thing i knew was that we bought new cupboards. haha. Two in fact. almost killed me trying to get it out of the shelf in Ikea. Yet, stared assembling the board only at around 11 PM. yup. you read right. at night. so we smashed, hammered and screwed till 1+. and i slept at like 2. walao... and i had usher for VBS today.
Well, technically, i cant come for VBS. PO. but mom agreed to let me go for usher. weird? yes i know. so morning. reached at 9. like few mins late though. so pack pack shift shift. and this time is not altitude doing ushering, though it was suppose to be Big doing. it consisted of Big, Altitude, and some other. we were brought from different groups to mix and blend. met some new people, experienced some new things [ next passage] achieved some things i never expected to be able to achieve. so we were arranging chairs. i'm like getting really good at that. haha. so zhi xiang and the rest of us were done with like 300 chairs in 45 mins!!! record. hahaz. even altitude hasn't done that. Shanny's going to kill me. hahaz. for ribbing altitude. hahaz. well, as seperate teams we seemed to not be able of doing it, but there was some real team work and coordination going on. and i must say chew ting [2i/c for Big, and coordinator for day] was impressed too!! hahaz. so, i did go for VBS today. technically. hahaz. we watched brave heart. and did quiet time, and watched a movie about some pastor preaching. Very well done. but hui min, xinhui and i were really sleepy though. And me and Xinhui couldn't sleep coz shanny was behind us. argh... tired and hungry. some like me hadn't eaten since last night. we had a break at 2. but had to do ushering so no time to eat. thought was going to have break after wards but never cant. thought service would end at 5? thought wrong again. ARGH. sso, well, Pastor How went up and asked us to speak and allow the holy spirit to talk to us, as the video was about batism in the holy spirit. So, thought. that's the next story. Later paired up to help someone pray. i prayed for Xinhui and she for me. God told her to tell me, i may have been back stabbed, and hurt, but God will always be there for me. and that if anything i could always seek him and if not, the church and it's people. and she was so spot on. I never told her i was from somewhere which backstabbed and hurt me. This proves, God exists. and He told me to tell her that her faith was faltering and He wants her to know that even though He could not be seen, he will always be there. And that she is capable of bigger things than she has done or is doing now. and i was right too!! WOW~!!!!!!
Now for the story which i said impacted me. The holy spirit spoke to me. As we were doing quiet time, i was just trying. k. i never really paid much heed to it actualy. till today. i decided to try. So i prayed. for strength and deliverance. I prayed for Him to give me courage to stand up and Breakthrough of my cocoon and emerge a butterfly. I prayed for ability to help the special children he put intho those loving families. and so in turn help their family to see their special children as a blessing and not a curse. And i prayed for chance to shine. then i heard a voice. not mine this time. It said, you can do it already. so go ahead and achieve big dreams. I was in rapid shock. as everyone else was stil doing quiet time, i didn't stand up or disrub. so i just sat there. after service, i went to find Pan, to tell him i'm not going for Joy's birthday party. then when i walked in, i saw weijie. Being my leader, i thought that i should tell him what is going on with me in any sense since he really cares about me. So, i told him. And he told me, that i would be used by God more as my ability was my speech. i was able to talk and persuade people to come and love and grow in God's mercy and Love. And after that, i saw Leonard and Jiansheng. I told then what happened too. Leonard seem to know that that was the first time He spoke to me. Leonard also told me some advice. That i was a strong girl. and i was going to be used by the lord. Looks like I was put in church for a reason. to help God and the church. I had never been able to talk to Weijie about these things before. and now, it's like i'm a whole new person. I never favoured talking to people i'm new to about these things too but here i am, telling leonard. God exists to help change lives, as he changed mine.
Whoever is reading this blog of mine now, i challenge you to be come to Heart of God church [you can meet me and go together] saturdays {4-6pm} Sunday {adult service 10am-12pm, youth service 2-4pm} For more details, you can always ask me for information. Pick up this challenge for those who do not believe in christ and see what God can do to change your life.
I hear you lord.
Agnetta.
121206.
Monday morning. Went to the new Ikea Mega Mall. And now i know why tey call it a mega mall. Big and huge cannot describe it. WOW. So mom and i were walking around [i shop with my mom k. so she'll pay. haha.]and next thing i knew was that we bought new cupboards. haha. Two in fact. almost killed me trying to get it out of the shelf in Ikea. Yet, stared assembling the board only at around 11 PM. yup. you read right. at night. so we smashed, hammered and screwed till 1+. and i slept at like 2. walao... and i had usher for VBS today.
Well, technically, i cant come for VBS. PO. but mom agreed to let me go for usher. weird? yes i know. so morning. reached at 9. like few mins late though. so pack pack shift shift. and this time is not altitude doing ushering, though it was suppose to be Big doing. it consisted of Big, Altitude, and some other. we were brought from different groups to mix and blend. met some new people, experienced some new things [ next passage] achieved some things i never expected to be able to achieve. so we were arranging chairs. i'm like getting really good at that. haha. so zhi xiang and the rest of us were done with like 300 chairs in 45 mins!!! record. hahaz. even altitude hasn't done that. Shanny's going to kill me. hahaz. for ribbing altitude. hahaz. well, as seperate teams we seemed to not be able of doing it, but there was some real team work and coordination going on. and i must say chew ting [2i/c for Big, and coordinator for day] was impressed too!! hahaz. so, i did go for VBS today. technically. hahaz. we watched brave heart. and did quiet time, and watched a movie about some pastor preaching. Very well done. but hui min, xinhui and i were really sleepy though. And me and Xinhui couldn't sleep coz shanny was behind us. argh... tired and hungry. some like me hadn't eaten since last night. we had a break at 2. but had to do ushering so no time to eat. thought was going to have break after wards but never cant. thought service would end at 5? thought wrong again. ARGH. sso, well, Pastor How went up and asked us to speak and allow the holy spirit to talk to us, as the video was about batism in the holy spirit. So, thought. that's the next story. Later paired up to help someone pray. i prayed for Xinhui and she for me. God told her to tell me, i may have been back stabbed, and hurt, but God will always be there for me. and that if anything i could always seek him and if not, the church and it's people. and she was so spot on. I never told her i was from somewhere which backstabbed and hurt me. This proves, God exists. and He told me to tell her that her faith was faltering and He wants her to know that even though He could not be seen, he will always be there. And that she is capable of bigger things than she has done or is doing now. and i was right too!! WOW~!!!!!!
Now for the story which i said impacted me. The holy spirit spoke to me. As we were doing quiet time, i was just trying. k. i never really paid much heed to it actualy. till today. i decided to try. So i prayed. for strength and deliverance. I prayed for Him to give me courage to stand up and Breakthrough of my cocoon and emerge a butterfly. I prayed for ability to help the special children he put intho those loving families. and so in turn help their family to see their special children as a blessing and not a curse. And i prayed for chance to shine. then i heard a voice. not mine this time. It said, you can do it already. so go ahead and achieve big dreams. I was in rapid shock. as everyone else was stil doing quiet time, i didn't stand up or disrub. so i just sat there. after service, i went to find Pan, to tell him i'm not going for Joy's birthday party. then when i walked in, i saw weijie. Being my leader, i thought that i should tell him what is going on with me in any sense since he really cares about me. So, i told him. And he told me, that i would be used by God more as my ability was my speech. i was able to talk and persuade people to come and love and grow in God's mercy and Love. And after that, i saw Leonard and Jiansheng. I told then what happened too. Leonard seem to know that that was the first time He spoke to me. Leonard also told me some advice. That i was a strong girl. and i was going to be used by the lord. Looks like I was put in church for a reason. to help God and the church. I had never been able to talk to Weijie about these things before. and now, it's like i'm a whole new person. I never favoured talking to people i'm new to about these things too but here i am, telling leonard. God exists to help change lives, as he changed mine.
Whoever is reading this blog of mine now, i challenge you to be come to Heart of God church [you can meet me and go together] saturdays {4-6pm} Sunday {adult service 10am-12pm, youth service 2-4pm} For more details, you can always ask me for information. Pick up this challenge for those who do not believe in christ and see what God can do to change your life.
I hear you lord.
Agnetta.
121206.
Monday, December 11, 2006
Love???
You know, whenever i see people getting attached or see people of themselves and their boy or girlfriends in their pictures. I get jealous. WTH. even i think i'm mad for getting jealous. Is it because i want that guy to like me instead? like that's madness purer than what it originally was.
Is it cause i need someone there for me? Someone who can just be there all the time? Someone to call my own? Then i see. there is. There's God. You might not believe. you might scorn. so what? i know what i hold firm to. God's there for me. maybe not physically, but at least he is there for me in mind. I cannot say that he has been there for me 100%. but then again, maybe i wasn't looking hard enough.
Well, back to ther original topic or BGR photos. i want someone to call my own. to be there for me. then there is church. who will always be there for me. With Sharon, Winifred, Xueli, Pam, Jiansheng, Pan, etc etc.
When i see pics of Jas and Amy. i get jealous because i once loved him but... then i see deeper into those pics, i think. what has jasper become? in his relationship with Amy, has he ended up worst that he was before? either way, i wish the two luck in their relationship.
Then seeing further? Jas is a reminder of where i once came from. a reminder of who i once was, and who i might have one day become. Thankfully, i am out of there, and not in that pit hole.
I might still get jealous that there's no one here for me. but God delivers, doesn't he? Yes i long for someone to be here for me. Here and Now. It might not be jasper, not _______, nor_____. Jessica has tried match making me to whichever whoever. but then? hahaz.
I know where i want to go. I don't want to be samson and end up loving delilah. Loving the wrong man for the wrong reasons. I want my dreams to blow big. with dreams come decisions, dedication and then discipline. To love will cut my dreams. so is it to dream or to let this heart decide? damn i'm at this stupid cross road again. I want my road to Eshtaol. and i never want to end up at Zorah. but to remain at Mahaneh Dan? everyone seems to be here. so am i suppose to be following everyone? But neither do i want to remain at this gate called Mahaneh Dan.
Haha. now i laugh. guess why? i don't even have someone i like!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. i love laughing at myself. caause i don't get insulted by me, and i don't insult anyone but me which i technically cant insult so. here goes. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. but well, just people who have been there for me to jabber at, to say all that i need to say, thanks. like Marcus [maybe cause i've been talking to you so much these days], winifred [Friend forever!] and others. you know what. i just realised the two names i put down are siblings. hahaz. wini and marcus are bro and sis. hahaa. wth..
Anyway, who needs jasper as a stead or who whatsoever when i have friends to rib and enjoy my life with. yes, i may still feel the down of not having someone there, but at least there is satisfaction in knowing that i don't need a stead 24/7 like what they are because i have HEART OF GOD CHURCH!!!!!!
And also to allow people to love what you are not who you are. coz loving who you are is like loving david beckham because he's famous. Love me for my attitude. my idiosyncrasis. my what ever what ever what ever. so??
who other than God is capable of that?
Love me for what i am not who i am.
Agnetta.
101206.
Is it cause i need someone there for me? Someone who can just be there all the time? Someone to call my own? Then i see. there is. There's God. You might not believe. you might scorn. so what? i know what i hold firm to. God's there for me. maybe not physically, but at least he is there for me in mind. I cannot say that he has been there for me 100%. but then again, maybe i wasn't looking hard enough.
Well, back to ther original topic or BGR photos. i want someone to call my own. to be there for me. then there is church. who will always be there for me. With Sharon, Winifred, Xueli, Pam, Jiansheng, Pan, etc etc.
When i see pics of Jas and Amy. i get jealous because i once loved him but... then i see deeper into those pics, i think. what has jasper become? in his relationship with Amy, has he ended up worst that he was before? either way, i wish the two luck in their relationship.
Then seeing further? Jas is a reminder of where i once came from. a reminder of who i once was, and who i might have one day become. Thankfully, i am out of there, and not in that pit hole.
I might still get jealous that there's no one here for me. but God delivers, doesn't he? Yes i long for someone to be here for me. Here and Now. It might not be jasper, not _______, nor_____. Jessica has tried match making me to whichever whoever. but then? hahaz.
I know where i want to go. I don't want to be samson and end up loving delilah. Loving the wrong man for the wrong reasons. I want my dreams to blow big. with dreams come decisions, dedication and then discipline. To love will cut my dreams. so is it to dream or to let this heart decide? damn i'm at this stupid cross road again. I want my road to Eshtaol. and i never want to end up at Zorah. but to remain at Mahaneh Dan? everyone seems to be here. so am i suppose to be following everyone? But neither do i want to remain at this gate called Mahaneh Dan.
Haha. now i laugh. guess why? i don't even have someone i like!!! hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. i love laughing at myself. caause i don't get insulted by me, and i don't insult anyone but me which i technically cant insult so. here goes. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha. but well, just people who have been there for me to jabber at, to say all that i need to say, thanks. like Marcus [maybe cause i've been talking to you so much these days], winifred [Friend forever!] and others. you know what. i just realised the two names i put down are siblings. hahaz. wini and marcus are bro and sis. hahaa. wth..
Anyway, who needs jasper as a stead or who whatsoever when i have friends to rib and enjoy my life with. yes, i may still feel the down of not having someone there, but at least there is satisfaction in knowing that i don't need a stead 24/7 like what they are because i have HEART OF GOD CHURCH!!!!!!
And also to allow people to love what you are not who you are. coz loving who you are is like loving david beckham because he's famous. Love me for my attitude. my idiosyncrasis. my what ever what ever what ever. so??
who other than God is capable of that?
Love me for what i am not who i am.
Agnetta.
101206.
Friday, December 08, 2006
New[s]
A new end, a new beginnig. A new start, a new look, a new Me. And how do i start these news? By chopping off my hair. literally. so now, it hangs 2 inches below my shoulder. haha. it actually suit me though it gives the impression i look like 10 years older than what i should be. haha.I'm thinking of getting another few inches chopped off again. i wonder how i'd look. haha.
So for new ends. i went back to BF. we talk. no need to mention who but just we as BF members. met 2 new guys there. one a bass singer and the other a bassit. oh and he's really hot. haha. hot bod man. woohoo!! haha. cool eh. hahaz.
i'm starting my course tml. hooefully i get something outta somewhere or someone. well, nothing much other than my hair cut and my missing 24!!!! argh...
New hair new me..
Agnetta.
071206.
So for new ends. i went back to BF. we talk. no need to mention who but just we as BF members. met 2 new guys there. one a bass singer and the other a bassit. oh and he's really hot. haha. hot bod man. woohoo!! haha. cool eh. hahaz.
i'm starting my course tml. hooefully i get something outta somewhere or someone. well, nothing much other than my hair cut and my missing 24!!!! argh...
New hair new me..
Agnetta.
071206.
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
life's boring.
Woohoo. It's been long long long. well, not as long as when i didnt post for one month but these days. haiz. hahaz. it's more of like i'm suddenly lazy to type. hahaz.
i used to keep journals. like literal journal entries where i write deligently everyday. then i started blogging where problems started arising. and i locked this blog. hahaz. so my circle seems to claim me back to where i started out from. i prefer writing to actually typing now. idiotic i know. but... i think this it's so fun ranting about nothing that really concerns you or anyone around you. HAHAHAHA. i'm slightly nuts now.
Withdrawal. from what? guess what. after this you'd think i'm even more mad than i am now already. hahaz. withdrawal from my studies. i know, i know. but it's i seem to see alot of my books strewn around my room. i use to "study" these books. haha. now i seem to miss studying. haiz. seriously. i thought it'd blow over soon. wrong wrong i was.
anyway.
from 1st till now, nothing much happened.
1st: ABA.
2nd: sleep sleep eat and sleep.
3rd: usher in church. I almost fainted. woops. [for real k. you can verify with ernest. i grabbed him before i almost fainted, if i didnt manage to scratch him i think i would have landed on the floor.]
4th,5th,6th:chalet. VBS[which i didnt go] due to PO.
so. that's it. haiz. life is boring.
Agnetta.
061206
i used to keep journals. like literal journal entries where i write deligently everyday. then i started blogging where problems started arising. and i locked this blog. hahaz. so my circle seems to claim me back to where i started out from. i prefer writing to actually typing now. idiotic i know. but... i think this it's so fun ranting about nothing that really concerns you or anyone around you. HAHAHAHA. i'm slightly nuts now.
Withdrawal. from what? guess what. after this you'd think i'm even more mad than i am now already. hahaz. withdrawal from my studies. i know, i know. but it's i seem to see alot of my books strewn around my room. i use to "study" these books. haha. now i seem to miss studying. haiz. seriously. i thought it'd blow over soon. wrong wrong i was.
anyway.
from 1st till now, nothing much happened.
1st: ABA.
2nd: sleep sleep eat and sleep.
3rd: usher in church. I almost fainted. woops. [for real k. you can verify with ernest. i grabbed him before i almost fainted, if i didnt manage to scratch him i think i would have landed on the floor.]
4th,5th,6th:chalet. VBS[which i didnt go] due to PO.
so. that's it. haiz. life is boring.
Agnetta.
061206
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Work..??
remember in the last post yesterday that i said that i was most likely going to work in secret recipie? well, i most likely will not. haha.
I may be working as a therapist in this ABA therapy. ABA actually represents applied behavioural analysis. so... i will end up being a therapist who house hops and does therapy for special needs children. Sound weird? sound ridiculous with the fact that i'm 16? sound nuts that i'm going to be a therapist? i know. i find it weird too.
It actually started out today afternoon when this ABA therapist came to my house to work on jon. so, i decided to not sit in this time round. [for those who dont know i actually sit in during the therapy when 2 australians do therapy.] a little dragy yes i know but its fun. but it doesnt help that it makes me see more than what everyone sees.
So well, I'm going for a course next friday and saturday, and then starting training at a workshop on monday to friday the following week. and after that the families who choose me as their therapist will get me house hopping. and guess what. Im doing overtime at home and not getting paid!!! hahaz. not that it matters. since he's my brother. [he aint heavy, he's my brother.] haha.
but guess what? it pays better than secret recipie!!! haha. SR pays $5 per hour. seems like alot? guess what. ABA therapy pays $20 per hour!!! hahahahahahaha. who laughs last laughs best. haha. and my family [not the neutral (if you dont know what neutral family means it actually means onkly your mother father and those in the direct line to you. so grandparents are not counted.) one] has been ribbing me why havent i got a job yet. im like so pissed larz. they're like work in mac larz. oso good mahz. at least it pays. like yeah, $2.50? I'd rather not work. like i cant match up eh,...
well, who laughs last laughs best. Thankfully i didnt take the mac job. nor the SR one. hahaz. I'm the one earning now!!! hahahahahahahaha. like can you imagine i work at SR for 6 hours. and earn $30. and one therapy session earns me $40 already [one therapy session is 2 hours]. you dont have to be smart to know which one to pick. haha. well, im not smart but i aint stuipid either, but i certainly know which one i'm going to pick. hahaha.
So my upcoming schedule will be pretty hectic as such:
Sunday: usher in church, family dinner. [supposed to be having dinner with C1 and leonard de.]
Monday to Thursday: Chalet
Friday, saturday: ABA lecture
Monday to Friday: ABA workshop.
Sunday to Wednesday: Thailand trip.
Nutty? i know. the only free days i have left are tml, 10th[sun] 16th[sat] and next thing you know, it's 5 days to christmas and 11 days to create, heart awards and the new year! imagine, how fast this year's flow. and when you think back. it really flew. and thinking deeper, it's going to be the end of the 7th and start of the 8th year after the new millennium. millennium is a real dificult word to spell. it has 2m, 2n and 2l. oh and 2e. wth. haha.
but, well, like is a race. but stand and enjoy w hat you have. quoting a friend, life's too short to be bogged down by everlasting problems. and you know what? you actually create those problems yourself. haha, well, i'm not going to create more problems anymore. =)
Well, im going to see how life goes on. haha. love all..
Agnetta.
011206.
I may be working as a therapist in this ABA therapy. ABA actually represents applied behavioural analysis. so... i will end up being a therapist who house hops and does therapy for special needs children. Sound weird? sound ridiculous with the fact that i'm 16? sound nuts that i'm going to be a therapist? i know. i find it weird too.
It actually started out today afternoon when this ABA therapist came to my house to work on jon. so, i decided to not sit in this time round. [for those who dont know i actually sit in during the therapy when 2 australians do therapy.] a little dragy yes i know but its fun. but it doesnt help that it makes me see more than what everyone sees.
So well, I'm going for a course next friday and saturday, and then starting training at a workshop on monday to friday the following week. and after that the families who choose me as their therapist will get me house hopping. and guess what. Im doing overtime at home and not getting paid!!! hahaz. not that it matters. since he's my brother. [he aint heavy, he's my brother.] haha.
but guess what? it pays better than secret recipie!!! haha. SR pays $5 per hour. seems like alot? guess what. ABA therapy pays $20 per hour!!! hahahahahahaha. who laughs last laughs best. haha. and my family [not the neutral (if you dont know what neutral family means it actually means onkly your mother father and those in the direct line to you. so grandparents are not counted.) one] has been ribbing me why havent i got a job yet. im like so pissed larz. they're like work in mac larz. oso good mahz. at least it pays. like yeah, $2.50? I'd rather not work. like i cant match up eh,...
well, who laughs last laughs best. Thankfully i didnt take the mac job. nor the SR one. hahaz. I'm the one earning now!!! hahahahahahahaha. like can you imagine i work at SR for 6 hours. and earn $30. and one therapy session earns me $40 already [one therapy session is 2 hours]. you dont have to be smart to know which one to pick. haha. well, im not smart but i aint stuipid either, but i certainly know which one i'm going to pick. hahaha.
So my upcoming schedule will be pretty hectic as such:
Sunday: usher in church, family dinner. [supposed to be having dinner with C1 and leonard de.]
Monday to Thursday: Chalet
Friday, saturday: ABA lecture
Monday to Friday: ABA workshop.
Sunday to Wednesday: Thailand trip.
Nutty? i know. the only free days i have left are tml, 10th[sun] 16th[sat] and next thing you know, it's 5 days to christmas and 11 days to create, heart awards and the new year! imagine, how fast this year's flow. and when you think back. it really flew. and thinking deeper, it's going to be the end of the 7th and start of the 8th year after the new millennium. millennium is a real dificult word to spell. it has 2m, 2n and 2l. oh and 2e. wth. haha.
but, well, like is a race. but stand and enjoy w hat you have. quoting a friend, life's too short to be bogged down by everlasting problems. and you know what? you actually create those problems yourself. haha, well, i'm not going to create more problems anymore. =)
Well, im going to see how life goes on. haha. love all..
Agnetta.
011206.
Friday, December 01, 2006
Thursday, November 23, 2006
Long Long Time Ago.
Well well well...
it's been more than A MONTH SINCE I LAST POSTED!!!
wow. well, even i must say im impressed by me.
hahaz.
well, technically nothing much has happened since 16 oct, other than...
My O levels advancing towards me..
Can you believe i studied!!??!!
like i never do!!!
im shocked!!
well, at least i was.
hahaz.
thats one.
ok. well, i was thinking of actually TRYING to even remember what went on during this one and a half months but i just realised, FORGET IT.
well, its actually coz i cant remember hahaz.
ok.
recent things are...
Job interviews!!
coffee bean bishan [might get posted out.]
fonteen [dont really fancy working with a boss who is 30+ but TRYS to look 18 ( dont think i'll get the job though.)]
GV.[dont think i like standing long hours very much]
Paris miki.[might consider is they'd called but they didnt so.....]
Secret Recipie[i think i'll get the job. they're calling me tml!! hahaz. but i had to take a jab though. sianz. but FNB is fun!! hahaz]
so well, the next so called big thing is the family vacation.
24th to the 29th.
night 1: went with dad and nat to jb to stay the night as we had to pick up the van my dad bought. so went to grand continental, or tried to find it coz it changed name and my dad secretary forgot to tell us it had been changed to hotel selesa. most likely a malaysian local name.after that we went to hyatt for supper. with the famil car and to check out the van. it was so freaking tall that when i Stood IN it. i coouldn't reach the ceiling... i was like WHAT!!! hahaz. madness. well thats night 1 for me.
night 2 or more like night 1 and day 1 for every body:
was the trip up to ipoh. long journey long journey long journey. very very very very long.we had lunch at KFC. all i had was one drumstick. why? no time, had to take care of every body who wasnt taking care of anybody else. sheesh being the eldest isnt fun.and there was this huge sports store there. imagine. its on the biggest high way in malaysia, in the middle of no where and you find a HUGE! sports store. i was so ermz. but freaking ex there thoug. especially after the addidas sale in sgp. well, when we reached, we couldnt find the hotel again. imagine going into town you'd expect to at the very LEAST be able to see the hotel from afar. well, we couldnt. and after we'd circled the whole town, we ended back where we started. down the way in again. and THEN!!! my mom looked backwards and saw the hotel staring us down from nearby. we were so diaoz. den imagine look back when driving forward. sheesh.well, after that we went for dinner. at some restaurant called marpoh. farny eh. and i ate like 1.5 bowl of rice. sheesh. k either i was real hungry or the food was really good. but i just realised how much of a pig that made me sound like. haha.
day 2:
went to caves to see caves and climb stairs. sheesh. and jon[he's my brother.] climed up this long long flight of stairs. so i had to hold him and go up with him. then came this bend. i stopped and looked up. i almost dieded looking at it. and then looking back where i came i might have died had my mon not came. hah. she took jon and brought him down.haha. i decided to syat below and look after jon after that. haha
then we went to another cave and another, sheesh. 3 is more than enough. then we went for lunch. yes here's to me being a pig again. i did eat quite alot. but you know what i didnt put on weight!!! i dunnoe about the inches though.woots. then went back to the hotel. i slept like a pig. im a ig fat pig. while nat and rytha went swimming.haha. then went grocery shopping. hey, you know what let me tell you a family joke. my dad brought a rice cooker to malaysia with us. to literally cook well, not rice but porridge. we did buy rice though. then we went for dinner at this restaurant called overseas that we were suppose to eat at the night before.[we didnt eat the night before coz there were 3 wedding dinners going on in there. no tables] oh yeah, due to the fact that it was a sundya that day, breakfast was suppose to be at foh san[ dim sum] but that place was packed!!! like people were standing to eat outside. [double diaoz] so we went somewhere else. and thats for the day.
Day3:
went for breakfast at fohsan. finally. we went quite late so there wasnt much food left and being a monday i think they didnt prepare much either. so we departed ipoh and headed down to kuala lumpur. lots of cars loads of people and more jams then the worst morning jam of wampoh flyover in singapore. we reached bandar sunway which is actually like a group kinda thing liike crystal jade is a group thingy. so, sunway is know for the lagoon and sunway pyramid[the shopping centre] is know for the ice skating rink. not a very fantastic shopping centre though i must add. everything is even more expensive than singapore. sheesh. so it was check in. and the gerl took like super long. like super. well, the rooms werent that bad so, didnt care much abt the gerl anymore. haha. so first thing, is charge to check the toilet. haha. i know. paranoid. yes i know. but a toilet says alot abt a hotel. passed. haha. best toilet i've been in is shangrila penang. and novotel bangkok. know why...? coz shangrila has like classic look there. juct classic. and novotel has wonderful big mirrors instead of the normal 4 walls. so you have the door on one side, the opposite is a blank wall coz of the bath tub and the two other sides are mirrored! haha. k why are we talking bout toilets here. haha.so back to KL. well, went for dinner at coca. so ironic that we went to the shopping centre to locate coca and went one big ridiculous round and found ourselves beside the main entrance and exit of the hotel...
after that, went walking around.end of day.
day 4:
woke up early in the moring just to go for some ice skating class dad signed the 3 of us up for. fine. i fell like hey 4 times only. i counted. but my shoes were like killing my feet so i said forget it. coz it was tight. haha. it was so deep it caused an imprint. super unglam thankfully i was in jeans painful though moreover i am a flatfoot. so the shoes didnt fit right. and i just realised my coordination was super nuts. hahaz.but the instructor wasnt fantastic either. haiz. went for breakfast after that. then went to see jon do the hyperbaric oxygen thingy.then went to this temple.really bored so i ended up taking pics of jon instead. haha. then went for lunch. this steam boat restaurant called xiao fei yang. not little flying goat [i thought that first time round too] its actually little fat goat. hahaz. fitting name. the food is fantastic. haha. went with uncle chee meng [ my dad's subordinate] he paid. then nat and rytha went back for ice skating. rytha was suppose to go home with my aunt and uncle who were going home that night. sheesh. but dad let her stay. haiz. so it was ice skating for them and shopping for me and mom!! haha. but things were so pricey. ended up buying like accecsories and a pair of back pants only. i had 200 rm and i didnt even spen 100. mom though i went mad.. well, maybe i was. we decided not to eat at coca again. went to some restaurant across the road. well, most likely its because KL's a commercial area thus everything is more expensive than in ipoh. well, dinner was good enough.
day 5:
last day.i went into the oxygen chamber haha. i had the mask on!! well, its like breathing PURE OXYGEN for one hour.but that mask was DAMNED DAMNED DAMNED heavy. and my nose ached after that. and i kept wanting to sneeze. wth. well, time flies. haha. after that we went for lunch wih uncles chee meng and chee boon. haha. they are not brothers. haha. at restaurant overseas. this time the KL one. got lost on our way there actually. was following uncle chee boon's car then ended up following another wrong car. got lost lost lost. called and then got directed back. haha. to make the U turn we had to go to where we realised we were lost in the first place. so. lunch and we're on our way home!! stopped to buy KFC for jon though. and my HP chain fell out. it landed ON the drain. yup on, not in. i was so thankful. haha. so drive drive drive. dad was so tired. haiz. poor dad. he's been driving the whole week. well, sharing some load with my uncle larz. but he was driving along that day. so when we reached JB, we usually go to giant. so there we went. mom was going to go shopping and dad went what? no time larz. but he gave us 15 mins haha. then when we came back he was missing so mom went on grocery shopping. haha. we then left for hyatt. to drop the car so that uncle chee boon could pick it up since chee meng's car was in service. we thought we were going to have dinner in hyatt then complications arose. too complicated. lazy to write it down but Grampa's face was a comic when he found out we werent going for dinner. haha. well, we were leaving. so dad sent ou pick up, who is actually a family friend to go buy 4 chicken home for dinner. supper weird. but long story cut short mom was like then why didnt we go to hyatt straight instead of even stopping at giant if i'd know that we're not having dinner would have bought some thing for the two old ones at mac.[family joke, two old ones sounding lik 201, has beecome a code name.] so dad said, lets go some where [in sgp of coz] for dinner then. so due to the fact of there being 12 of us in total, there were two cars. my uncle picked us up also. so there was not jams at all, sgp and malaysia immigration. i saw innova jc on my way for dinner. haha. so, went for late dinner then my aunt told my mom this[unfortunately i was close enough to hear the bad news] the fridge plug was off. to most of you, well, nothing big right, well, to us it is. the fridge had like tonnes of frozen meat and the fridge has countless dairy products. all spoilt. argh!!!! i spent my night back clearing out a smelly fridge. yuck yuck yuck. called pan before dinner and talked awhile, and he's such a jerk he didnt call back soon. [yup im writing this so you can see pan] haha.well, that's all i guess.
Today!!
went for a jab, for the fnb thingy. took photo, passport size. zapped the cert and my ic, went to bishan to give it, then went to church for resturucture. not much changes but we had two people leaving our cg. boon keat being transferred back to c2 and flora transferred to c6. haiz. no more flora to disturb during service lerz. no BK oso. haiz. its abit ironic that i disturb BK, coz im like 150 and BK is like 185. you'd think he's disturbing me instead. haha. well, im always going BK!!! dont stand beside me!! hahaz. he's like this giant trying to flaten me. haha. well, you'll be missed. dunnoe why but it's really hard for me to let BK go. i know he's still part of church but just like he was really warm and very loving to me esp on my birthday. really the super nice guy of nice guys. ok wait im tearing. haiz. well, flora and BK, here's to you guys. love you always. all the time, everywhere anywhere everytime and anytime.
well, ther's also a new addition to our group. Leonard is now our new leader. because roy weijie nicholas, our other leaders had their own CGs, we were mainly drifters. so now we have leonard!!! big round of applause for leonard. hahaz. charleston is know taking B zone too!! not only C zone. he use to have like 170 people, now he has to handle roughly 260 people. Jiayou charleston. moreover he's going army next march. gambate!
we also had new structure change.
Zone leader: Charleston
Supervisor: Ivan, Roy, Leonard.
CGLs: Jian ming, samantha, [and someone else i think]
new CGLs: WEIJIE!!! NICHOLAS!!! ruo en and hong hwee.
hahaz. so thats about all, oh and now weitze is also taking a group. cool eh. haha.
well, i dont think i have anymore to say.
so good night and sweet dreams.
Breakthrough
Agnetta.
301106
it's been more than A MONTH SINCE I LAST POSTED!!!
wow. well, even i must say im impressed by me.
hahaz.
well, technically nothing much has happened since 16 oct, other than...
My O levels advancing towards me..
Can you believe i studied!!??!!
like i never do!!!
im shocked!!
well, at least i was.
hahaz.
thats one.
ok. well, i was thinking of actually TRYING to even remember what went on during this one and a half months but i just realised, FORGET IT.
well, its actually coz i cant remember hahaz.
ok.
recent things are...
Job interviews!!
coffee bean bishan [might get posted out.]
fonteen [dont really fancy working with a boss who is 30+ but TRYS to look 18 ( dont think i'll get the job though.)]
GV.[dont think i like standing long hours very much]
Paris miki.[might consider is they'd called but they didnt so.....]
Secret Recipie[i think i'll get the job. they're calling me tml!! hahaz. but i had to take a jab though. sianz. but FNB is fun!! hahaz]
so well, the next so called big thing is the family vacation.
24th to the 29th.
night 1: went with dad and nat to jb to stay the night as we had to pick up the van my dad bought. so went to grand continental, or tried to find it coz it changed name and my dad secretary forgot to tell us it had been changed to hotel selesa. most likely a malaysian local name.after that we went to hyatt for supper. with the famil car and to check out the van. it was so freaking tall that when i Stood IN it. i coouldn't reach the ceiling... i was like WHAT!!! hahaz. madness. well thats night 1 for me.
night 2 or more like night 1 and day 1 for every body:
was the trip up to ipoh. long journey long journey long journey. very very very very long.we had lunch at KFC. all i had was one drumstick. why? no time, had to take care of every body who wasnt taking care of anybody else. sheesh being the eldest isnt fun.and there was this huge sports store there. imagine. its on the biggest high way in malaysia, in the middle of no where and you find a HUGE! sports store. i was so ermz. but freaking ex there thoug. especially after the addidas sale in sgp. well, when we reached, we couldnt find the hotel again. imagine going into town you'd expect to at the very LEAST be able to see the hotel from afar. well, we couldnt. and after we'd circled the whole town, we ended back where we started. down the way in again. and THEN!!! my mom looked backwards and saw the hotel staring us down from nearby. we were so diaoz. den imagine look back when driving forward. sheesh.well, after that we went for dinner. at some restaurant called marpoh. farny eh. and i ate like 1.5 bowl of rice. sheesh. k either i was real hungry or the food was really good. but i just realised how much of a pig that made me sound like. haha.
day 2:
went to caves to see caves and climb stairs. sheesh. and jon[he's my brother.] climed up this long long flight of stairs. so i had to hold him and go up with him. then came this bend. i stopped and looked up. i almost dieded looking at it. and then looking back where i came i might have died had my mon not came. hah. she took jon and brought him down.haha. i decided to syat below and look after jon after that. haha
then we went to another cave and another, sheesh. 3 is more than enough. then we went for lunch. yes here's to me being a pig again. i did eat quite alot. but you know what i didnt put on weight!!! i dunnoe about the inches though.woots. then went back to the hotel. i slept like a pig. im a ig fat pig. while nat and rytha went swimming.haha. then went grocery shopping. hey, you know what let me tell you a family joke. my dad brought a rice cooker to malaysia with us. to literally cook well, not rice but porridge. we did buy rice though. then we went for dinner at this restaurant called overseas that we were suppose to eat at the night before.[we didnt eat the night before coz there were 3 wedding dinners going on in there. no tables] oh yeah, due to the fact that it was a sundya that day, breakfast was suppose to be at foh san[ dim sum] but that place was packed!!! like people were standing to eat outside. [double diaoz] so we went somewhere else. and thats for the day.
Day3:
went for breakfast at fohsan. finally. we went quite late so there wasnt much food left and being a monday i think they didnt prepare much either. so we departed ipoh and headed down to kuala lumpur. lots of cars loads of people and more jams then the worst morning jam of wampoh flyover in singapore. we reached bandar sunway which is actually like a group kinda thing liike crystal jade is a group thingy. so, sunway is know for the lagoon and sunway pyramid[the shopping centre] is know for the ice skating rink. not a very fantastic shopping centre though i must add. everything is even more expensive than singapore. sheesh. so it was check in. and the gerl took like super long. like super. well, the rooms werent that bad so, didnt care much abt the gerl anymore. haha. so first thing, is charge to check the toilet. haha. i know. paranoid. yes i know. but a toilet says alot abt a hotel. passed. haha. best toilet i've been in is shangrila penang. and novotel bangkok. know why...? coz shangrila has like classic look there. juct classic. and novotel has wonderful big mirrors instead of the normal 4 walls. so you have the door on one side, the opposite is a blank wall coz of the bath tub and the two other sides are mirrored! haha. k why are we talking bout toilets here. haha.so back to KL. well, went for dinner at coca. so ironic that we went to the shopping centre to locate coca and went one big ridiculous round and found ourselves beside the main entrance and exit of the hotel...
after that, went walking around.end of day.
day 4:
woke up early in the moring just to go for some ice skating class dad signed the 3 of us up for. fine. i fell like hey 4 times only. i counted. but my shoes were like killing my feet so i said forget it. coz it was tight. haha. it was so deep it caused an imprint. super unglam thankfully i was in jeans painful though moreover i am a flatfoot. so the shoes didnt fit right. and i just realised my coordination was super nuts. hahaz.but the instructor wasnt fantastic either. haiz. went for breakfast after that. then went to see jon do the hyperbaric oxygen thingy.then went to this temple.really bored so i ended up taking pics of jon instead. haha. then went for lunch. this steam boat restaurant called xiao fei yang. not little flying goat [i thought that first time round too] its actually little fat goat. hahaz. fitting name. the food is fantastic. haha. went with uncle chee meng [ my dad's subordinate] he paid. then nat and rytha went back for ice skating. rytha was suppose to go home with my aunt and uncle who were going home that night. sheesh. but dad let her stay. haiz. so it was ice skating for them and shopping for me and mom!! haha. but things were so pricey. ended up buying like accecsories and a pair of back pants only. i had 200 rm and i didnt even spen 100. mom though i went mad.. well, maybe i was. we decided not to eat at coca again. went to some restaurant across the road. well, most likely its because KL's a commercial area thus everything is more expensive than in ipoh. well, dinner was good enough.
day 5:
last day.i went into the oxygen chamber haha. i had the mask on!! well, its like breathing PURE OXYGEN for one hour.but that mask was DAMNED DAMNED DAMNED heavy. and my nose ached after that. and i kept wanting to sneeze. wth. well, time flies. haha. after that we went for lunch wih uncles chee meng and chee boon. haha. they are not brothers. haha. at restaurant overseas. this time the KL one. got lost on our way there actually. was following uncle chee boon's car then ended up following another wrong car. got lost lost lost. called and then got directed back. haha. to make the U turn we had to go to where we realised we were lost in the first place. so. lunch and we're on our way home!! stopped to buy KFC for jon though. and my HP chain fell out. it landed ON the drain. yup on, not in. i was so thankful. haha. so drive drive drive. dad was so tired. haiz. poor dad. he's been driving the whole week. well, sharing some load with my uncle larz. but he was driving along that day. so when we reached JB, we usually go to giant. so there we went. mom was going to go shopping and dad went what? no time larz. but he gave us 15 mins haha. then when we came back he was missing so mom went on grocery shopping. haha. we then left for hyatt. to drop the car so that uncle chee boon could pick it up since chee meng's car was in service. we thought we were going to have dinner in hyatt then complications arose. too complicated. lazy to write it down but Grampa's face was a comic when he found out we werent going for dinner. haha. well, we were leaving. so dad sent ou pick up, who is actually a family friend to go buy 4 chicken home for dinner. supper weird. but long story cut short mom was like then why didnt we go to hyatt straight instead of even stopping at giant if i'd know that we're not having dinner would have bought some thing for the two old ones at mac.[family joke, two old ones sounding lik 201, has beecome a code name.] so dad said, lets go some where [in sgp of coz] for dinner then. so due to the fact of there being 12 of us in total, there were two cars. my uncle picked us up also. so there was not jams at all, sgp and malaysia immigration. i saw innova jc on my way for dinner. haha. so, went for late dinner then my aunt told my mom this[unfortunately i was close enough to hear the bad news] the fridge plug was off. to most of you, well, nothing big right, well, to us it is. the fridge had like tonnes of frozen meat and the fridge has countless dairy products. all spoilt. argh!!!! i spent my night back clearing out a smelly fridge. yuck yuck yuck. called pan before dinner and talked awhile, and he's such a jerk he didnt call back soon. [yup im writing this so you can see pan] haha.well, that's all i guess.
Today!!
went for a jab, for the fnb thingy. took photo, passport size. zapped the cert and my ic, went to bishan to give it, then went to church for resturucture. not much changes but we had two people leaving our cg. boon keat being transferred back to c2 and flora transferred to c6. haiz. no more flora to disturb during service lerz. no BK oso. haiz. its abit ironic that i disturb BK, coz im like 150 and BK is like 185. you'd think he's disturbing me instead. haha. well, im always going BK!!! dont stand beside me!! hahaz. he's like this giant trying to flaten me. haha. well, you'll be missed. dunnoe why but it's really hard for me to let BK go. i know he's still part of church but just like he was really warm and very loving to me esp on my birthday. really the super nice guy of nice guys. ok wait im tearing. haiz. well, flora and BK, here's to you guys. love you always. all the time, everywhere anywhere everytime and anytime.
well, ther's also a new addition to our group. Leonard is now our new leader. because roy weijie nicholas, our other leaders had their own CGs, we were mainly drifters. so now we have leonard!!! big round of applause for leonard. hahaz. charleston is know taking B zone too!! not only C zone. he use to have like 170 people, now he has to handle roughly 260 people. Jiayou charleston. moreover he's going army next march. gambate!
we also had new structure change.
Zone leader: Charleston
Supervisor: Ivan, Roy, Leonard.
CGLs: Jian ming, samantha, [and someone else i think]
new CGLs: WEIJIE!!! NICHOLAS!!! ruo en and hong hwee.
hahaz. so thats about all, oh and now weitze is also taking a group. cool eh. haha.
well, i dont think i have anymore to say.
so good night and sweet dreams.
Breakthrough
Agnetta.
301106
Monday, October 09, 2006
My presents.
This will be short.
Anut, uncle + uncle: puma handbag[the one you saw me carrying today], burberry perfume, face colours, book, and hmmm =)
Parents:
300 DOLLARS CASH! [I'm really shocked.]
Uncle: 50 bucks.
Grandmother:
[it's her birthday today too. well, chinese one anyway] 60 bucks.
Pan and Jiansheng: A blue bear that subsequently became a tear absorber haha. and a card full of tender loving care.
Winifred and Boon Keat: A christian city churches CD and they sponsered my cake.
Weijie: A pooh puzzle in a file. and a very special, moving and touching dedication.
Thanks to that guy i just knew today. Dont wanna spell your name just in case i get it wrong.
Thanks for yelling fo the church to hear that's it my birthday and to get them to sing me a birthday song. You got a damn loud voice.
I love my sweet sixteen.
Agnetta.
08.10.06
Anut, uncle + uncle: puma handbag[the one you saw me carrying today], burberry perfume, face colours, book, and hmmm =)
Parents:
300 DOLLARS CASH! [I'm really shocked.]
Uncle: 50 bucks.
Grandmother:
[it's her birthday today too. well, chinese one anyway] 60 bucks.
Pan and Jiansheng: A blue bear that subsequently became a tear absorber haha. and a card full of tender loving care.
Winifred and Boon Keat: A christian city churches CD and they sponsered my cake.
Weijie: A pooh puzzle in a file. and a very special, moving and touching dedication.
Thanks to that guy i just knew today. Dont wanna spell your name just in case i get it wrong.
Thanks for yelling fo the church to hear that's it my birthday and to get them to sing me a birthday song. You got a damn loud voice.
I love my sweet sixteen.
Agnetta.
08.10.06
My Special Sweet Sixteen.
08.10.06
I officially turn Sixteen.
At 0000am today,
i received a call from someone i didn't know.
I couldn't recognize that voice and apparently that person was having fun teasing me about who he was.
Later he spilled and unexpectedly turned out to be the very adorable Weikiat.
Hahaz.
Then Flora called.
another unexpected caller.
Called for?
Fun?
NO..
these people called to wish me happy birthday.
Then weijie called.
So our conference was talking about me and my birthdae.
And these 3 sang me HOGC's version of Happie birthdae.
I'm not going to tell you what it is.
It belongs to us only.
hahaz.
So, when i went to church, i was high. God's pressence was in me.
And after survice, i was to be shocked.
i was presented with a cake from Winifred.
I was so surprised and touched.
I nearly cried.
Then this guy that i just knew, don't wanna spell your name just in case i get it wrong. [well, now i know. it's XION! he's korean. =)]
YELLED! "HEY CHURCH! IT;S AGNETTA'S BIRTHDAY TODAY! LET'S SING HER A BIRTHDAY SONG!"
Ok.
And the church sang their verson of Happy birthday as well.
I was so moved.
It was so awesome to have so many people being focused on you.
Hahaz.
I enjoy the limelight once in a while.=)
And Boon Keat gave me a CD, well, it's from a group of them so i don't know who i cant thank them personally, well, THANKS ANYWAY.
And like it's so amazing coz i only know BK for one week, well, actually less than that!!
And then Weijie also gave me a file.
Weird, i know.
But when i opened it up, it was a puzzle.
Oh so sweet.
Pan and Jiansheng gave me a bear.
Hahaz.
And a card full of Tender Loving Care.
Hahaz.
So after my presentation of cake and God's blessings, It was Pan's turn.
Hahahaz
We were having fun and i know.
Now Pan has 4 books to read. Anyone who gave him presents all gave him books.
HAHAZ.
He's still that nerd from school.
Hahaz.
woops.
So after cakes, we went to suntec.
Cause Yangyi and Weikiat and some others were there.
So, i couldn't really see well cause my contacts were giving me problems.
And i fell!!!!!
WALAO.
i overwalked a step.
Anyway,
We went to Pizza Hut for dinner.
We had like one slice of pizza each larz.
hahaz.
Pan didn't wanna order more, coz he said it was too expensive and that they couldn't make me pay so much.
YES, i sponsered dinner.
Then we went to watch some laser thingy at the fountain of Wealth.
Was pretty bored, keep wanting to get out of the water's way.
They just kept me there.
Then i heard a dedication being read.
"TO AGNETTA AND PAN FROM HOGC HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AGNETTA AND PAN. GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO WE."
I was so surprised.
Then came some words flashing on the water front.
To: Agnetta and Pan.
From: HOGC.
Happy birthday. God loves you and so do we. From those who love you dearly.
When the words were announced, i was surprised. When the words came out i was trying to not cry.
Then Weijie and Weikiat turned to smile at me.
I cried.
So i did.
I was so touched.
Well, after that we did go home. haha.
But imagine this.
I'm with HOGC for 5 weeks.
And I've know BF and BFY for 1.5 years.
And no one from the fellowship had the heart to msg HAPPY BIRTHDAY, except jess, perry, ronghan and XQ after i screwed him.
I accepted Christ into my life on 071006.
So on my nick it reads, I'm a christian ask me why.
Everyone literally asked me why.
NO ONE, NOT EVEN XINQIANG WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
some fellowship you are.
We'll be talking more about you.
So yeah.
I know some people for a few weeks, some even one week, like BK.
Seriously BK, thankyou, i didn't expect you to really get me a cake, much less a present.
Weijie, Thanks for getting us to suntec for this dedication.
Well, apparenlty everyone knew about he dedication except me.
Well, that was partially the reason why i cried.
Though we've only been friends for short times, You've been more Friends than those i use to know.
And they could dare to call themselves Friends.
God's pressence and these God sent Friends are True.
Property of Heart Of God Church only.
Well, these are the messages sent to me:
[In chronological order]
Weijie:
Yo. Happy birthday! Haha. Hope you grow 1 more year of happinessgrowth in God and excellence. Enjoy your christian life.
[Yes i will be happy in HOGC, and i will definately enjoy my christian life.]
Flora:
hello gal!I'm sorry didnt talk to you much today! anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY! haha. 16 already! must do well for Os ok? Haha. Happy happy birthday! =D miss you.
[of coz i will do well.]
Pan:
Happy Birthday.
[Happry birthday too Pancake twin.]
Roderick:
Happy birthday. 16 le. can watch nc 16 wif us le wor. ha. u been such an awesome friend and stay cheerful.
[yes, can watch nc 16 le. hahaz]
Joy:
Happy birthday Pan and Agnetta=) Gwen says happy birthday also.
[Lets go to pitstop soon yeah.=)]
Jiansheng:
Happy bd to you =) happy bd to you =) happy bd to agnetta happy bd to you=) ok well i go sleep le.
[Hahaz, please sleep before you fall asleep talking to me again. =)]
Janice:
Happy birthday sweetie.
[babe, your my best friend and i thank you for everything you have done for me.]
Winifred:
Happy birthday agnetta :D
[Thanks for everything babe.=)]
Weefong:
Happy birthday take care and stay sweet forever:)
[i was never under the impression i was sweet:D]
Those were the birthday messages.
And i came home, i sent out a really long message:
Hey guys... Thanks for making my sweet sixteen so memorable... ThoughI've only know you guys for like five weeks... some maybe less... what you have done for me... well... this is a first... :)I'm touched. Really really touched.Special thanks to weikiat... for his idea of dedication...[i later found out that it was weijie's idea to do and also his doing to get us there. THANKS WEIJIE!!] God loves me... Just like you guys... so... i love you too... Thanks for making my sweet sixteen so special. Love you guys... Agnetta.
[long eh.]
Message sent to Weijie, weikiat, boonkeat, pan, christopher, yangyi, shuwah, winifred, flora, jiansheng.
Replies back were:
Yangyi:
Haha. yeah Great to know you!
Jiansheng:
Wow that's really thoughtful. I hope that no matter what problem you're facing now or in the future.You will stand strong in God.
Winifred:
Hey agnetta! your welcome :) Love you too!!
Boon Keat:
=) NP. we can do it all again!!!Haa. We are also grateful tt you willing to spend your 16th with us. As much as God took care of the birds wad more us?His greatest creation. =D Love you. May God give you his blessings in every area in life. Love you =)
Well, guys, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU again and I LOVE YOU!!!
Will there ever be?
TLC needed.
I'm a christian ask me why.
Agnetta.
081006
Our birthday!
I officially turn Sixteen.
At 0000am today,
i received a call from someone i didn't know.
I couldn't recognize that voice and apparently that person was having fun teasing me about who he was.
Later he spilled and unexpectedly turned out to be the very adorable Weikiat.
Hahaz.
Then Flora called.
another unexpected caller.
Called for?
Fun?
NO..
these people called to wish me happy birthday.
Then weijie called.
So our conference was talking about me and my birthdae.
And these 3 sang me HOGC's version of Happie birthdae.
I'm not going to tell you what it is.
It belongs to us only.
hahaz.
So, when i went to church, i was high. God's pressence was in me.
And after survice, i was to be shocked.
i was presented with a cake from Winifred.
I was so surprised and touched.
I nearly cried.
Then this guy that i just knew, don't wanna spell your name just in case i get it wrong. [well, now i know. it's XION! he's korean. =)]
YELLED! "HEY CHURCH! IT;S AGNETTA'S BIRTHDAY TODAY! LET'S SING HER A BIRTHDAY SONG!"
Ok.
And the church sang their verson of Happy birthday as well.
I was so moved.
It was so awesome to have so many people being focused on you.
Hahaz.
I enjoy the limelight once in a while.=)
And Boon Keat gave me a CD, well, it's from a group of them so i don't know who i cant thank them personally, well, THANKS ANYWAY.
And like it's so amazing coz i only know BK for one week, well, actually less than that!!
And then Weijie also gave me a file.
Weird, i know.
But when i opened it up, it was a puzzle.
Oh so sweet.
Pan and Jiansheng gave me a bear.
Hahaz.
And a card full of Tender Loving Care.
Hahaz.
So after my presentation of cake and God's blessings, It was Pan's turn.
Hahahaz
We were having fun and i know.
Now Pan has 4 books to read. Anyone who gave him presents all gave him books.
HAHAZ.
He's still that nerd from school.
Hahaz.
woops.
So after cakes, we went to suntec.
Cause Yangyi and Weikiat and some others were there.
So, i couldn't really see well cause my contacts were giving me problems.
And i fell!!!!!
WALAO.
i overwalked a step.
Anyway,
We went to Pizza Hut for dinner.
We had like one slice of pizza each larz.
hahaz.
Pan didn't wanna order more, coz he said it was too expensive and that they couldn't make me pay so much.
YES, i sponsered dinner.
Then we went to watch some laser thingy at the fountain of Wealth.
Was pretty bored, keep wanting to get out of the water's way.
They just kept me there.
Then i heard a dedication being read.
"TO AGNETTA AND PAN FROM HOGC HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AGNETTA AND PAN. GOD LOVES YOU AND SO DO WE."
I was so surprised.
Then came some words flashing on the water front.
To: Agnetta and Pan.
From: HOGC.
Happy birthday. God loves you and so do we. From those who love you dearly.
When the words were announced, i was surprised. When the words came out i was trying to not cry.
Then Weijie and Weikiat turned to smile at me.
I cried.
So i did.
I was so touched.
Well, after that we did go home. haha.
But imagine this.
I'm with HOGC for 5 weeks.
And I've know BF and BFY for 1.5 years.
And no one from the fellowship had the heart to msg HAPPY BIRTHDAY, except jess, perry, ronghan and XQ after i screwed him.
I accepted Christ into my life on 071006.
So on my nick it reads, I'm a christian ask me why.
Everyone literally asked me why.
NO ONE, NOT EVEN XINQIANG WISHED ME HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
some fellowship you are.
We'll be talking more about you.
So yeah.
I know some people for a few weeks, some even one week, like BK.
Seriously BK, thankyou, i didn't expect you to really get me a cake, much less a present.
Weijie, Thanks for getting us to suntec for this dedication.
Well, apparenlty everyone knew about he dedication except me.
Well, that was partially the reason why i cried.
Though we've only been friends for short times, You've been more Friends than those i use to know.
And they could dare to call themselves Friends.
God's pressence and these God sent Friends are True.
Property of Heart Of God Church only.
Well, these are the messages sent to me:
[In chronological order]
Weijie:
Yo. Happy birthday! Haha. Hope you grow 1 more year of happinessgrowth in God and excellence. Enjoy your christian life.
[Yes i will be happy in HOGC, and i will definately enjoy my christian life.]
Flora:
hello gal!I'm sorry didnt talk to you much today! anw HAPPY BIRTHDAY! haha. 16 already! must do well for Os ok? Haha. Happy happy birthday! =D miss you.
[of coz i will do well.]
Pan:
Happy Birthday.
[Happry birthday too Pancake twin.]
Roderick:
Happy birthday. 16 le. can watch nc 16 wif us le wor. ha. u been such an awesome friend and stay cheerful.
[yes, can watch nc 16 le. hahaz]
Joy:
Happy birthday Pan and Agnetta=) Gwen says happy birthday also.
[Lets go to pitstop soon yeah.=)]
Jiansheng:
Happy bd to you =) happy bd to you =) happy bd to agnetta happy bd to you=) ok well i go sleep le.
[Hahaz, please sleep before you fall asleep talking to me again. =)]
Janice:
Happy birthday sweetie.
[babe, your my best friend and i thank you for everything you have done for me.]
Winifred:
Happy birthday agnetta :D
[Thanks for everything babe.=)]
Weefong:
Happy birthday take care and stay sweet forever:)
[i was never under the impression i was sweet:D]
Those were the birthday messages.
And i came home, i sent out a really long message:
Hey guys... Thanks for making my sweet sixteen so memorable... ThoughI've only know you guys for like five weeks... some maybe less... what you have done for me... well... this is a first... :)I'm touched. Really really touched.Special thanks to weikiat... for his idea of dedication...[i later found out that it was weijie's idea to do and also his doing to get us there. THANKS WEIJIE!!] God loves me... Just like you guys... so... i love you too... Thanks for making my sweet sixteen so special. Love you guys... Agnetta.
[long eh.]
Message sent to Weijie, weikiat, boonkeat, pan, christopher, yangyi, shuwah, winifred, flora, jiansheng.
Replies back were:
Yangyi:
Haha. yeah Great to know you!
Jiansheng:
Wow that's really thoughtful. I hope that no matter what problem you're facing now or in the future.You will stand strong in God.
Winifred:
Hey agnetta! your welcome :) Love you too!!
Boon Keat:
=) NP. we can do it all again!!!Haa. We are also grateful tt you willing to spend your 16th with us. As much as God took care of the birds wad more us?His greatest creation. =D Love you. May God give you his blessings in every area in life. Love you =)
Well, guys, from the bottom of my heart, THANK YOU again and I LOVE YOU!!!
Will there ever be?
TLC needed.
I'm a christian ask me why.
Agnetta.
081006
Our birthday!
Friday, October 06, 2006
Overriding love.
Its i know fact to many that love cannot be overridden.
I use to think that too.
But now, think again.
It can be.
By passion.
Many of those there know that i left Soracco, BF and the BFY because of love and unlove right?
Well, i was suppose to go back to spite, and yet, i turned up to sing.
I still have this barrier that can never be solved between us but,
because of passion, i managed to see past all their shit.
So now, because of this passion of mine, I'm going to end up singing MR moon at Dr maryann tsao's house for the party.
And guess how some of this lyrics go.
Mr moon, should you happen to be in view
of a heart that i once knew
will you wink and let him know.....
That we could too, be as happy as we can be
If we learn to climd a tree
To catch a glimpse of Mr full Moon's glow.
And what if some jackass decides to show up, well, i actually expect him to be there since he's a party dog.
And imagine me singing this in front of him.
I have no queries or qualms singing in front of him anymore.
I'm not going to squrim and refuse my rightful song anymore.
just.
WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS SONG WITH THIS KIND OF LYRICS!!!!!
damnit.
well, there's always hope he wont go.
Haha.
Maybe i'm a little too hopeful.
who cares.
haha.
My unlove has been over ridden by my passion.
I wonder if this kinda passion can get me into worship.?
that may really be too hopeful.
Two more days.
Saint Pot and Pan.
Agnetta.
06.10.06
I use to think that too.
But now, think again.
It can be.
By passion.
Many of those there know that i left Soracco, BF and the BFY because of love and unlove right?
Well, i was suppose to go back to spite, and yet, i turned up to sing.
I still have this barrier that can never be solved between us but,
because of passion, i managed to see past all their shit.
So now, because of this passion of mine, I'm going to end up singing MR moon at Dr maryann tsao's house for the party.
And guess how some of this lyrics go.
Mr moon, should you happen to be in view
of a heart that i once knew
will you wink and let him know.....
That we could too, be as happy as we can be
If we learn to climd a tree
To catch a glimpse of Mr full Moon's glow.
And what if some jackass decides to show up, well, i actually expect him to be there since he's a party dog.
And imagine me singing this in front of him.
I have no queries or qualms singing in front of him anymore.
I'm not going to squrim and refuse my rightful song anymore.
just.
WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE THIS SONG WITH THIS KIND OF LYRICS!!!!!
damnit.
well, there's always hope he wont go.
Haha.
Maybe i'm a little too hopeful.
who cares.
haha.
My unlove has been over ridden by my passion.
I wonder if this kinda passion can get me into worship.?
that may really be too hopeful.
Two more days.
Saint Pot and Pan.
Agnetta.
06.10.06
Life goes on.
It's been close to two weeks since i last posted.
I'm shocked.
haha.
well, there's really nothing much for me to dicuss on this page recently.
well, other than the fact that i've been sick!!
well, sick as in physical and not mentally sick if that's what you're thinking.
So since i skipped school for four days, it gave me a lot of time to think about some things.
Things that concern my well being.
Things that concern the people around me.
Thing that might and will affect my future be it near of far.
Things that make me REALLY THINK HARD.
like whether I'm where i belong.
Nothing really interesting happened actually.
I got back my results, flunked everything as expected.
Celebrated Alton's birthdae with him by taking neo prints and eating eclairs and apple strudel.
Bullied Pan[cake] into telling me and more than likely himself that he can do it for his exams.
Well, it's a psychological effect.
Coz if he tells me he can, he will have to reiterate the message to himself thus, allowing himself to know or believe he can do it. =)
Well, hopefully he can do it.
Fell sick, 28-29.09, 2&4.10.
I dont even know why i bother to go to school.
Academics are seriously draining me.
But this is life then.
The whole life is a lesson.
Yet, there is more to life than just exams.
The rule i will live by, or one of the rules is, Live without regrets.
because once you regret, you start thinking about what happened, what could have happened and what you could have done to allow that to happen or not happen.
So, I'm not regreting the years i spent in secondary school, just think they're a big waste of time.
well, i still do but who cares, it's my last official day of school tomorrow, 6.10.06.
Graduation.
Who cares. I care only about the testimonials i will recieve.
I know i didnt do well for my prelims, and i dont need you to tell me.
So bug off.
For my well being, it'll be linked to the people around me, my well being and where i really truely belong.
I'm sick, many of you guys know that.
I don't know what yet.
But i just hope it's not anything serious.
well, if it is, then let it affect me after my nationals.
It turn it'll affect where i belong.
I know where i belong socially mentally and emotionally.
But not where i'm suppose to belong spiritually.
This is a touchy topic.
so ZIP. and we're not talking about it.
And i still don't kow where i belong physically.
Weijie, i think you know what talking me.
Well, i think i'll just be living life one step at a time.
Starting with my graduation.
And then I'll return to where i use to belong, where people once loved me, just to spite them.
HAHA.
i know.
weird?
I am.
mean?
they started it.
revengeful?
I still cling on to the fact that they use to love me.
After that will be,
my contact lens, my hair, my looks, my attitude, my challenges, my SWEET SIXTEEN!!
Should i be happy?
Well, it's a once in a life time thing so i should be.
Well, only time will tell if i am to be where i am, to do what i'm doing or am supposed to do.
Embrace me and this life i lead and guide me though this painful process.
If you tell me to have courage, then you must have the courage to grab me and go too.
Who's the one worthy and of value?
Two more days.
Pot and Pan.
Agnetta.
05.10.06
I'm shocked.
haha.
well, there's really nothing much for me to dicuss on this page recently.
well, other than the fact that i've been sick!!
well, sick as in physical and not mentally sick if that's what you're thinking.
So since i skipped school for four days, it gave me a lot of time to think about some things.
Things that concern my well being.
Things that concern the people around me.
Thing that might and will affect my future be it near of far.
Things that make me REALLY THINK HARD.
like whether I'm where i belong.
Nothing really interesting happened actually.
I got back my results, flunked everything as expected.
Celebrated Alton's birthdae with him by taking neo prints and eating eclairs and apple strudel.
Bullied Pan[cake] into telling me and more than likely himself that he can do it for his exams.
Well, it's a psychological effect.
Coz if he tells me he can, he will have to reiterate the message to himself thus, allowing himself to know or believe he can do it. =)
Well, hopefully he can do it.
Fell sick, 28-29.09, 2&4.10.
I dont even know why i bother to go to school.
Academics are seriously draining me.
But this is life then.
The whole life is a lesson.
Yet, there is more to life than just exams.
The rule i will live by, or one of the rules is, Live without regrets.
because once you regret, you start thinking about what happened, what could have happened and what you could have done to allow that to happen or not happen.
So, I'm not regreting the years i spent in secondary school, just think they're a big waste of time.
well, i still do but who cares, it's my last official day of school tomorrow, 6.10.06.
Graduation.
Who cares. I care only about the testimonials i will recieve.
I know i didnt do well for my prelims, and i dont need you to tell me.
So bug off.
For my well being, it'll be linked to the people around me, my well being and where i really truely belong.
I'm sick, many of you guys know that.
I don't know what yet.
But i just hope it's not anything serious.
well, if it is, then let it affect me after my nationals.
It turn it'll affect where i belong.
I know where i belong socially mentally and emotionally.
But not where i'm suppose to belong spiritually.
This is a touchy topic.
so ZIP. and we're not talking about it.
And i still don't kow where i belong physically.
Weijie, i think you know what talking me.
Well, i think i'll just be living life one step at a time.
Starting with my graduation.
And then I'll return to where i use to belong, where people once loved me, just to spite them.
HAHA.
i know.
weird?
I am.
mean?
they started it.
revengeful?
I still cling on to the fact that they use to love me.
After that will be,
my contact lens, my hair, my looks, my attitude, my challenges, my SWEET SIXTEEN!!
Should i be happy?
Well, it's a once in a life time thing so i should be.
Well, only time will tell if i am to be where i am, to do what i'm doing or am supposed to do.
Embrace me and this life i lead and guide me though this painful process.
If you tell me to have courage, then you must have the courage to grab me and go too.
Who's the one worthy and of value?
Two more days.
Pot and Pan.
Agnetta.
05.10.06
Saturday, September 23, 2006
Heart Of God Church. [HOGC]
I've been to church for 5 times. and seriously, i never wanted to go back to an organisation that much before.
Even at bf.
Jess, you claim that with 500 people, there's no chance to bond as a Family.
Small and cozy is your defination of BFY.
do you think that smalll and cozy families like BFY backstab each others?
i'd then rather be introveted in HOGC than allow myself to be extroveted and hated in BF.
HOGC.
a house of god, a house where passion comes from the heart and soul.
The people make you feel wanted, and people make you want to go back week after week.
I know that the possibilty of converting me to becoming a christian is less than zero.
So, don't even try guys.
Especially to Weijie, i know what goes on, and what i'm supposed to do.
I am not the small silent "dun wanna interact" CUTE??? girl that you see there.
There is a larger percentage of me that no one, not even Pan has seen.
Pan has most likely viewed a little but not all.
I am not the 16 yr old little girl you see before you.
There is more to me guys.
Thats why i don't want to say a lot of things i usually would have said.
I learn from my mistakes and i can't make the same mistakes again.
That's why i don't say as many thing as i should to you like whether God has spoken to me or not.
I'm not trying to deliberately trying to lie to you and Im sorry if i might have implemented that when you finally find out.
Your guidance might turn to psycho, then to obsession, so view it in a good light that it's for your own good as well eh.
=)
I am different and i mean very different from what you might see me.
I might still be cute.. [-.-"]
but if you know me next time, love me for what i am, as God will love me.
HOGC, i love you guys, and yes, i will go back week after week because i feel an attachment to you, such as like the arm being attached to the body.
So, i hope you won't judge me, or that you will not question what i do and why i do the things i do, and that you will not press me on matters.
When you do see the real me, you will see.
And see with your hearts and not only with your eyes.
Love you guys loads yeah.
Muacks..
08ten90eighty9.
Saint Pot.
Agnetta.
250906.
Even at bf.
Jess, you claim that with 500 people, there's no chance to bond as a Family.
Small and cozy is your defination of BFY.
do you think that smalll and cozy families like BFY backstab each others?
i'd then rather be introveted in HOGC than allow myself to be extroveted and hated in BF.
HOGC.
a house of god, a house where passion comes from the heart and soul.
The people make you feel wanted, and people make you want to go back week after week.
I know that the possibilty of converting me to becoming a christian is less than zero.
So, don't even try guys.
Especially to Weijie, i know what goes on, and what i'm supposed to do.
I am not the small silent "dun wanna interact" CUTE??? girl that you see there.
There is a larger percentage of me that no one, not even Pan has seen.
Pan has most likely viewed a little but not all.
I am not the 16 yr old little girl you see before you.
There is more to me guys.
Thats why i don't want to say a lot of things i usually would have said.
I learn from my mistakes and i can't make the same mistakes again.
That's why i don't say as many thing as i should to you like whether God has spoken to me or not.
I'm not trying to deliberately trying to lie to you and Im sorry if i might have implemented that when you finally find out.
Your guidance might turn to psycho, then to obsession, so view it in a good light that it's for your own good as well eh.
=)
I am different and i mean very different from what you might see me.
I might still be cute.. [-.-"]
but if you know me next time, love me for what i am, as God will love me.
HOGC, i love you guys, and yes, i will go back week after week because i feel an attachment to you, such as like the arm being attached to the body.
So, i hope you won't judge me, or that you will not question what i do and why i do the things i do, and that you will not press me on matters.
When you do see the real me, you will see.
And see with your hearts and not only with your eyes.
Love you guys loads yeah.
Muacks..
08ten90eighty9.
Saint Pot.
Agnetta.
250906.
PRELIMS OVER!!!!!
prelims are finally over.
yes yes yes yes.
but, chem might not be that well done.
chem prac was good though.
phy prac not good.
phy paper was cool.
the rest other than accounts and dnt should be well enough bahz.
but i dont think it'll be well to get me into jc before the results though.
coz i didnt really study much.
i only fear for maths.
haiz.
well, what s done is done.
nothing can be done to change it.
PRELIMS OVER!!!!!
Agnetta.
230906
yes yes yes yes.
but, chem might not be that well done.
chem prac was good though.
phy prac not good.
phy paper was cool.
the rest other than accounts and dnt should be well enough bahz.
but i dont think it'll be well to get me into jc before the results though.
coz i didnt really study much.
i only fear for maths.
haiz.
well, what s done is done.
nothing can be done to change it.
PRELIMS OVER!!!!!
Agnetta.
230906
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
PRELIMS RIGHT IN MY FACE.
Well, I'm pretty unprepared if you can say.
Im like only 65% prepared.
Dunnoe how i'm gonna survive this.
Well, seriously hope i can pull through this.
Really sick man.
Cant get to sleep at night and then end up sleeping in class.
haiz.
Thanks to Weijie, Jiansheng, and Pan for asking me out eh.
Pan, you liar.
you tell me what arhz.
i got alot of different stories from the other two wor.
But thanks for letting me distress though.
And thanks for asking me out eh.
08ten90eighty9
PRELIMS!
Agnetta.
130906.
Im like only 65% prepared.
Dunnoe how i'm gonna survive this.
Well, seriously hope i can pull through this.
Really sick man.
Cant get to sleep at night and then end up sleeping in class.
haiz.
Thanks to Weijie, Jiansheng, and Pan for asking me out eh.
Pan, you liar.
you tell me what arhz.
i got alot of different stories from the other two wor.
But thanks for letting me distress though.
And thanks for asking me out eh.
08ten90eighty9
PRELIMS!
Agnetta.
130906.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
When there was me and you.
Its funny when you find yourself looking from the outside.
im standing here but all i want is to be over there.
why did i let my self believe miracles could happen.
Coz now i have to pretend that i dont really care.
I thought you were my fairy tale, a dream when im not sleeping.
a wish upon a star thats coming true.
but everybody else culd tell that i confuse my feelings with the truth
when there was me and you.
i swore i knew the melody that i heard you singing
and when you smiled you made me feel like i could sing along
but then you went and changed the words now my heart is empty.
im only left with use to bes and once upon a song.
now i know your not a fairy tale and dreams were meant for sleeping.
and wishes upon a star just dont come true.
coz now even i can tell, that i confused my feelings with truth.
coz i liked the view, when there was me and you.
An extract from the song When there was me and you, from high school musical.
I don't need to infer.
It's pretty straight forward.
I don't mean one person in this song.
I mean a group.
Why i left.
I can't believe in that miracle anymore.
08ten90eighty9.
Agnetta.
110906.
im standing here but all i want is to be over there.
why did i let my self believe miracles could happen.
Coz now i have to pretend that i dont really care.
I thought you were my fairy tale, a dream when im not sleeping.
a wish upon a star thats coming true.
but everybody else culd tell that i confuse my feelings with the truth
when there was me and you.
i swore i knew the melody that i heard you singing
and when you smiled you made me feel like i could sing along
but then you went and changed the words now my heart is empty.
im only left with use to bes and once upon a song.
now i know your not a fairy tale and dreams were meant for sleeping.
and wishes upon a star just dont come true.
coz now even i can tell, that i confused my feelings with truth.
coz i liked the view, when there was me and you.
An extract from the song When there was me and you, from high school musical.
I don't need to infer.
It's pretty straight forward.
I don't mean one person in this song.
I mean a group.
Why i left.
I can't believe in that miracle anymore.
08ten90eighty9.
Agnetta.
110906.
School reopens.
First day of school.
Super tired.
Well, my fault, i slept at 4.
But,
Haiz.
Well, there was full attendance.
Surprise, surprise.
But most of us are in school just for the sake of being in school.
Prelims aproaching and many of us are not there yet.
We're still strolling to our destination not realising that so many others are ther already.
Either that or we see and know that they're there already and we couldnt be bothered to catch up.
Well, it's likely the second one.
Well, Good luck to those who are still half way.
You're suppose to be at least 80% there already.
WHERE ARE YOU GUYS!!!???!!!
Abyway, anyone can give tuition?
But help if you can and not help just for the sake of helping.
Agnetta.
08ten90eighty9
110906
Super tired.
Well, my fault, i slept at 4.
But,
Haiz.
Well, there was full attendance.
Surprise, surprise.
But most of us are in school just for the sake of being in school.
Prelims aproaching and many of us are not there yet.
We're still strolling to our destination not realising that so many others are ther already.
Either that or we see and know that they're there already and we couldnt be bothered to catch up.
Well, it's likely the second one.
Well, Good luck to those who are still half way.
You're suppose to be at least 80% there already.
WHERE ARE YOU GUYS!!!???!!!
Abyway, anyone can give tuition?
But help if you can and not help just for the sake of helping.
Agnetta.
08ten90eighty9
110906
Sunday, September 10, 2006
Holidays.
I hate the end of holidays.
It signals the start of another begining.
Who says that all beginings are good?
If it were, i'd be begging to be let to school just like when i was in sec 1.
Well, FYI, i;m no longer in sec 1.
I've progressed 4 years and let's just say,
I HATE SCHOOL.
Well, not that i don't wanna go back to school to see 4e3, they really bring out a bunch of laughs.
just, school in it's entirety.
The students, the people[everyone], the life[or more of no life].
It just pulls your life right off of you.
I can do so much more at home.
Well, though i might not be able to study without teachers or friends, but i can always call others out right.
And i'm sure Pan is able to fork out some time, especially after his exams.
Well, it's let see, an other 4 days to my prelims.
[140906]Thursday:Science pract.
[150906]Friday: English, physics
[180906]Monday: Chinese , Geography.
[190906]Tuesday: maths 1, social studies
[200906]Wednesday: Chem, Sci MCQ, Maths 2.
[210906]Thursday: POA 2, DnT.
[220906]Friday: POA mcq.
[061006]Friday: Graduation.
[071006]Saturday: Study Break Starts.
[081006]Sunday: OUR BIRTHDAY! my sweet 16, his 17.
October is a really hot month for birthdays yeah.
Well, lets see whats gone on since 1st Sept.
010906 fri: Ronghui leaving at 12++ , went to aunts house to sleep.
020907 sat: went to church. heart of god.
030906 sun: dnt dinner at marina bay. [not to self. sotong + beer = NO WAY!]
040906 mon: school, grocery shopping.
050906 tue: mom left. send rytha to workshop, meet pan and jiansheng to study till late.
060906 wed: sick. damnit.
070906 thur: still sick. walao. went to anuts house.
080906 fri: went for tuition, suppose to go out with rit but he couldn't make it coz of his orchestra pract, so went to watch monster house with XQ, then went for dinner with D and her new ahem, John.
090906 sat: MOM'S BACK!!! thats it.
109096 sun: going to church, might go watch the host with rit if he msges me, if not im pulling Pan with me.
Long week.
It's ok. In less than a month, Im home free.
Well, its not the home thing anyway.
It's that i don't have to go to school unless whichever teacher decides to pull us back.
Well, what's the betting that we'll al go back anyway.
Well, As long as Im outta CBS, i might be or should be, hmm more of will study better.
Well, i need the time.
I'm not going to stay for commit anymore this 3 days left.
There is no point anyway.
Tired.
Of, school, home, and bf?
Well, Soracco's starting again.
Well, i think i'll back off already.
No point continuing there any more anyway.
well, music is all i will need now.
Maybe someone to haiz.
Let's not go there already.
Tired.
In memory of Steve Irwin.
Father, husband and crocodile hunter.
Agnetta.
100906.
It signals the start of another begining.
Who says that all beginings are good?
If it were, i'd be begging to be let to school just like when i was in sec 1.
Well, FYI, i;m no longer in sec 1.
I've progressed 4 years and let's just say,
I HATE SCHOOL.
Well, not that i don't wanna go back to school to see 4e3, they really bring out a bunch of laughs.
just, school in it's entirety.
The students, the people[everyone], the life[or more of no life].
It just pulls your life right off of you.
I can do so much more at home.
Well, though i might not be able to study without teachers or friends, but i can always call others out right.
And i'm sure Pan is able to fork out some time, especially after his exams.
Well, it's let see, an other 4 days to my prelims.
[140906]Thursday:Science pract.
[150906]Friday: English, physics
[180906]Monday: Chinese , Geography.
[190906]Tuesday: maths 1, social studies
[200906]Wednesday: Chem, Sci MCQ, Maths 2.
[210906]Thursday: POA 2, DnT.
[220906]Friday: POA mcq.
[061006]Friday: Graduation.
[071006]Saturday: Study Break Starts.
[081006]Sunday: OUR BIRTHDAY! my sweet 16, his 17.
October is a really hot month for birthdays yeah.
Well, lets see whats gone on since 1st Sept.
010906 fri: Ronghui leaving at 12++ , went to aunts house to sleep.
020907 sat: went to church. heart of god.
030906 sun: dnt dinner at marina bay. [not to self. sotong + beer = NO WAY!]
040906 mon: school, grocery shopping.
050906 tue: mom left. send rytha to workshop, meet pan and jiansheng to study till late.
060906 wed: sick. damnit.
070906 thur: still sick. walao. went to anuts house.
080906 fri: went for tuition, suppose to go out with rit but he couldn't make it coz of his orchestra pract, so went to watch monster house with XQ, then went for dinner with D and her new ahem, John.
090906 sat: MOM'S BACK!!! thats it.
109096 sun: going to church, might go watch the host with rit if he msges me, if not im pulling Pan with me.
Long week.
It's ok. In less than a month, Im home free.
Well, its not the home thing anyway.
It's that i don't have to go to school unless whichever teacher decides to pull us back.
Well, what's the betting that we'll al go back anyway.
Well, As long as Im outta CBS, i might be or should be, hmm more of will study better.
Well, i need the time.
I'm not going to stay for commit anymore this 3 days left.
There is no point anyway.
Tired.
Of, school, home, and bf?
Well, Soracco's starting again.
Well, i think i'll back off already.
No point continuing there any more anyway.
well, music is all i will need now.
Maybe someone to haiz.
Let's not go there already.
Tired.
In memory of Steve Irwin.
Father, husband and crocodile hunter.
Agnetta.
100906.
Monday, September 04, 2006
To you out there, Damn you.
You think you care.
You think.
You ASSUME, therefore make an ASS outta U and ME.
Leave me be and let me language lie.
You just care about me using or not using vulgarities in BF or out.
Just to not let me tarnish you "image".
Well, let me go to church and leave you and your image to be.
You should know who you are.
I know why i like Heart of God better than BFY.
Agnetta.
030906.
You think.
You ASSUME, therefore make an ASS outta U and ME.
Leave me be and let me language lie.
You just care about me using or not using vulgarities in BF or out.
Just to not let me tarnish you "image".
Well, let me go to church and leave you and your image to be.
You should know who you are.
I know why i like Heart of God better than BFY.
Agnetta.
030906.
How does being a buddhist equate to not being able, or seemingly weird to go to a church?
So what if i go to church?
And so what if it's a christian church?
It's my calling. [like what XQ will say]
yeah.
I know you have bloody hell alot to say about me going to church.
So bloody Fuck it and just say.
You're trying to be nonchalant about it go " oh its your calling so i'll leave you be"
Don't bullshit.
Being in BFY has caused you to mutate to this bloody asshole you are now.
What's wrong or so weird that i go to a christian church?
Heart of God is cool.
Compared to BFY?
yeah.
its really cool.
Want me to elaborate?
They are passionate about their religion.
Though i don't agree that god is my savior, they do.
And who are you to say what is right and what is wrong?
Who are you to say that as a buddhist i shoudnt go to church?
What are the similarities between BFY and Heart of God.
They write their own songs.
They organise sharing sessions.
They invited people to give talks.
Differences?
Heart of god is PASSIONATE about they songs they sing and when they sing, EVERYBODY SINGS.
and with their heart and soul.
Not due to the fact that they have a band.
If bfy were to have a band, they'd all be fooling around with the instruments or disturbing the musicians.
Communication between pastor and listeners is two ways and i don't mean question and answer sections.
When the pastor flashes someone's face on the screen with his or her name, they rely eg, " hi, sara."
BFY? sometimes, people are not even listening, they talk among themselves.
When people in BFY sing, others are still talking to themselves.
And when the singing is over, they make snide and sarcastic comments.
We all know that it's meant to be a joke, but you never know when this joke may be carried too far and hurt someone.
And one thing i learnt from them is " OTHERS"
Not that i might thrown my lifejacket to someone else who's drowning, but i will share.
Story of the life jackets.
The empress of Ireland sank in 14 mins after colliding with a smaller boat in 1914.
Because this group of 120 christian youths from salvations army were bunked nearer to the exit, many of them managed to get life jackets and escape.
So, in the freezing water, they struggled.
Yet when these youths saw someone alive struggling pass, one of the would take off their lifejacket and throw it to that person so that he or she would survive.
So one survivor had this experience.
He was freezing and knew that he had no chance of surviving th wild sea unless he had support of a lifejacket.
He then saw a young girl around the age of 18 struggling against the strong current to get close enough to him.
And when he did, she took off the lifejacket and threw it to him.
So he thought to himself, " she's son young. she deserves to live longer than i do."
This man was roungly late thirtyish to early fortyish.
So he threw it back to her.
And she was furious.
She threw it back to him and said, "You take it."
He said, " I don't want it"
She shouted back, " take it. I'll die better than you."
I know many of my fellow youths would not agree to this as it contradicts the Love myself before i can love others.
But how many of you actually love others after loving your own self?
They believe that god is their savior.
I believe that they are their own saviors.
When you bring someone to church to be converted, to be able to feel god in you, Its more of finding yourself.
Pan, Thanks alot for giving me that chance to experience something so different.
So soul searching and intriguing.
XQ, if you've got bloody fuck to say, then just say it.
Check it out for yourself.
Heart of God church.
You BFYouths should go there and see why they are able to have 500 ACTIVE members while we have"300" members with 40 active.
Ever though about that LACKING sense of PASSION?
The Heart of God experience is indescribable.
Experience it yourself.
Agnetta.
030906
And so what if it's a christian church?
It's my calling. [like what XQ will say]
yeah.
I know you have bloody hell alot to say about me going to church.
So bloody Fuck it and just say.
You're trying to be nonchalant about it go " oh its your calling so i'll leave you be"
Don't bullshit.
Being in BFY has caused you to mutate to this bloody asshole you are now.
What's wrong or so weird that i go to a christian church?
Heart of God is cool.
Compared to BFY?
yeah.
its really cool.
Want me to elaborate?
They are passionate about their religion.
Though i don't agree that god is my savior, they do.
And who are you to say what is right and what is wrong?
Who are you to say that as a buddhist i shoudnt go to church?
What are the similarities between BFY and Heart of God.
They write their own songs.
They organise sharing sessions.
They invited people to give talks.
Differences?
Heart of god is PASSIONATE about they songs they sing and when they sing, EVERYBODY SINGS.
and with their heart and soul.
Not due to the fact that they have a band.
If bfy were to have a band, they'd all be fooling around with the instruments or disturbing the musicians.
Communication between pastor and listeners is two ways and i don't mean question and answer sections.
When the pastor flashes someone's face on the screen with his or her name, they rely eg, " hi, sara."
BFY? sometimes, people are not even listening, they talk among themselves.
When people in BFY sing, others are still talking to themselves.
And when the singing is over, they make snide and sarcastic comments.
We all know that it's meant to be a joke, but you never know when this joke may be carried too far and hurt someone.
And one thing i learnt from them is " OTHERS"
Not that i might thrown my lifejacket to someone else who's drowning, but i will share.
Story of the life jackets.
The empress of Ireland sank in 14 mins after colliding with a smaller boat in 1914.
Because this group of 120 christian youths from salvations army were bunked nearer to the exit, many of them managed to get life jackets and escape.
So, in the freezing water, they struggled.
Yet when these youths saw someone alive struggling pass, one of the would take off their lifejacket and throw it to that person so that he or she would survive.
So one survivor had this experience.
He was freezing and knew that he had no chance of surviving th wild sea unless he had support of a lifejacket.
He then saw a young girl around the age of 18 struggling against the strong current to get close enough to him.
And when he did, she took off the lifejacket and threw it to him.
So he thought to himself, " she's son young. she deserves to live longer than i do."
This man was roungly late thirtyish to early fortyish.
So he threw it back to her.
And she was furious.
She threw it back to him and said, "You take it."
He said, " I don't want it"
She shouted back, " take it. I'll die better than you."
I know many of my fellow youths would not agree to this as it contradicts the Love myself before i can love others.
But how many of you actually love others after loving your own self?
They believe that god is their savior.
I believe that they are their own saviors.
When you bring someone to church to be converted, to be able to feel god in you, Its more of finding yourself.
Pan, Thanks alot for giving me that chance to experience something so different.
So soul searching and intriguing.
XQ, if you've got bloody fuck to say, then just say it.
Check it out for yourself.
Heart of God church.
You BFYouths should go there and see why they are able to have 500 ACTIVE members while we have"300" members with 40 active.
Ever though about that LACKING sense of PASSION?
The Heart of God experience is indescribable.
Experience it yourself.
Agnetta.
030906
Sunday, September 03, 2006
It's been a long week.
Monday: Went to school, mr Wong give lecture during assembly coz of BHS incident. Then went home during recess coz fell sick. WTH. go see chinese doctor at EU YANG SANG some more. Yuckie medicine.
Tuesday: went to school as per normal, chiong artefact till like 5? reach home at 6+ 7. chiog folio till 530 am. cannot tahan sleep.
Wednesday: chiong folio till 5 + then haiz give up larz. [ mr mak gave up his teacher's high tea for us to finish coz he say his students works more imopt. a round of applause for him please.( clap clap)]
Thursday: Teacher day celebration. Then went out with pam and fong for lunch. Then went to SI only to appear crying on mational tv. Damnit. Went to Jude's place to welcome him home. till like almost 1.
Friday: went for tuition, went to bf, went to send Ronghui off. was there from 2230 till 0115.
Saturday: was at yiyi's place for the night then went for lunch with her then rush to meet Pan at PS to go to church-.-?[will elaborate later], then went home..
Sunday: Suppose to go to church again but was stuck at home due to some problems. damn i should have gone. then later went to have dinner at Marin bay, drink with them, nothing much larz. Then went to play car racing.
Now, time to sleep?
Haiz.
tml got school.
argh.
damnit.
8 AM!!!!!!!
tired.
Agnetta.
030906
Tuesday: went to school as per normal, chiong artefact till like 5? reach home at 6+ 7. chiog folio till 530 am. cannot tahan sleep.
Wednesday: chiong folio till 5 + then haiz give up larz. [ mr mak gave up his teacher's high tea for us to finish coz he say his students works more imopt. a round of applause for him please.( clap clap)]
Thursday: Teacher day celebration. Then went out with pam and fong for lunch. Then went to SI only to appear crying on mational tv. Damnit. Went to Jude's place to welcome him home. till like almost 1.
Friday: went for tuition, went to bf, went to send Ronghui off. was there from 2230 till 0115.
Saturday: was at yiyi's place for the night then went for lunch with her then rush to meet Pan at PS to go to church-.-?[will elaborate later], then went home..
Sunday: Suppose to go to church again but was stuck at home due to some problems. damn i should have gone. then later went to have dinner at Marin bay, drink with them, nothing much larz. Then went to play car racing.
Now, time to sleep?
Haiz.
tml got school.
argh.
damnit.
8 AM!!!!!!!
tired.
Agnetta.
030906
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
Care or Don't care?
The more commonly asked question is "How should i care?"
Anyone bothered to ask "To care or not to care?"
I know.
We're all humans and its our nature to care.
For what? Anything..
For who? Anyone.
When? Anytime.
Where? Anywhere needed.
Why? Just to care.
How?[bingo] Answer this question yourself, coz if you care for a person then only you'd know how.
Many many many case senarios. [so as to prevent further rumours, late night nothing to do gossips and problems affecting friendship, Names will be changed.]
No1.
Mother hen, MH for short,is well liked, well received and loved by many if not all who know her. So one day, one chick of hers landed somewhere for some reason. MH got worried and rushed down to see her chick the following day. She nagged at the poor chick on why she did the things she did and what consequences it would bear.This chick knows that what MH is saying is her way of showing concern, but what she feels that MH is not treating her as a chick needing her own independence.
What happens next, no one knows for sure other than MH herself. Rumours were that MH was complaining that caring for this chick was causing her tension and stress.
So should MH care or don't care?
No2.
Christopher is a holds a hig position, popular, smart and cares for many. So when Janice starts failing her classes, she turns to Chris for help. Being the kind and generous soul he is, he agrees to help her. They meet somewher near town to study her core subjects, maths and science. What was unexpected was that he was not sure of the subjects himself. [not his fault, understandable for the fact that he has not been in school since long.] So not long after, they parted. A couple of weeks later, Jan calls up another friend, Ben for help. When they met, she found out that Chris was also there. Wow, two for the price of one. Ben, however, did not help much as he claimed that he was in no mood to think. Chris decided to give it a shot,[nagged more than teach] and left her frustrated and pissed with one sentence in her mind, "There is only so much we can do." She apparently is not stupid to that extent.
Jan doesn't like to be nagged at, and she knows that chris is not doing a very good job.
Is Chris caring or not caring? Should he care or don't care, since she is hardly in a position to accept the teachings he is trying to radiate?
If you know who you are, well then, so be it.
I couldn't care anymore.
Why?
Pissed, and totally Fucked up is telling her why.
300806.
Deadline for the DNT artefact and portfolio.
290806.
What is dear Miss Agnetta Lew doing?
Trying to "chiong" for this deadline.
Only to find out when she reaches home that she doesn't have enought materials to finish what is expected.
She grabs her wallet, Phone and Ipod, ready to leave the house to go to the nearest mall to get what is needed.
ONE bloody block of A3 DRAWING PAPER.
stopped by her mom, she is now short of materials to finish her work, due tomorrow.
She is expecting a A2 or at least a B3 for the work that she has put in.
Without enough materials, she is forced to give up some factors.
Points to be taken into consideration.
What if her grade slips?
What if she doesn't even make it?
What if she breaks down and has hyper tension?[I'm not saying that it hasn't happened before, and therefore bringing it up.]
The ironic thing is that if she were to ask for a Car for her 21st birthday, or a one year trip around the world, she'd get it.
The irony.
Not the affordability.
But it seems weird and definately ironic don't you think?
Car - yes.
Tour - Yes.
One nlock of drawing paper, a3 size, - NO.
If it were you would you think it stupid?
Miss Lew is not a Study fan, nor a chiongster.
Her parents common sprout these words, "Study hard k." or " Put in more effort larz."
So when she is finally studying, and putting in A FREAKING LOAD OF EFFORT, what she needs most is one thing she can't get.
The problem is, this is not the first time this has happened.
More like the 3rd or 4th time already.
Is this a major big sign telling her DON'T STUDY!
Or is she suppose to go through this "What i need i cant get" period alone with hypocrites, backstabbers and plentiful feinds?
Not to mention, people tell people things. yet informations never seems to arrive at Miss Lew's dorrsteps.
Yet, she is expected to know who is having a party when, when this is happening or what so ever.
She does not have equipment sprouting out of her head receiving informations from every where.
She is a human.
Flesh Bone and Blood.
Never assume she is a robot, or radio.
Friends or Feinds.
To care Or not to care?
Miss Lew, finally turning chiongster only to find all odds against her?
To give up on DNT and Accounts?
Or to pray and chiong when odds are still against her?
Pray for her, Good luck to her, and help her through this tough period by standing by her.
Who has done that?
August.
4E3.
Janice.
Weefong.
Pan.[for being blur and making her laugh in the most desperate times]
Jasper.[a bit strayed now though]
Wani.[for naggin in a more subtle way]
Mr Wong.[for screwing us occasionally in class]
Thanks. Couldn't have done without some of your re-wiring.
Care or not.
Friends or feinds.
Thanks or no thanks.
Agnetta.
290806
PS. only actually finished this 300806 1204 am.
PPS. gotta stay up to chiong even though odds are against her.
PPPS. pray for her safe deliverance tomorrow, and that she wont fall even sicker than she is now.
Anyone bothered to ask "To care or not to care?"
I know.
We're all humans and its our nature to care.
For what? Anything..
For who? Anyone.
When? Anytime.
Where? Anywhere needed.
Why? Just to care.
How?[bingo] Answer this question yourself, coz if you care for a person then only you'd know how.
Many many many case senarios. [so as to prevent further rumours, late night nothing to do gossips and problems affecting friendship, Names will be changed.]
No1.
Mother hen, MH for short,is well liked, well received and loved by many if not all who know her. So one day, one chick of hers landed somewhere for some reason. MH got worried and rushed down to see her chick the following day. She nagged at the poor chick on why she did the things she did and what consequences it would bear.This chick knows that what MH is saying is her way of showing concern, but what she feels that MH is not treating her as a chick needing her own independence.
What happens next, no one knows for sure other than MH herself. Rumours were that MH was complaining that caring for this chick was causing her tension and stress.
So should MH care or don't care?
No2.
Christopher is a holds a hig position, popular, smart and cares for many. So when Janice starts failing her classes, she turns to Chris for help. Being the kind and generous soul he is, he agrees to help her. They meet somewher near town to study her core subjects, maths and science. What was unexpected was that he was not sure of the subjects himself. [not his fault, understandable for the fact that he has not been in school since long.] So not long after, they parted. A couple of weeks later, Jan calls up another friend, Ben for help. When they met, she found out that Chris was also there. Wow, two for the price of one. Ben, however, did not help much as he claimed that he was in no mood to think. Chris decided to give it a shot,[nagged more than teach] and left her frustrated and pissed with one sentence in her mind, "There is only so much we can do." She apparently is not stupid to that extent.
Jan doesn't like to be nagged at, and she knows that chris is not doing a very good job.
Is Chris caring or not caring? Should he care or don't care, since she is hardly in a position to accept the teachings he is trying to radiate?
If you know who you are, well then, so be it.
I couldn't care anymore.
Why?
Pissed, and totally Fucked up is telling her why.
300806.
Deadline for the DNT artefact and portfolio.
290806.
What is dear Miss Agnetta Lew doing?
Trying to "chiong" for this deadline.
Only to find out when she reaches home that she doesn't have enought materials to finish what is expected.
She grabs her wallet, Phone and Ipod, ready to leave the house to go to the nearest mall to get what is needed.
ONE bloody block of A3 DRAWING PAPER.
stopped by her mom, she is now short of materials to finish her work, due tomorrow.
She is expecting a A2 or at least a B3 for the work that she has put in.
Without enough materials, she is forced to give up some factors.
Points to be taken into consideration.
What if her grade slips?
What if she doesn't even make it?
What if she breaks down and has hyper tension?[I'm not saying that it hasn't happened before, and therefore bringing it up.]
The ironic thing is that if she were to ask for a Car for her 21st birthday, or a one year trip around the world, she'd get it.
The irony.
Not the affordability.
But it seems weird and definately ironic don't you think?
Car - yes.
Tour - Yes.
One nlock of drawing paper, a3 size, - NO.
If it were you would you think it stupid?
Miss Lew is not a Study fan, nor a chiongster.
Her parents common sprout these words, "Study hard k." or " Put in more effort larz."
So when she is finally studying, and putting in A FREAKING LOAD OF EFFORT, what she needs most is one thing she can't get.
The problem is, this is not the first time this has happened.
More like the 3rd or 4th time already.
Is this a major big sign telling her DON'T STUDY!
Or is she suppose to go through this "What i need i cant get" period alone with hypocrites, backstabbers and plentiful feinds?
Not to mention, people tell people things. yet informations never seems to arrive at Miss Lew's dorrsteps.
Yet, she is expected to know who is having a party when, when this is happening or what so ever.
She does not have equipment sprouting out of her head receiving informations from every where.
She is a human.
Flesh Bone and Blood.
Never assume she is a robot, or radio.
Friends or Feinds.
To care Or not to care?
Miss Lew, finally turning chiongster only to find all odds against her?
To give up on DNT and Accounts?
Or to pray and chiong when odds are still against her?
Pray for her, Good luck to her, and help her through this tough period by standing by her.
Who has done that?
August.
4E3.
Janice.
Weefong.
Pan.[for being blur and making her laugh in the most desperate times]
Jasper.[a bit strayed now though]
Wani.[for naggin in a more subtle way]
Mr Wong.[for screwing us occasionally in class]
Thanks. Couldn't have done without some of your re-wiring.
Care or not.
Friends or feinds.
Thanks or no thanks.
Agnetta.
290806
PS. only actually finished this 300806 1204 am.
PPS. gotta stay up to chiong even though odds are against her.
PPPS. pray for her safe deliverance tomorrow, and that she wont fall even sicker than she is now.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
4E3 United as one. Anneh Rox
For a realy late entry. My com crashed when i did this and i didn't realise i saved it in the other blog already.
4e3 united as one.
Never knew 3e3 and the previous 4e3 could turn out to so united judgin from the previous experiences we had with each other.
We fought over minor issues.
We snided and sarcasted our way over each others attitudes and problems.
Now look where we are.
All thanks to floorball. Haha.
The most obvious bondings.
020806 - Photo taking.
We stood in the foyer smiling for the formal shot.
Then dashed all over the place to strike some sweet, ridiculous but at the same time memorable shots.
Then, We had to go back to class to pick up our books to go for class.
What did we end up doing?
Taking our own types of photos in class.
then Amanda went up to FNN. and got the rest of the FNN class screwed.
So. with 15 mins left, we went to our seperate classes.
Then we went to DNT and decided to take pfotos with MR mak.
Thought in doubt if he was going to confiscate any phones though.
So, saying the right things at then right time helps.
The guys took photo with Mr Mak first, climbing all over each other.
Then me and Weiting took. Mr mak then say, " aiya gerls. cannot touch." hahaz.
So now our pic ended with a gap within all three of us.
haha.
Then, haiz. they wanna outcast amanda and anna coz they paoto.
Haiz.
050806 - A very special walk ( many paths one goal.), 4e3 Class outing to Escape theme park.
We met at the bus stop opposite 7-11 at 0630 in the morning.
And i woke up at 0610.
Sheesh.
Thank god my uncle was here. and he sent me there.
Then wait for Jiapei who said to be there at 0630 and he himelf was late.
Then wait for Sock Hoon who said that she will not be late and the last one there,which she ended up being oso. hahaz.
So we took the 88 bus. wanted to sit on top, then realised that NO SPACE.
So thankfully only 3 of us went up, me suhaili and jiapei.
So we climber back down again.
Then by the time we reached Hougang area we all got seats.
WooHoo.
hahaz.
Then when we reached the interchange, wanted to walk otu before we realised we were lost.
Sheesh.
so when some of us went to top up our cards at the mrt, We saw a sign.
A VERY SPECIAL WALK - FREE SHUTTLE.
so called the rest of the class there and the whole class took the bus together. hahaz.
except the cheerleaders who were there already.
Then walk a whole loop, back to the amphitheatre to listen to the band, watch 5 scouts from raffles dance,( so farny sia), and watch the cheerleading.
Then wait wait wait, then. WOO. we left for ESCAPE!
took 358, the realised that it didnt travel the way we wanted, and realised that we should have taken 354. sheesh.
we walked to escape and realised that this group of CBS students were there. stupid assholes larz. dun wanna elaborate.
out day is not about them.
We went it at like 1115.
play.
play.
play.
We went into the haunted house and me, vino and lavanya screamed like hell while clinging on to wancong like hell.
Then we went to sit viking till we were liable to throw up.
Then came the Wet and wild.
I was half wet and Mdm Cho who was behind me, was soaked. hahaz.
Then we went around all over playing all the rides.
And we were screaming. For fun. stuid rite.
haha.
Then we all didnt have childhood one.
so all queue up to bumper boat with spray.
hahaz.
so six of us inside the pool with the rest of the class outside spraying us from inside.
Mdm cho, Jacky, Situ, Julius, Me and Jovin inside and the rest outside.
No winners No losers but at least majority of us were wet.
haha.
we just hugged those who were dry and made them wet too!
haha.
Then Some of then had to go.
Haiz.
so it was Bye.
for some.
Then we went back to chiong again.
hahaz.
Me, Wancong, Jiapei, Julius, Geraldine, Sockhoon and Jian bin went to Racae go carts.
hahaz.
sheesh. and ask me if i can drive.
wth.
thankfully they didnt realise we were wet and most likely wetted the seats as well.
HAHA.
and then after that it started raining!
ARGH!
SO, all RUN ARH.
went back to the lockers and changed, and left to go for dinner at costa sands.
Then took bus to interchange again where we split up.
Walao, Jiapei never send Jovin home sia.
The rest took 88 while i took cab home.
and that is how 4e3 spent their first united as one outing.
4E3.
united as one.
Anneh Rocks.
We rocks.
Agnetta.
050806
4e3 united as one.
Never knew 3e3 and the previous 4e3 could turn out to so united judgin from the previous experiences we had with each other.
We fought over minor issues.
We snided and sarcasted our way over each others attitudes and problems.
Now look where we are.
All thanks to floorball. Haha.
The most obvious bondings.
020806 - Photo taking.
We stood in the foyer smiling for the formal shot.
Then dashed all over the place to strike some sweet, ridiculous but at the same time memorable shots.
Then, We had to go back to class to pick up our books to go for class.
What did we end up doing?
Taking our own types of photos in class.
then Amanda went up to FNN. and got the rest of the FNN class screwed.
So. with 15 mins left, we went to our seperate classes.
Then we went to DNT and decided to take pfotos with MR mak.
Thought in doubt if he was going to confiscate any phones though.
So, saying the right things at then right time helps.
The guys took photo with Mr Mak first, climbing all over each other.
Then me and Weiting took. Mr mak then say, " aiya gerls. cannot touch." hahaz.
So now our pic ended with a gap within all three of us.
haha.
Then, haiz. they wanna outcast amanda and anna coz they paoto.
Haiz.
050806 - A very special walk ( many paths one goal.), 4e3 Class outing to Escape theme park.
We met at the bus stop opposite 7-11 at 0630 in the morning.
And i woke up at 0610.
Sheesh.
Thank god my uncle was here. and he sent me there.
Then wait for Jiapei who said to be there at 0630 and he himelf was late.
Then wait for Sock Hoon who said that she will not be late and the last one there,which she ended up being oso. hahaz.
So we took the 88 bus. wanted to sit on top, then realised that NO SPACE.
So thankfully only 3 of us went up, me suhaili and jiapei.
So we climber back down again.
Then by the time we reached Hougang area we all got seats.
WooHoo.
hahaz.
Then when we reached the interchange, wanted to walk otu before we realised we were lost.
Sheesh.
so when some of us went to top up our cards at the mrt, We saw a sign.
A VERY SPECIAL WALK - FREE SHUTTLE.
so called the rest of the class there and the whole class took the bus together. hahaz.
except the cheerleaders who were there already.
Then walk a whole loop, back to the amphitheatre to listen to the band, watch 5 scouts from raffles dance,( so farny sia), and watch the cheerleading.
Then wait wait wait, then. WOO. we left for ESCAPE!
took 358, the realised that it didnt travel the way we wanted, and realised that we should have taken 354. sheesh.
we walked to escape and realised that this group of CBS students were there. stupid assholes larz. dun wanna elaborate.
out day is not about them.
We went it at like 1115.
play.
play.
play.
We went into the haunted house and me, vino and lavanya screamed like hell while clinging on to wancong like hell.
Then we went to sit viking till we were liable to throw up.
Then came the Wet and wild.
I was half wet and Mdm Cho who was behind me, was soaked. hahaz.
Then we went around all over playing all the rides.
And we were screaming. For fun. stuid rite.
haha.
Then we all didnt have childhood one.
so all queue up to bumper boat with spray.
hahaz.
so six of us inside the pool with the rest of the class outside spraying us from inside.
Mdm cho, Jacky, Situ, Julius, Me and Jovin inside and the rest outside.
No winners No losers but at least majority of us were wet.
haha.
we just hugged those who were dry and made them wet too!
haha.
Then Some of then had to go.
Haiz.
so it was Bye.
for some.
Then we went back to chiong again.
hahaz.
Me, Wancong, Jiapei, Julius, Geraldine, Sockhoon and Jian bin went to Racae go carts.
hahaz.
sheesh. and ask me if i can drive.
wth.
thankfully they didnt realise we were wet and most likely wetted the seats as well.
HAHA.
and then after that it started raining!
ARGH!
SO, all RUN ARH.
went back to the lockers and changed, and left to go for dinner at costa sands.
Then took bus to interchange again where we split up.
Walao, Jiapei never send Jovin home sia.
The rest took 88 while i took cab home.
and that is how 4e3 spent their first united as one outing.
4E3.
united as one.
Anneh Rocks.
We rocks.
Agnetta.
050806
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
Hmmm. Familar
you know who you are, so i ain't gonna reveal names here. i know that you are in love now and all, but don't think that you are kinda aiming too high at this point in your life? i mean, someone who is around your age is fine, but someone who is #-## years your senior?? that is utterly absurd. think about it. do you think there will be any possibility for that person to actually like you? i do know that you are really mature for your age, but he ain't gonna hook man. don't have too high an expectation. really. it will only hurt in the end. i know that i am being a naggy ass here, but well, it's my two cents worth. it's really as they say: a toad trying to eat a swan. practically impossible.
Extract taken from invoking thoughts.
Why do i have this feeling the person who posted this entry seem to be talking about me?
You know who you are.
Familar eh.
Agnetta
220806
Extract taken from invoking thoughts.
Why do i have this feeling the person who posted this entry seem to be talking about me?
You know who you are.
Familar eh.
Agnetta
220806
Friday, August 18, 2006
Thanks but no thanks.
Thanks for the time to come and tutor me.
I really appreciate you guys for that.
But i could have done without much of that lecture esp Wenjie's :There is only so much we can do.
I know and I'm not stupid so for god damned sake don't think i am.
I am trying, you don't believe it?
Well, there is just so much i can do to convince you.
The ultimate desicion in believeing is up to you.
And i seriously was having a bloody damned headache that day k.
Got screwed in classs by jackass teachers.
Had my oral with no hopes of getting a distinction.
Had to go all the way down to HARBOUR FRONT! just to get nagged by you guys.
I'm not sayig I'm unappreciative or what.
But sometimes you guys have to think too man.
You want me to study, then make me go so far away.
Doesn't travelling take time.
Coming and going from HF.
And fyi, just to rush to meet you guys coz someone said that travelling to HF doesnt take very long, i took a cab down instead.
And by the time we left was like at 6.
It takes me more than an hour to reach home k.
So i dunnoe if i did a smart or stupid thing by taking a cab home.
Damn.
Cab here Cab there.
You guys burn a hole in my pocket just to get to HF to meet you.
Well, whichever, whatever.
And i also know why me and Jill are like soulmates.
Like literally.
Some history.
Me and Jill met at Buddhist Fellowship 031105.
She was with her cousin Wong Yang.
One super handsome boy [I'm calling him boy coz he's younger than me!].
So the three of us were talking like mad, when we were suppose to be meditating.
Woots.
So yeah.
Sparks just flew between us.
Till now.
Woohoo.
So, i went with her and Drace to Singapore Idol on thurs, well, thats another matter.
Jill and i click is because we're very nonchalant about one thing.
Our language.
And i don't mean English.
August is also another one whose friendship i have cherished. appreciated and enjoyed till this day.[ still an ongoing friendship.]
I tell him so much, an he can still be unjudgemental.
Why?
He's not a youth.[BFY]
August.
Thanks for everything, esp those ridiculously late night talks.
Next on list will be Pan.
Not frying pan or whatever you think pan.
He is Pan lim boon tat.
My favourite boy from Innova.
Why?
Coz HE SHARES THE SAME BIRTHDAE AS ME!!!
hahaz.
oct eight 90,89.
woohoo.
moreover, Pan's real sweet.
hahaz.
and really innocent.
hehe.
Next will be Rit.
Sheesh jill get over it man.
Like I'm not as ass to go tell him :hey i want you to be my guy.
Sheesh Jill I'm not you.
I will not do it even if you dare me.
Anyway.
Rit has got this SUPER CHARMING SMILE.!
walao uncle.
your smile in the magazine damn fake larz.
the last page one is so much better shows your dimples.
:)
everytime i see his smile i start laughing.
Don't ever ask me why coz i dunnoe too.
hahaz.
Anyway.
Just wanna thanks the friends who've stuck by me so long.
Especially Xinqiang.
We both know that you don't like me.
But i will be in a special void in your heart different from others.
Just like you're in mine.
And also to Ronghan.
Thanks for everything bro.
So about my week.
Monday.
English mock till late.
Tuesday.
Oral and met ronghui wenjie jessica and yanyan at HF. to "study"
Wednesday.
Social studies mock.
Thursday.
Chemistry mock. home - AMK central - SI - Bishan for dinner - home.
Friday.
DNT mock.
How freaking tired i am, now you know.
And sat & sun?
Leadership and maagement seminar.
Then dance dance dance coz of our performance with the prime minister on sat, 26th.
And i will join the dance floor.
I know i can and will be able to manage my affairs as long as I'm out of BF.
So you guys are liable not to see me there for long.
Love all those loving, and that will include myself.
Anyone interested to go support Rit this sunday?
Agnetta.
180806.
I really appreciate you guys for that.
But i could have done without much of that lecture esp Wenjie's :There is only so much we can do.
I know and I'm not stupid so for god damned sake don't think i am.
I am trying, you don't believe it?
Well, there is just so much i can do to convince you.
The ultimate desicion in believeing is up to you.
And i seriously was having a bloody damned headache that day k.
Got screwed in classs by jackass teachers.
Had my oral with no hopes of getting a distinction.
Had to go all the way down to HARBOUR FRONT! just to get nagged by you guys.
I'm not sayig I'm unappreciative or what.
But sometimes you guys have to think too man.
You want me to study, then make me go so far away.
Doesn't travelling take time.
Coming and going from HF.
And fyi, just to rush to meet you guys coz someone said that travelling to HF doesnt take very long, i took a cab down instead.
And by the time we left was like at 6.
It takes me more than an hour to reach home k.
So i dunnoe if i did a smart or stupid thing by taking a cab home.
Damn.
Cab here Cab there.
You guys burn a hole in my pocket just to get to HF to meet you.
Well, whichever, whatever.
And i also know why me and Jill are like soulmates.
Like literally.
Some history.
Me and Jill met at Buddhist Fellowship 031105.
She was with her cousin Wong Yang.
One super handsome boy [I'm calling him boy coz he's younger than me!].
So the three of us were talking like mad, when we were suppose to be meditating.
Woots.
So yeah.
Sparks just flew between us.
Till now.
Woohoo.
So, i went with her and Drace to Singapore Idol on thurs, well, thats another matter.
Jill and i click is because we're very nonchalant about one thing.
Our language.
And i don't mean English.
August is also another one whose friendship i have cherished. appreciated and enjoyed till this day.[ still an ongoing friendship.]
I tell him so much, an he can still be unjudgemental.
Why?
He's not a youth.[BFY]
August.
Thanks for everything, esp those ridiculously late night talks.
Next on list will be Pan.
Not frying pan or whatever you think pan.
He is Pan lim boon tat.
My favourite boy from Innova.
Why?
Coz HE SHARES THE SAME BIRTHDAE AS ME!!!
hahaz.
oct eight 90,89.
woohoo.
moreover, Pan's real sweet.
hahaz.
and really innocent.
hehe.
Next will be Rit.
Sheesh jill get over it man.
Like I'm not as ass to go tell him :hey i want you to be my guy.
Sheesh Jill I'm not you.
I will not do it even if you dare me.
Anyway.
Rit has got this SUPER CHARMING SMILE.!
walao uncle.
your smile in the magazine damn fake larz.
the last page one is so much better shows your dimples.
:)
everytime i see his smile i start laughing.
Don't ever ask me why coz i dunnoe too.
hahaz.
Anyway.
Just wanna thanks the friends who've stuck by me so long.
Especially Xinqiang.
We both know that you don't like me.
But i will be in a special void in your heart different from others.
Just like you're in mine.
And also to Ronghan.
Thanks for everything bro.
So about my week.
Monday.
English mock till late.
Tuesday.
Oral and met ronghui wenjie jessica and yanyan at HF. to "study"
Wednesday.
Social studies mock.
Thursday.
Chemistry mock. home - AMK central - SI - Bishan for dinner - home.
Friday.
DNT mock.
How freaking tired i am, now you know.
And sat & sun?
Leadership and maagement seminar.
Then dance dance dance coz of our performance with the prime minister on sat, 26th.
And i will join the dance floor.
I know i can and will be able to manage my affairs as long as I'm out of BF.
So you guys are liable not to see me there for long.
Love all those loving, and that will include myself.
Anyone interested to go support Rit this sunday?
Agnetta.
180806.
Sunday, August 13, 2006
And i thought i was ready to let go.
And there i thought i was able to let go already.
Well, I guess I'm not ready then.
Stepping out of the lift gave such a feeling of welcome.
And stepping into the hall gave what?
FLASH BACKS!
MEMORIES!
Damn.
and i was supposed to be so over it.
Nvm. Was supposed to be there for mitra.
Never heard anything though.
All i ended up doing was pasting pricetag stickers on like a few hundred books for D. and sister tuisita.
And well, guess what.
I found more calm and peace pasting stickers that listening to dhamma.
Fine i shoud go around sticking more pricetags.
Then when everything was done and i finally got tired of waiting for D. i decided to leave for Ronghui's place.
He was celebrating his farewell as well as forwarded birthday since he will be in china then.
And i was suppose to be there to celebrate my "victory" over my chinese exam.
Like whichever jackass even cared.
Wel, at least enjoyed myself by getting disturbed by Ann Hao and disturbing him back.
hahaz.
Walao.
He unfaithful lorz.
I feed him cake majiam he send 3 other girls home never send me home lorz.
hahaz.
no la.
well, at least i didnt reach home that late anyway.
not that i can or wanna bother about this kinda timings anymore.
Haiz.
Ronghui's leaving.
Who's going to teach me chemistry!?!
ARGH!
help.
Really dun wanna bother already.
I am even prepared to give up my studies for this dance competition k.
Cause we know that we're definately capable of entering and going far.
Hey ronghui.
I'm studying coz of you k.
Since you dun let me go for tml's recreation.
You better teach me properly k.
BLEAHZ.
anyway.
Me and D. will be sending you books there every month coz there will be limited or perhaps no supply of english books there to read.
So i'm going to be needing your address.
Anyway.
I wished i had went to catch the fireworks instead.
Well, what's done is done.
What's over is over.
I knnow i don't need to care anymore since no ones decides to care and those who care, well, thanks.
to whatever.
Oh yeah.
Special thanks to Jessica Ong Hui Jia.
thanks for listening and telling me things i seriously never regretted hearing.
Thanks yeah gerl.
Love you for what you are.
Mock exams start next week.
I find solitude in sticking pricetags. Anyone willing to hire?
Agnetta.
120806
Well, I guess I'm not ready then.
Stepping out of the lift gave such a feeling of welcome.
And stepping into the hall gave what?
FLASH BACKS!
MEMORIES!
Damn.
and i was supposed to be so over it.
Nvm. Was supposed to be there for mitra.
Never heard anything though.
All i ended up doing was pasting pricetag stickers on like a few hundred books for D. and sister tuisita.
And well, guess what.
I found more calm and peace pasting stickers that listening to dhamma.
Fine i shoud go around sticking more pricetags.
Then when everything was done and i finally got tired of waiting for D. i decided to leave for Ronghui's place.
He was celebrating his farewell as well as forwarded birthday since he will be in china then.
And i was suppose to be there to celebrate my "victory" over my chinese exam.
Like whichever jackass even cared.
Wel, at least enjoyed myself by getting disturbed by Ann Hao and disturbing him back.
hahaz.
Walao.
He unfaithful lorz.
I feed him cake majiam he send 3 other girls home never send me home lorz.
hahaz.
no la.
well, at least i didnt reach home that late anyway.
not that i can or wanna bother about this kinda timings anymore.
Haiz.
Ronghui's leaving.
Who's going to teach me chemistry!?!
ARGH!
help.
Really dun wanna bother already.
I am even prepared to give up my studies for this dance competition k.
Cause we know that we're definately capable of entering and going far.
Hey ronghui.
I'm studying coz of you k.
Since you dun let me go for tml's recreation.
You better teach me properly k.
BLEAHZ.
anyway.
Me and D. will be sending you books there every month coz there will be limited or perhaps no supply of english books there to read.
So i'm going to be needing your address.
Anyway.
I wished i had went to catch the fireworks instead.
Well, what's done is done.
What's over is over.
I knnow i don't need to care anymore since no ones decides to care and those who care, well, thanks.
to whatever.
Oh yeah.
Special thanks to Jessica Ong Hui Jia.
thanks for listening and telling me things i seriously never regretted hearing.
Thanks yeah gerl.
Love you for what you are.
Mock exams start next week.
I find solitude in sticking pricetags. Anyone willing to hire?
Agnetta.
120806
Friday, August 11, 2006
Life's boring.
Life so totally certified by me.
It's a miracle, yes, but also the greatest BORE ever to be suffered by humans.
Or maybe only by me.
Sheesh.
I scored a five in myMT written paper.
And a distinction in my oral.
And when everybody else is out celebrating their victory, where am i?
Home, being the oh so good gerl i am.
Congrats is all you can give?
sheesh.
and i thought people communicated better without words.
Apparently i thought wrong.
sheesh.
Party and not invited.
How can that be?
I'm like the life of the party helloo..
Sheesh.
And everyone else who's not going for ronghui's farewellpartyis like celebrating their victory with some significant other.
Me?
I cant even find some one to go watch Team France's Fireworks with me tml.
WTH!
lonely...
I'm so lonely.
I have nobody...
To call my own.....
Sheesh.
And this is like such a screwed song seh.
NVM.
i can watch the fireworks on my own.
And talk tomyself to prepare for my English oral on tuesday.
My mom talks to herselftoo.
No wonder i get this gene from her.
Nor wonder i talk to myself too.
Sheesh.
Anyway.
I couldn't be bothered anymore.
I know where Im not wanted.
nvm.
Life is boring.
Lonely, always so lonely.
Agnetta.
110806.
It's a miracle, yes, but also the greatest BORE ever to be suffered by humans.
Or maybe only by me.
Sheesh.
I scored a five in myMT written paper.
And a distinction in my oral.
And when everybody else is out celebrating their victory, where am i?
Home, being the oh so good gerl i am.
Congrats is all you can give?
sheesh.
and i thought people communicated better without words.
Apparently i thought wrong.
sheesh.
Party and not invited.
How can that be?
I'm like the life of the party helloo..
Sheesh.
And everyone else who's not going for ronghui's farewellpartyis like celebrating their victory with some significant other.
Me?
I cant even find some one to go watch Team France's Fireworks with me tml.
WTH!
lonely...
I'm so lonely.
I have nobody...
To call my own.....
Sheesh.
And this is like such a screwed song seh.
NVM.
i can watch the fireworks on my own.
And talk tomyself to prepare for my English oral on tuesday.
My mom talks to herselftoo.
No wonder i get this gene from her.
Nor wonder i talk to myself too.
Sheesh.
Anyway.
I couldn't be bothered anymore.
I know where Im not wanted.
nvm.
Life is boring.
Lonely, always so lonely.
Agnetta.
110806.
Thursday, August 10, 2006
A national day spirit?
a celebration or a time of embarassment?
Well,
If you wanna be able to celebrate national day, just let me tell you, be prepared to be embarassed.
hahaz.
proof?
080806.
When Chong Boon sec decided to have a national day sing-a-long session, the sec 4s decided to let go of their ego and pride that they carry in school and really "enjoy" singing along.
either that, or they just wanted to look really enthu with the national anf school spirit.
Well, either way, they succeeded.
Well,
I can say that i was one of those idiots there singing along as well.
hahaz.
What to say.
Studying with idiots make you into an idiot.
DAMN.
I rocks.
Agnetta.
100806
Well,
If you wanna be able to celebrate national day, just let me tell you, be prepared to be embarassed.
hahaz.
proof?
080806.
When Chong Boon sec decided to have a national day sing-a-long session, the sec 4s decided to let go of their ego and pride that they carry in school and really "enjoy" singing along.
either that, or they just wanted to look really enthu with the national anf school spirit.
Well, either way, they succeeded.
Well,
I can say that i was one of those idiots there singing along as well.
hahaz.
What to say.
Studying with idiots make you into an idiot.
DAMN.
I rocks.
Agnetta.
100806
why.why. why.
WHY.
good question to a lot of things.
Firstly.
Why -
i started a new blog.
i chose this name.
i do the things i do.
Questions questions questions and just no answers.
I started a new blog cox i don't want some people to have acess to it though they might be able to find someway to acess. If your going to take what i say to heart then don't read then. Well, all thanks to you i've chosen to change my blog. So if your happy.
i chose this name coz i LOVE drinking. i LOVE chocolates. Love candy. and absolutely cannot cannot cannot do without hearts.i go round drawing it. yeah. and it's rum and raisin because it's a kinda ice cream i totally adore.
and why i do the things i do is not to be told here coz just in case some people read it and think that i did stuff like land in the hospital just to attract his attention. sheesh. as if you're going to be the most impt person when i need.
so there you have it.
The answers to some WHY questions asked in my life.
Agnetta.
090806
good question to a lot of things.
Firstly.
Why -
i started a new blog.
i chose this name.
i do the things i do.
Questions questions questions and just no answers.
I started a new blog cox i don't want some people to have acess to it though they might be able to find someway to acess. If your going to take what i say to heart then don't read then. Well, all thanks to you i've chosen to change my blog. So if your happy.
i chose this name coz i LOVE drinking. i LOVE chocolates. Love candy. and absolutely cannot cannot cannot do without hearts.i go round drawing it. yeah. and it's rum and raisin because it's a kinda ice cream i totally adore.
and why i do the things i do is not to be told here coz just in case some people read it and think that i did stuff like land in the hospital just to attract his attention. sheesh. as if you're going to be the most impt person when i need.
so there you have it.
The answers to some WHY questions asked in my life.
Agnetta.
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